Don't kill me just yet this is my first Korgan fic, I was requested to write a Korgan fic, my opinion I really don't feel that Kendall and Logan are a good couple it doesn't seem real if you ask me but whatever, Okay I didn't forget about my other story Déjà vu, it just I'm super blocked with that story I have the first half of chapter 3 done but I'm still working on the other half hopefully by the end of this week I'll have it posted. So on to this super drama filled story. Oh and this will be my first story that I added a song to. :D
Disclaimer: I do not own big time rush.
Summary: Jealous James! Carlos knows the true, will he tell or will he keep the secret? Logan is the smarts out of all of them but how can he be so naïve about this one thing? Kendall is a user, will he change his ways our will he break someone's heart? Will he earn their trust once again or lose it forever. Takes place during their high school years before big time rush. Korgan- Relationship, Jarlos- Friendship, Kames- Friendship maybe more, Cargan- Friendship maybe more.
LOGAN POV
Walking through the park alone, wishing I could tell him how I really feel but I don't know if he feels the same way, I hope he does but if he doesn't I don't know what would happen. I need to tell someone about this, I can't keep this bottled up anymore, pulling my phone out of my pocket looking though the contacts 'Um who should I call?' I thought to myself 'Can't talk to Kendall about this because he well you know. Um maybe James, No he will just go tell Kendall, Okay so that leaves Carlos.' So I decided to text him. Hey what are you doing?-L I sent him as I sat down on a bench in the middle of the park waiting for him to reply, I jumped when I felt my phone vibrate looking at the screen I see that he texted back Nm, Bored, Why what's up?-C looking at the screen debating if I should ask him to meet up with me so I can talk to him, Hey, wanna meet up at the park? I need to talk to you.-L I replied hoping he would come but at the same time I don't know how he's going to react to me being in love with Kendall and for being well gay, felt my phone go of again Sure be there in 5, are you okay?-C I replied back saying I was okay and I just need to talk I didn't get a response back just sat here waiting for Carlos to show up and exactly five minutes he appeared. He walked over to me and pulled me into a tight embrace.
"C…Carlos….can't….breath." I said trying to breath, he let go.
"Sorry." He said in a hushed manner looking at the floor.
"It's okay." I said smiling.
"Okay….So what did you want to talk about?" he said taking a seat at the bench I was sitting at I sat down next to him looking down at the floor. "Are you okay Logie?" He asked.
"Yeah I'm fine, but I don't know how to tell you this." I said quietly still looking at the floor.
"Don't know how to tell me what?" He asked putting his hand on my shoulder, I looked up at him to see his cheeks were pink looked like he was blushing 'no it must be the cold.' I thought taking a deep breath.
"I'm gay." I said looking at him for some kind of reaction but all I got was a toothy grin 'why was he smiling' at that thought he pulled me into a hug.
"I can't believe your finally admitting it." He said pulling away from me, I just stare at him in shock.
"What? How did you know?" I asked staring at him in disbelief he just smile.
"Logie I've been your best friend since we were in pre-k, I'm your best friend it's my job to know everything about you." He said proudly.
"Well I guess, but you don't hate me or anything?" I asked looking at him.
"No why would I hate you? Just because you like guys instead of girls is no reason to hate you and by the way if you didn't know I'm gay to." He said looking at me, I just stared at him in shock that he was gay I would have never guessed.
"Really, why didn't you tell me sooner?" I asked he just surged at the question.
"So is there a guy you like." He said, there was some kind of emotion in his eyes I couldn't figure out what it was, but I nodded yes to his question. "Oh, who is it." He said child-like I looked at him then looked down.
"It's Kendall." I whispered, I heard him sigh sounding like he was disappointed but I just shrugged at that.
"Are you going to tell him how you feel?" he asked, I looked at him like he was crazy.
"No! He doesn't like me like that." I said sadly, he put his hand on my shoulder.
"How do you know? You will never know unless you try Logan." He said looking at me, I pulled him into a hug.
"Thank you, I really needed to talk to someone, you're an awesome friend Carlos, Thank you." I whispered in his ear and pulled away "Well I better get home it's getting late, I'll see you tomorrow." I said standing up.
"Bye Logan."
"Bye Carlos." I said as we walked are separate was home.
Walking home wasn't that bad I was just thinking the whole time wondering if I should tell Ca- I mean Kendall how I feel 'Why did I almost say Carlos? I don't like him like that.' I thought as I entered my house.
"LOGAN PHILLEP MITCHEL WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU." My mom yelled making me take a step back.
"I just went for a walk to clear my head and to talk to Carlos, sorry I forgot to call and tell you where I was." I said walking to the kitchen.
"Oh okay but next time let me now where you are okay? I was worried sick." she said, I nodded and opened the fridge grabbing a bottled water. "Are you okay?" she said concerned.
"Actually I have to tell you something." I said shyly closing the fridge.
"Sweetie what's wrong?" she said looking at me worriedly.
"Um mom I'm gay." I said looking at her and her expression turned from worried to happy she's even smiling.
"Aw sweetie, I already knew but I'm happy that you finally found yourself." She said hugging me, I didn't hug back I was in shock that she knew 'Was I that obvious'
"How did you know? Was I that obvious?" I asked as she let go of me.
"I'm your mother I know everything" She said in a matter-of-factly tone. "Yeah it was. So who do you like? Oh is it Carlos?" she asked, I stared at her in disbelief 'why would I like Carlos like that?' I thought
"No I do not like Carlos like that were only friends." I said as her smile turned into a frown.
"Then who do you like then?" she asked
"Kendall." I said looking down.
"Aw that's cute my baby boy as a crush, so does he know that you like him?" she said looking at me smiling, what really starting to creep me out.
"No he doesn't! Well I'm going to bed know. Night mom." I said walking to go upstairs.
"Night Logan." She said as I proceeded to make my way to my room.
Entering my room I start to strip down to my boxers and walk over to my dresser, pulling out plaid pajama pants and a plane white shirt to sleep in, after getting dressed I fell back on my bed thinking if tomorrow I should tell Kendall but I'm still scared, I wonder if Carlos would help me. As I was thinking of ways to tell him my eyes started to slowly close as I drifted off to sleep.
~LINE BREAK~
I just got dropped off at school by my mom, walking up to the school I see Carlos standing there leaning agents the wall of the school, he looks sad for some reason, when he sees me walking over to him his whole expression changes but not into his usual happy-go-lucky self it like he's forcing himself to smile but I just shrug it off and made my way up to him.
"Hey Carlos, where's Kendall and James." I said, I looked at him and there was another emotion in his eyes that I haven't seen before.
"There inside." He said coldly, as he walked away from me 'What did I do to him.' I thought entering the school looking around for Kendall, and James. I found them standing by my locker.
"Hey, what up Logan." They both said.
"Hey guys, Do you know why Carlos is acting weird?" I said, still trying to figure out why he was acting strange to me today.
"No, we haven't seen him today." James said.
"Why what happened?" Kendall asked.
"Nothing really he just wasn't being himself." I said, looking in Kendall's beautiful green eyes that are so memorizing.
"Okay well I'm going to find him and talk to him." James said walking away from us 'Damn please don't leave me.' I mentally yelled 'What am I going to do now.' I thought as we just stood there but luckily he spoke up.
"Hey can I ask you something." He said looking down.
"Yeah, what is it." I said as he looked up at me.
"Um…come with me." He said grabbing my wrist and dragging me outside, we stopped in the parking lot, there were barley any kids out here and the bell to first period is going to ring in five minutes.
"Okay, what did you want to ask me?" I asked him. He looked down staring at his shoes.
"I…was….um….wondering if you would want to go on a date with me." He said looking up at me, I was shocked but I couldn't help but smile.
"What really?" I asked barely being able to formulate words. He nodded his head yes. "Sure."
"Cool, How about I pick you up at 7pm tonight for our date." He said smiling. I nodded my head, and with that we went back into the school right when the warning bell went off, we headed of in different directions.
Heading into my first class chemistry, Carlos has this class to so hopefully I can talk to him to find out what I did to him before class starts. Entering the class room I see Carlos sitting in his usually seat, I walk over and take a seat next to him, he looks at me then looks away.
"Carlos." I said tapping his shoulder, he looks or shall I say glares at me.
"What!" he barks.
"Can you tell me what I did to you, to have you act this way to me." I said looking at him.
"Sorry." He said looking down. "I was just having a bad day. I didn't mean to act like that to you." He said looking up at me, I smiled.
"It's okay. Are you okay though?" I said.
"Yeah I fine. So why are you so cheerful?" he asked.
"You won't believe it but Kendall just asked me out." I said smiling stupidly, for a split second I could have sworn I saw his face fall but I must be imagining it.
"That's awesome, where are you going?" he said.
"Yes it is awesome, I don't know where were going but he's picking me up a 7pm tonight." I said excitedly.
"Cool, hope you have fun." He said as the teacher came in and quieted down the class room.
~Another Awesome Line Break~
Today has been going by so fast it's already lunch time. I made my way through the line to get my lunch, after o got out of the line I went over to the table where we usually sit, I see Kendall, and James sitting there but no Carlos, he's usually the first one here and eating. I sat down next to Kendall, he turned and smiled at me as I could see James glaring at me 'Why is he staring at me like that' I thought.
"Where's Carlos?" James asked. Staring at me.
"I don't know, I was about to ask you guys that." I said taking a bite of my apple the only thing I eat from here I usually give the rest of my food to Carlos.
"I think he said about going to the music room or something." Kendall said with a shrug.
"Well okay I'm going to go look for him." I said standing up. "Hey so are we still on for tonight?" I asked
"Defiantly." He said I just smile and grabbed my tray and threw it away and proceeded to music room.
I stopped in front of the door to the music room, I could hear someone playing a guitar and singing, opening the door slowly not wanting to disturb the person. I saw Carlos standing there with his back turned to me, He started singing again.
Why am I mad, I don't get it,
It seems like every time you give me signs,
And I miss it!
I did it again,
I admit it,
I left you standing there,
And now I regret it,
He sung in perfect key, his voice is amazing, 'I wonder who he is singing about.' I thought as he started singing again.
Seems like every time,
I get the chance,
I lose my cool, and I blow it,
And I get all tongue tied,
Lost in your eyes,
I'm a fool, and I know it!
There's so much emotion in his voice it sound like he's about to cry.
I should've kissed you,
I should've told you,
Told you just how I feel,
And next time I won't stop,
I'll listen to my heart,
Cause what I feel is real!
I should've kissed you,
I should've told you how I feel,
I should've kissed you,
I should've showed you just how I feel,
He sung has he turned around looking at the floor, I could see his eyes are red and puff 'Why is he cry.' I thought he must of not of noticed me because he started singing again.
Now why did'nt I,
Give you my two cents,
A million reasons why I should have,
And it makes no sense,
So here I am,
By myself again,
Stopping for green lights, and Now I know,
I wanna be more than friends,
How come every time I get the chance
I lose my cool and I blow it,
And I get all tongue tied,
Lost in your eyes,
I'm a fool and I know it!
He looked up after he sung the last part, as he saw me standing there his eyes widened, he wiped his eyes on his sleeve, I was still in shock about how beautiful his voice is and that someone made him feel like this.
"How long have you been standing there?" He asked setting down the guitar.
"Not that long. I didn't know you good could sing." I said.
"Well there's a lot of stuff you don't know about me." He spat.
"Why are you being so hostile towards me?" I asked as I see him frown.
"Sorry, like I said today isn't my day." He said with a shrug.
"So who were you singing about?" I said, Looking at him.
"…No one, I just felt like being by myself and singing." He said, walking to the door.
"Wait can I ask you something." I said walking over to him.
"Sure I guess." He said turning to look at me.
"Um….well I never been on a date, and I was wondering if maybe you could help me get ready for my date tonight….if not that's okay to." I said looking down. I heard him sigh.
"Fine, I'll come over after school to help you." He said with a semi fake smile.
"Thank you, thank you." I said hugging him, I let go as the bell rung signaling lunch is over. "Okay I'll see you after school then."
"Yeah, well I better get to class." He said walking out of the room, I left the room also kind of weirder out that Carlos Garcia wanted to get to class.
The rest of the day went by so fast it was already time to go home, I waited out front of the school waiting for Carlos to show up. Standing by the flag pole I see Carlos finally exiting the school, I walked over to him.
"So are you ready to go?" I said, he just shrugged and we walked to my house, luckily my mom won't be home until late tonight or early tomorrow morning.
We walked the entire way to my house in silence, usually Carlos is always talking or doing something. I just shrugged because like he said he was having a bad day. Entering the house we made my way up to my room.
"Hey where's your mom?" He asked taking a seat at the edge of my bed.
"Oh she went to a doctor's convention for today she won't be back until late tonight or early in the morning." I said sitting on my desk chair. "So what do we do first?"
"Well first we get something to eat, because I'm starving I didn't eat lunch." He said as his stomach growled, I just nodded and we went to the kitchen to make something to eat.
After we ate we went back to my room and sat and talked for a minute, I pulled out my phone to see what time it was, 'What no that can't be right' I thought
"Carlos we have one hour and thirty minutes for me to get ready." I said panicking a little bit.
"Okay, calm down Logie." He said standing up and making his way over to my closet.
He went through about ten differ outfits before picking the right one, he picked out black skinny jeans and a gray V-neck shirt and picked out some convers, and after I put it on he did my hair into a faux. By the time I was fully ready it was five minutes till seven pm.
"Hey are you going to stay here until I get back?" I said.
"Not unless you want me to." He said, I thought about it for a minute.
"Yeah could you stay until I get back?" I said, he just nodded his head yes at the same time the doorbell went off. "Okay thank you for everything, I'll see you later." I said walking to the front door. Opening it to see Kendall standing there. Wearing black jeans, a white graphic tee and a gray beanie.
"You look nice." I said looking at him.
"Thanks so do you, ready to go?" He said, I nodded and we left.
What do you think? Good? Bad?
Okay the song is by CHRIS BROWN "I SHOULD'VE KISSED YOU".
My first Korgan story lol sorry for the abrupt ending but it's necessary. I know there was a lot of Cargan Friendship, I know there was barely any of James don't worry u will be seeing more of him later on. So I'm really into this story right now and I will be posting at least once a week maybe two times a week.
Why does Carlos feel so angry/not himself? Why did Kendall ask Logan out? Why was James Glaring at Logan? Is Logan having mixed emotions? What's going to happen at the date or after?
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