The war was over. Hitsugaya Toshiro was staring at the white ceiling in his room at the Fourth Division. He was devastated. He didn't know how his relationship with Hinamori would ever heal. He always loved the girl, as a sister at first. But it turned out to be something more than a sibling kind of love. To him, she was perfect, in any way possible. Her brown wavy hair, her chocolate eyes, her porcelain skin, made him melt. He could name a thousand perfect things about her. But then, that day, his world collapsed. Hitsugaya Toshiro had stabbed his own sister, in the chest. He cursed Aizen for doing this to him. To her. Aizen had made him blind, had used his ZanpakutÅ to make an Illusion. Blind with rage, Hitsugaya had charged, forgetting everything that mattered. He had paid the price. His left limbs had been cut off. But Inoue had healed them back into place. He could still hear her and Unohana-taicho pacing around, trying to heal injured Shinigami as quick as they could so they could heal the others. He could still hear voices, groaning in pain. He could still hear the beeping of the machines that she was attached to, fighting to stay alive. She was in a comatose state, one that he thought that she would never wake up from. Never open her chocolate eyes or brush her brown wavy hair. He would never be able to touch her warm porcelain skin that melted his icy heart. She would never be able to see him again. But a part of him wanted her to stay like that, so he could never have her hate him for putting her through this pain, this suffering. But he deserved it. He deserved it so much. He didn't deserve to live, to breathe. He wished that he could die, to never see the world again. He knew he was being selfish. He was empty. No sunlight could ever touch the icy plain that he believed that he died at. No warmth to melt his icy heart. No hope, no faith, no nothing. Just emptiness to fill him up.
Wow, that was pretty depressing. O.O Wonder what I was feeling while writing this. Well, I was listening to my Evanescence songs. ~KurosakiMikoto