Chapter One – I'm a mum but I need mine.

A/N So this is set after the series final only Amber never had a baby and Julia never announced she was pregnant. But what if Sarah was. This story pretty much doesn't follow the shows story line at all and although Sarah and Mark got married they are having time apart until they meet again.

Sarah on the floor on the corner of the bathroom with her knees pulled up to her chest, her arms wrapped around them and her head resting on her knees as she stared at the white plastic stick that lay beside her, between her and the bath. She could hear the rest of her family down the stairs laughing and joking but here she sat with silent tears running down her cheeks. God there was always something to bring her down.

What she really wanted was her mum right now but how was she going to explain this to her. Hell she was a mum herself to her beautiful nineteen-year-old daughter Amber and almost seventeen-year-old son Drew but right now she needed hers more than ever. When she listened for the sound of anymore laughter she couldn't hear a thing so taking a deep breath she went and unlocked the door before going back to the same place in the same position and called out for her mum.

"Mum" Called Sarah her voice quivering as she barely held it together but she got no answer and called out again."Mum…..MUM"
"What, what is it, where are you darling?" Asked Camille as she walked through the hall of the second floor.
"In here…the bathroom mum"

Camille stopped in front of the door and knocked on it softly before pushing it open just enough to let herself in and closed it behind her. When she turned around from closing the door she seen her daughter sitting in the corner of the room curled up into herself with her face buried into her knees and she herd her sniffing. Concerned she walked over to her and kneeled down wrapping her arms around Sarah and laying her head on her shoulder rubbing her back. After a few seconds she pulled back cupped her cheek in one hand and brushed the hair out of Sarah's face with her other hand.

Sarah looked up at her mum with the saddest eyes Camille had ever seen her have and sniffed again reaching up with her hand that had her woollen sleeve pulled over it she wiped at her nose and eyes. Leaning into her mother's hand she closed her eyes before looking her straight in the eyes with her sad ones and knew that it was now or never. And now was as good as time as any right because she was going to need to support from her sister and sister in law as well as they were right down there….right it is isn't it ?

"What's going on baby?" Asked Camille softly her hand never leaving her cheek.

Sarah reached her right hand down between herself and the bath picking up the pregnancy test and held out to her mum. Her lip quivered as she heard her mum gasp and covered her hand that was holding it with her own one squeezing gently.

"You're pregnant. Are you and Hank having a baby?" Camille asked.
"No not Hank" Whispered Sarah.
"Did you sleep with someone else?" Camille question.
"No" Whispered Sarah again.
"Then…..Did someone force you….did they hurt you?" Asked Camille her voice soft and just above a whisper.
"I told him no…I tried to get him off me"
"The black eye….the sore ribs that wasn't from falling down the stairs was it, it was because you were raped wasn't it?"
"Yeah….Mum"
"Oh baby"

Camille took her daughter back into her arms and held her tightly rocking them slightly as they sat together. She decided it was best if they went to the office out the back that had been converted into a bedroom for Sarah so they could talk and asked if she wanted to be them or it was okay for her sister and sisters in law to join them.

Standing up she helped Sarah up, put the test in Sarah's cardigan pocket and wrapped her right arm around Sarah. Together they started walking down the stairs but Sarah never once looked up from the ground she simply stared at her feet as they moved. When they reached the living room she pointed at Julia, Kristina and Jasmine and told them to follow her now as the rest of the family looked at the concerned to see mum and daughter like that. Sarah still didn't look up as they made their way out of the living room, out the house and went outside to her bedroom walking in.

"I'm going to go back and get some tea and a bottle of wine for the girls I will be right back baby" Said Camille kissing Sarah's head as she stared off into space looking out the window.

Walking back into the house she ignored everyone and went straight to the kitchen turning on the kettle. Waiting for the kettle to boil she pulled out a tray setting a bottle of wine, a bottle of tequila, four wine glasses, four shot glasses and a mug on to it. By the time it was all on the tray she made the mug off tea and made her way past the family, but Adam stopped her.

"Mum what's going on?"
"Nothing just you lot go back to what you were doing"
"Mum"
"Now Adam"

Walking back over to Sarah's room she kicked on the door, her hands full with the tray and smiled a thank you at Kristina as she left her in. The other three women still confused at what was going on. Sitting the tray on the desk she handed Sarah the mug of hot tea then poured the wine and shots. First she handed each of the other woman a shot and told them to drink it because they were going to need it and then handed them their wine when the shot glasses were finished.

Sarah sat in the middle of the bed with her back against the head board hugging the mug of tea to her chest as everyone else gathered around her on the bed, her mum being the one to sit beside her. Leaning over she set the hot drink on the night stand and sucked in a breath as her mum took her hand in hers. Taking her hand out of her mums she turned and curled into her side laying her head on her chest just like she used to do when she was little.

Camille pressed a kiss to the top of her head and asked for the blanket that was over the back of the couch. Quickly being handed the blanket thanked Julia as she helped her lay it over Sarah. Kristina reached under the covers gently and removed the boots from Sarah's feet to make her feel more comfortable and dropped them on the floor at the bottom of her bed.

"What's going on mum" Asked Julia
"Those bruises and the broken Rips Sarah had…she was um"
"You didn't fall down the stairs did you Sarah" Asked Julia
"No I….I was raped and now I'm pregnant"

Sarah went through exactly what had happened that night and explained that she didn't want people to know because I was ashamed but now I'm having a baby. By the time they were ready to join rest of the family they had all shed tears and hugged but after forty-five minutes Sarah didn't want to talk about it anymore saying that people would come looking for them if they didn't re-join them soon.

Once they were back inside she sat between Camille and Kristina as they put on a movie for a family movie night. Max was going to start a tantrum about wanting to watch a bug thing but Adam explained that not everyone liked learning about bugs so they settled for watching a bugs life a cartoon with bugs and it was funny plus he got another sticker. Sarah still didn't say much and finally fell asleep on the couch by the end of the movie she was sleeping across both Camille and Kristina. Camille had her head on a pillow on her knee and was running her fingers through her hair while Kristina had her legs over her and her hand on her hip. Adam was about to pick her up bridal style but his mother and wife practically barked at him to stop.

"Just leave her Adam let her sleep she needs this" Said Kristina
"But she should be in her bed"
"It's okay just let her sleep I will stay down here with her tonight" Said Camille
"What's going on?"He asked
"She will tell you all when she is ready okay all I ask is you all even you Amber and Drew give her time and she will come to you when she is ready"

Adam nodded as Kristina stood carefully out from under her and they all said their goodnights and everyone left to go to their own homes.