I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
She had everything, beauty, brains, and all I was was gay little ryan evens. Our parents liked her better, always paying for her to get new clothes, always getting her the best voice coach and physical trainer. People at school liked her better. Troy Bolton my long time crush dated her for a year. My best friend Kelsi Neilson was In love with her. Of course everybody just thought I was her little sidekick. I didn't like being in her shadow, doing everything she wanted to do, but it was the only way people would notice me.
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity
In our senior year I finally woke up from my nightmare. Sharpay and zeke had started dating over the summer and that led sharpay to ditch me. Of course I was fine with it at first, I hung out with kelsi a lot after that. When school started up I decided go out for soccer. Troy had decided to do soccer also and that led to us becoming friends. We hung out a lot after that, practicing and just hanging out at my house or his. Of course I Didn't want to ruin it by telling him that I loved him.
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me-
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past
Finally our senior year was coming to an end. The senior prom was a few weeks away and I still had no date. One day while sitting in my room just watching T.V. and hanging out troy asked me an odd question. "How did you know you were gay?" Of course I didn't really know how to respond but I told him that I just knew. "Do you think a guy like me could be gay?" I told him that anyone could be gay and that it doesn't really matter who the person is. After I said that he did something I really wasn't expecting. He kissed me! He just leaned in and kissed me. At first I didn't know what to do but after he thought that I wasn't interested and started pulling away I pulled him closer and deepened the kiss. That kiss went on for about five minutes until we had to pull away for breath. "Would you go to the prom with me ryan evens?" He asked me. I was so stunned I didn't know what to say. "What about everyone else?" I asked him. "Who cares about everyone else, I want to go to prom with you." He replied. "Yes." I said and that conversation was over. The prom was great. People didn't really say much about us going together. We decided to be officially a couple.
I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
We found a great college that fit both our needs, his basketball needs and my acting needs. Now ten years later were still together and very much in love.
Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day
I can officially say that I am not living in sharpay's shadow anymore.