Author's Note: So, these are a bunch of poems I have written in the point of view of Spike. They're not amazing, but considering that I'm not a poet, I think they are decent. I put them in order of the ones I like most, so the seasons I wrote them for are not in order. Please, enjoy. ^-^
Disclaimer: I own nothing, just the poems. :)
(Season Seven)
In the days of yore, I was a good man
An honest man
A loving man
In the days of yore, I was a good man.
I was a good man.
The times, they did change, and so did I.
The human I was was no more.
Cursed forever to wander as the damned.
The good man was no more
If I was a man, would she love me?
If my heart beat, would it be hers?
If I could turn back time, and be human again,
Would she love me as much as I love her?
The things I've done, no man would do.
I can see that now
Turning back time won't change a thing.
And I can't tear this soul in two.
If I was a man, would she love me?
If my heart beat, would it be hers?
If I could turn back time, and be human again,
Would she love me as much as I love her?
Burn it out.
Kill it dead.
Nothing will get
These voices out of my head.
In the days of yore, I was a good man
An honest man
A loving man
In the days of yore, I was a good man.
I was a good man.
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(Season Five)
The world grew dim,
That silent night,
As the once proud Slayer
Faced her plight
As she leaped
I only stared,
For the eyes I loved
Were dead, and bare
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(Season Six)
The moment I saw her, I just knew
My dead heart stopped beating, that much is true
I saw her dance, and on that night
A poor man's soul lost its fight
Her beauty, her wonder surrounded me
I longed to have it set free
I hated how she'd make me feel
Emotions that just shouldn't be real.
I may have done stupid things
But I'm on the right track baby, I'm finally free
A murderer for years, I've been
But I've found my way, and those days are gone
A new man is here, and he's just your humble pawn
I tried to be a man she'd love
A man that she could approve of
But years of tarnish never disappears
And her heart will never be mine, I fear.
I may have done stupid things
But I'm on the right track baby, I'm finally free
A murderer for years, I'd been
But I've found my way, and those days are gone
A new man is here, and he's just your humble pawn.
Beat me down, 'til I'm bleeding
Take what you want, it's yours.
As long as you are happy, do it
Take from me, a slave of love.
I may have done stupid things
But I'm on the right track baby, I'm finally free
A murderer for years, I'd been
But now all I am is your slave,
And I won't ever be free of these chains.
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(In between Seasons Six and Seven)
I promised I would love her forever
That she would always be safe with me
But then we started this harmful endeavor
And the things I did will never be redeemed
From the first kiss, I was hooked
Couldn't stop if I wanted
All common sense was overlooked
And this harmful game was soon started
Why did we do that to ourselves?
Why did we break and take and burn?
Why did our previous feelings get shelved
leaving my heart to yearn?
You hate me, I know you do.
You have a good excuse.
The things I've done are unforgivably cruel
I took your golden heart, and made it bruise.
So away I'll go,
Across the sea.
Try to lay low,
And become a man like you need me to be.
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(Season Five)
I love her
That much is true
I love her
More than I ever knew
I love her
How her eyes sparkle with light
I love her
How she can shine even in the dead of night.
I love her
For how much she cares
I love her
For the way she shares
I love her
And God only knows why
I love her
No matter how much I would once deny
I love her
Though she'll never believe it
I love her
And I just can't quit.
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(Season Two)
There she stood
The Slayer
God, how I hate her.
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(Season Seven)
Pain
Sorrow
Horror
Power
Murder
Pleasure
How could I do those things?
Murder, and rape and kill?
How could I do those things?
So evil, and depraved of skill.
How could I do those things?
Hurt so many lives
How could I do those things?
Without so much as blinking an eye.
Was I really that monster?
Was it really me?
I keep hoping I'll wake up,
And this'll just be a dream
But I remember all I've done
Every life I took, breath I stole
I remember all of it
And the pleasure I felt in the murder.
God, if you're out there, please forgive me
I know I don't deserve
But I'll do everything in my power
To redeem myself of those horrors.
God, it hurts
This pain in me
I want to rip it out
But no matter how hard I try, it just can't be
I see now.
Why she couldn't love me
I was a soulless evil monster
I was everything dark, while she was light personified.
~XoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXoXo~
(Season Seven)
So, this is how it ends.
I can feel it
Light pouring through me
It burns
Worse than the soul
I want to make it stop
But at the same time
I know I can't
Better yet, I won't
I see now
My purpose
I was meant to die here
And maybe, just maybe, my soul will be redeemed.
I hope so.
Then one day, I can see her again
In all her shining beauty
If once I die, I can see her again up there
It will all be worth it.
She said she loves me.
I don't know what to believe
Is she telling the truth?
Or is she granting a dying man his last wish?
Either way
I had to make her leave
Had to make her think
That I didn't believe.
As long as she is alright
I can live with this
As long as she is fine
My death was not in vain.