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Dear Duncan,

I know you don't want to hear from me but tough- because I really want to hear from you. I know what you're thinking now. Probably something along the lines of: Are you sure this is Courtney? She can't be serious. Well I am. I really am. I want to talk about us. Or what used to be us because to tell you the truth I'm still hurting.

I miss you. I miss the way you teased me with your silly taunts and pet names. When I think of what could have been between us if I was just a bit more caring and understanding I feel so horrible and there's this pain in my heart deep down. I'm admitting this purely because I need closure. I don't want this ache inside my heart anymore, I don't. Its been 2 months since the end of Total Drama World Tour and I still can't forget. And as much as it pains me to say this- I want to move on and feel FREE. I miss you Duncan and although I don't think I would ever say it to your face… I loved you and maybe I still do.

I want to know that you've forgiven me Duncan. So just try to write back to me, just once. So I guess you're expecting me to say hope you're happy with Gwen now? Well forget it because I still am me and I will always not like you're relationship. Just try and write back. Please?

I'll love you just a little bit, always.

Love from Courtney xxx

I set down my pen and folded the letter into an envelope. I wrote down his address. I knew it so well now. I leaned back in my chair and sighed with relief. My therapist was right, this did feel good. I've been thinking and thinking about Duncan but I didn't know why. Well I did but I just didn't want to admit it. Everything's been going so well in my life. I'm planning to go to London to go to Oxford University but yet I'm still thinking about a hopeless delinquent? I had asked my therapist this two weeks ago when I went to see her. She patted my knee and looked at me sympathetically with her big blue eyes. "Try writing a letter for your emotions. It will make you feel better". So that's exactly what I just did. But don't worry I'm not going to send it. Nope. Not over my dead body. I chuckled to myself quietly in my bedroom. No way was I sending that letter.

Later on I decided to take a shower, you know to cleanse my soul. I set the water on luke warm and let the water wash over me. I closed my eyes thinking, about you know who. I heard my mom go into my room while I was in the shower. She shouted to me saying something but I couldn't hear and I didn't want to be disturbed so I just yelled back a mumbled yes, thinking it was her telling me to clean my room. I heard the front door shut 5 minutes later. Oh well. She's probably just gone out. I got out the shower ten minutes later, a towel wrapped around my mocha skin. I walked into my room and found a note laying on bed. I smiled. Must be from mom.

Courtney,

I've just gone out to run a few errands, hope you don't mind. I found an envelope addressed on your desk addressed to southern Ontario. I picked it up and am going to post it. I asked you if you wanted it posted and you said yes so don't get angry if it wasn't meant to

Love, mom

My eyes widened and my jaw dropped. I slumped on my bed. My eyebrows furrowed. Crap! She realley mailed it. What would Duncan say. Would he smirk? Would he laugh? Would he and Gwen just mock me? I couldn't bear to think about it anymore. I lay back on my bed tears running down my cheek. The ache in my heart was worse than ever. Of course I didn't want mom to pick it up and mail it but some of me does. I can't help it. I love him.

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InsanelyCrazy3299, The Angry Hippy

miss you Duncan and although I don'