"Hey! Meatball Head! Can't you even wish me a
happy journey…"
Sniff! " IDIOT JERK! What do you care…You
will be away for two years…LOOK AS MUCH
AS YOU LIKE AT ALL THOSE PRETY
GIRLS…..…Isn't it natural for me to cry…?"
" Anyone would think you are my girlfriend…
And we will be in contact through e-mails,
phones…..."
"…Meanie..…" I remained silent…It was true…
If there was anything I wanted to be then it was
his special someone
"Its time now….. Mearball Head, Don't
cry….You look 300 times more ugly when you
cry..."
"Meanie!" Even now I couldn't help but stick out
my tongue.
"Bye Meatball Head… I love you….."
Without a backward glance…..without my
answer…..without another single word he went
away…
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All my way back I couldn't stop thinking about
him…..He was going to Cambridge University
(Rose: I don't know what university he's going
on the Stars season so bear with me.) He won't
be returning for two years…But I am sure after
he returns we will be together ever after…..
I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice
my breaks weren't working when a truck was
coming my way..Dammmmmmit!…Damn!
Brakes! Why aren't they working!….
..Before I could panic the ….My car went on a
head on collision with the truck…
….Barely alive…..life seeping out…..if this feels
like dying then….even then my last words
are…were…will always be….Darien…DARIEN!
I awoke up from the monotonous sound of the
various machines….Yaaay! I was alive…..Man! I
thought I was a complete lost cause….
Raye and Jadeite were near my bed…crying…
I wanted to reassure them that I was ok…..but
no words came out of my mouth….I was unable
to make a single sound…
"Serena! I was so worried…We thought we
would lose you…"
I started to panic…Why! Why can't I speak…..
Beep! Beep!
"Nurse!"
I learned later that my vocal cords were
completely destroyed….I will never be able to
speak again…..nor walk…Yes….my legs didn't
get any nervous signals…Doctors said there is
little chance I will ever walk again …perhaps
never…..
I decided….I can never be with Darien….I didn't
deserve him…He deserved…he deserved
someone better …someone who can walk along
with him in his life…someone who can sing to
him the melody of the joyous life…..I will be
nothing but an extra baggage to him….
Raye and Jadeite hadn't contacted Darien yet….I
somehow managed to tell them…begged them
not to inform him…..
My dream with Darien stops here
But his messaged didn't stop….
"Meatball Head! Pick up the phone!"
"What the….Hell! If you don't reply…I am
coming down there?"
My phone rang the whole day…
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What did he know with his every message my
heart yelled in pain…
Did he realize :every time the phone rings.. my
heart rang in pain…
…I mailed him back …
"Darien , It will be better if you forget
me…..Because I know you love me…But I don't
love you…I like someone else…I am
sorry….Don't try to trace me….. I have changed
my address…"
That was my last email to him…
"Serena! Please …..please…PICK UP THE
PHONE….."
"Raye, Jadeite…No one picks up the phone….
What the hell!"
"Serena!…I am sorry for calling you polka….I
am sorry for everything …anything wrong which
I ever did…..Please…please…. pick up the
phone…"
"Please…please…please…. Serena…. Pick up
the phone… My life can't be complete without
you…Please….. Pick up the phone….. At least
talk to me about your new found
LOVE..DAMNIT!"
He didn't know that I was willing to throw away
my life just to talk to him….run to his arms….
….I ignored his phone calls everyday…..
I didn't reply to his messages…..
And they stopped after a month…
I ignored all his 1757 emails…
After Two Years
"You sulk all day…Do you want to bore
yourself to death….."
"I wish I could…" I signed her back.
It was already two years after that incident…I
learned the sign language thanks to Raye's
insistence…You know Raye…she practically
forced me….And she to took a course in sign
language to interact with me…
"Serena, I will hit you if you get suicidal again.
"Just joking." I signed with my fingers.
"Lets go to the park" She smiled…Raye totally
changed for me.
Yeah! In the last two years I tried numerous
attempts to kill myself…I begged Raye for
cyanide….I tried to bleed myself to death…
Nothing worked….. Raye pried over me like I
am a precious diamond….But I felt myself
worthless like the worst piece of coal….If it was
not for her I would have been long dead…..
Why I didn't I die in the accident itself
…...Nothing can be worse than living like this…
I tried to move my legs…again and again….But
they won't move…I will be a vegetable all my
life…..
"You know Serena… Jadeite and I are getting
married next week…." She said while pushing
my wheelchair…..
"At last you got to your senses…" I smiled and
signed back…..
"And Darien is getting married to…and he wants
you to come…."
WHAT! I should have been very happy! That's
what I wanted for him…..That's what I wished
for him all along…..This piece of information
must have lifted my heart….
Only it didn't….I felt so sad….As if the only
hope with which I was living was smashed . My
hope that I will wake up from this nightmare
crushed…..Did I have anything to live for
now…Always being dependent on Raye…. .
Raye handed me the wedding card….. I stared at
it with surprise….I got the greatest shock of my
life…
It was written…
Darien Shields weds Serena Johnson…
'What kind of joke is this' I signed back
"Really , look for yourself" And she gave me
one of those rare bottom of the heart true
smiles…
I looked forward….Only to get the greatest
shock of my life…..
He was there looking ever handsome, his
beautiful eyes stained and shimmering with
tears…
I sat there enchanted, shell shocked…
"Serena! " He took a step towards me…..
"Did you think you can get rid of my love this
easily…If Raye hadn't told me I would have
gone insane…..She told me that sympathy was
the last thing you needed….So in this last two
years I learned the sign language….To prove my
love for you…So I can understand what you
want to say…..and tell the world what you want
to convey…..It doesn't matter if you can't sing
…..I will sing for you….It doesn't matter if you
can't walk…..I will carry you…..Serena, you
were mine, are mine, and it's a promise till
eternity that you will be mine…NO MATTER
WHAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU,
IDIOT!" He told everything with sign
language…And his eyes conveyed everything
that words could ever convey…... He stood
there with his hands outstretched …..
I was overwhelmed with emotion…..And out of
the blue,I tried to run into his outstretched
hands….
And I did what I couldn't in two years…..
I stood up…..Only for seconds…But I stood
up.!
I tried to take a step towards him…But I
staggered and started to fall….
But he caught me and instead I fell in the endless
abyss of his pain enveloped, tear filled beautiful
midnight blue eyes…
And before all the children in the park…..
Before Raye….
His face lowered into mine….
His tears mingled with mine…
I could feel his breathing in my face…..
And than we…..I can do without writing
this….Right?….*Blush' Blush*