I'M BACK Y'ALL! AND WITH A WHOLE NEW STORY!

I've thought about something like this for quite some to be honest. I thought it would be interesting so I got off my lazy ass and wrote it. I did my best to make it different from my last story but its all up to you guys in the end. I just decided it was good enough to be in the outside world...god i hope this doesn't suck XD

Anyway on to the newest addition to the HikaKao fandom collection ^_^

Italics: Kaoru's thoughts

Bold Italics: Hikaru's thoughts

Pairings: Hikaru x Kaoru

Disclaimer: I stick to my previous claim. The ouran doesn't belong to me but the twins belong to each other! Forever!

Enjoy ^_^

It was another boring day for both twins.

Boring; yes.

But in a different way for each Hitachiin.

Hikaru just sat in his desk in the middle of class; working on his current assignment best he could. He just wanted the day to move on already. Rarely anything exciting or even interesting happened these days, but he still couldn't wrap his head around why.

It's been a while since I was this bored for so long . . .*sigh* maybe I could start a fire, and then school will be out long enough so that I can think. Yeah, great idea, destroy a place to learn so that I can think. I've really been slipping on my plotting lately. I wonder why? I haven't been doing anything different. I think. At least I know I wasn't being different.

He did notice something though. . .

Someone has been watching him for quite some time now.

Speaking of Kaoru, he was busying himself with mindlessly staring at his brother. Letting his thoughts swirl and roam with wants and questions on his own reasons for being bored. And a bit lonely.

Look at me.

Come on.

Why won't he look at me?

Why won't he touch me?

Do something to me.

Hell even right now in class will do at this point.

Anything

Pat me

Lick me

Bite me

Scratch me

Hit me

Hold me

Love me

Please.

Just, look at me,

The way you used to.

I still do.

I never stopped.

And I never will.

Look at me damn it!

Things went on like this for both twins.

One so bored it was painful.

And one in so much pain it was boring.

The bell for the end of class finally rang. Hikaru was on his way towards the host club, but on his way, he was suddenly stopped by a tug of his arm and the sound of a familiar voice.

"Hey wait. Let's talk for a minute." Kaoru said, dragging his brother to the side of the hall. Ok Kaoru, stay cool. You can do this.

Hikaru stood with his twin already a bit annoyed "Talk about what exactly? You're constant staring at me all day, every day at school? Yes Kaoru, let's talk about it!" Maybe slightly more annoyed than he thought.

"I-I wasn't-...Okay, maybe I have been looking at you funny for some time." He stopped to think carefully of his next words, "B-but it's not entirely my fault! You haven't-"

"Then what is it? Do you have a problem with me Kaoru? Is that it?"

Where did that come from? "What are you talking about? Look Hikaru, I've just been a little on edge lately cause-"

"On edge?! You get nervous whenever I'm within ten feet of you! What, am i smothering you!?"

Just the opposite actually "If you would just let me speak-"

"What for Kaoru? You've said enough! I'm out of here."

Walking down the now empty halls, feeling only a twinge of guilt for lashing out at his twin, Hikaru heard one final line from Kaoru before he himself walked off.

"WHY DON'T YOU CARE ANYMORE!?"

Hikaru looked back at his retreating brother. As one thought that continued to repeat in his head for what he can assume will be the rest of the day.

What's that supposed to mean?

Later in the day . . .

Closing the door to their shared bedroom, Hikaru marched in to see his twin curled up in their covers. Looking in such a way that the sight nearly had him in tears knowing he may have pushed his brother into such a pitiful state. But why? Surely me losing my temper is nothing new to him. So why is he so upset?

Feeling a shift on the bed, and not the covers being thrown off of him; Kaoru realized Hikaru actually wants to talk this time. A little late for that brother dear.

"Hey Kao . . . I'm sorry. What I said earl-"

"DON'T HIKARU! Just DON'T" Kaoru threw the cover off of himself and glared at his twin whole wholeheartedly. Having lost all hope of fixing what has been done, he lost his temper as well.

It was a rare sight to see the younger of the two so upset, and even more so when the anger was directed at him. Kaoru was always more prone to avoid fights between the two if he could. However he wasn't afraid to shoot a word or two at another person if it meant standing up for his twin. People hardly ever messed with them anyway so again, this was rare.

One of the reasons he avoided yelling at his twin out of anger is because he didn't like seeing the shocked expression on his face. Or the instant tantrum that followed it.

"What's your problem Kaoru? I'm trying to apologize here! Why can't you just accept it?!"

"Do you even know what you're apologizing FOR Hikaru?" Not caring to actually wait for his response, Kaoru hopped off the bed and headed towards the bathroom. He didn't know what for. He just wanted to walk away, but not really go anywhere.

"Of course I do. You're upset because I lost my temper and yelled at you. I feel bad, so I am apologizing. What's not to get?" deciding he didn't want to lose the argument; Hikaru had followed him to the bathroom and waited for a comeback. However, didn't expect the bitter laughter that came from his twin instead.

"I don't believe this. You honestly have no idea how bad this situation is. Do you?"

Hikaru couldn't make tales of what his brother may have been referring to. He racked his brain until he came up with the worst possible scenario.

"So you want to break up."

"Excuse me?" To hear such words from his twin caused a slight tug at his heart in the worst way. Has he lost it?

Having not heard an instant denial from his brother at the accusation, Hikaru thought he must have come to the right conclusion. In fact, it made perfect sense. To him anyway.

"Well you have been avoiding me like the plague this past week. You give me these creepy looks like you're ready to eat me alive. And you don't even look at me when we have sex anymore. We barely even do it so is it really so bad for you? If you want to end it, then just say it and get it over with." Sadness came with each word he said. He thought he figured it out. That he saw it coming. But then why does this this seem so hard? "Just spit it out! Say you don't love me anymore!"

"JUST SHUT YOUR DAMN MOUTH HIKARU! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO PLAY THE VICTIM HERE!" That was the last straw. He couldn't listen to anymore of his brother's accusations. YOU DON'T TOUCH ME! YOU DON'T CARE!

"K-Kaoru?" No words could come from Hikaru's mouth. He felt as if some otherworldly force was telling him to just shut up and listen for once. So he did.

Kaoru took a breath and prepared himself before he let go of what he has been holding in for such a long time. Turning his head slightly away from his brother; Kaoru began to explain.

"You said we hardly ever do it anyway. But it's not just that Hikaru. We never do anything of the things we used to. We haven't really done anything together. It feels like . . . like we aren't even dating in the first place. There hasn't been any romance in such a long time."

As the hurt in his heart grew, Kaoru's head shot up with a firm gaze that became somewhat more intense as he went on.

"And our 'sex life' is practically non-existent. We don't try anything creative or exciting at all. Not even the most basic parts of foreplay. Hell not even foreplay. No hand-jobs, no blow-jobs, no dirty talk, no flirting, not even hand holding! No touching what-so-ever! We never go out anywhere together. You don't even want to do it somewhere other than the damn bed! All you do is grab me when you feel horny, strip me down, and pound into me until we both cum; which doesn't last very long by the way. It's not even good enough to be considered an orgasm anymore Hikaru! Do you understand how sad that is? You don't even take off your clothes most of the time because you know you aren't going to be tired afterwards. Didn't you ever wonder why that is? Or how that makes me feel? That you don't even try to please me anymore? THAT YOU DON'T CARE?!"

"..."

Kaoru's gaze softened a bit and he sighed sadly before he continued "Did you even notice that we haven't shared a kiss in over three freaking months Hikaru? Did you at least see that much? Something so important that connected us in the first place?" He took a deep breath that should have calmed him down, but only allowed his tears to begin to fall gracefully down his face.

With shaky breathing, Kaoru concluded with his heart breaking,

"I-if you aren't even going to show any interest in our love life. . .th-then. . .then maybe we just shouldn't have one at all!"

He ran from the room with tears pooling in his eyes; leaving behind a shocked and confused Hikaru standing frozen in his place.

Hikaru stood still in the middle of the bathroom. Trying to digest and understand a realization that is only just now coming to him after who knows how long.

I wasn't the victim. Far from it. I was the problem.

He didn't move from that spot for several minutes. Simply thinking about what's happened and listening to his twin's nearly silent sobs in the next room.

How did I let this happen? Hikaru thought to himself as he was now pacing around the abnormally large bathroom. When, did I let this happen?! Yea I noticed sex with Kao was getting shorter and shorter, but not by much; but then again compared to the first few times…it was more than three times as long. And I suppose I have gotten a bit lazy when it came to foreplay and such…which would explain why I'm not even tired afterward. But there is no way that I have been neglecting him and his desires. Right?

Hikaru thought back on it for a moment,

"Hey Hika~ I got this great new kitty outfit! C'mon let's try it!"

"Nah, I'm going to check out the new arcade now. Wanna tag along?"

"N-No. No that's okay. I'm just going to go take a nap"

"Sure thing little bro"

"G'night . . . bro"

Oh no.

"Kaoru, have you seen my phone?"

"Of course, I have it"

"Well then hand it over"

"Hmm...No"

"Why not?"

"Let's go out tonight!"

"What"

"I thought we could go out and have some fun tonight Hika. Just, the two of us. No club, no phone, just being with each other."

"Kaoru, we are rich. We don't need to go out to have fun."

"Yeah I-I know that, I just wanted..."

"Kaoru just give me my phone and call some people on yours if you want to go somewhere. I'm relaxing on the couch."

"..."

"I don't have all night."

"...fine"

"Thanks have fun!"

He raised his head suddenly, eyes wide with fear and shame. "Oh hell."

Turning his head to Kaoru, he watches as tears continue to fall down his sweet face.

Feeling so much frustration with himself, Hikaru throws a rather hard punch to nearby wall.

"Fuck!"

He sheds tears of his own, too angry with himself to wipe them away or feel the pain in his hand.

I promise this isn't going be an all the way through they fight until the very last chapter kind of story. I can't tell you how much i HATE those. I mean does it count as a HikaKao if they aren't paired until the very end? Don't get me wrong, those are great stories but they frustrate the crap out of me.

Anyway...

Man this took a long time. I must say that kaoru's speech made me tear up a little. But I wasn't sure if it turned out how I was hoping. I was going for heartbreaking speech. Which I'm no good at. And I don't know if it's just me, but hey, I told you how I felt.

Your turn!

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