My Friend, My Love
Disclaimer: I do not own YYH or any of its characters being that they all belong to Yoshihiro Togashi.
Notes: This piece is a prompt request from a drabble request meme on my Tumblr from candidishida, "Tell me how much you really feel about me" KoenmaXBotan
Drabble Summary: Koenma has had feelings for Botan for quite a while and he's been too afraid to show his true feelings for her because, he's so convinced that she loves someone else. He is surprised when he finds out the truth. Drabble request for candidishida "Tell me how much you really feel about me". KoenmaXBotan Fluff.
Stamp…rustle…stamp…rustle…
Koenma was once again hard at work with his stacks upon stacks of paperwork. Even though he was very busy and working hard, his mind couldn't help but wander. Lately, since coming back from the Demon World Tournament and everything that had happened before, he couldn't help but, think of how much he deeply cared about Botan.
Out of everyone who is or was associated with Team Urameshi, Koenma worried about her the most. Whenever Botan's safety was compromised especially during all of the cases she accompanied Yusuke on and during the Sensui Case when she fractured her back to save Mitari, it made Koenma very nervous to the point of where he prayed that she would be alright.
Stamp…rustle…stamp…rustle
Now that all of that was over and done with, the three planes of existence were at peace again all thanks to the first Demon World Tournament that had taken place nearly two years before. The young prince continued to work silently being immersed in his thoughts when the two pink and yellow double doors to his office opened.
Botan silently walked in and seeing her currently pint sized boss and friend buried in his heavy workload, she stopped in front of Koenma's desk. The young prince didn't pay any attention to her at all being consumed in his thoughts and his work.
Stamp…rustle…stamp…rustle
He continued his rhythmic pattern. Botan began to feel like he was in one of his moods again. She hated seeing him like that so, she cleared her throat and thought of a way to get his attention.
"Koenma. Sir, Koenma."
Stamp…rustle…stamp…rustle
He continued to work as he stamped a few more documents and put them into the processed pile. Botan sighed and decided to try again, "Koenma. Hey Koenma!"
He abruptly stopped hearing the lovely grim reaper raise her voice at him. Koenma just sat there staring at her with a sad but, blank expression on his cute chubby face. With him looking at her like that, it really broke her heart.
Over the last few weeks, Koenma had been acting that way and nobody could figure out why he seemed depressed. Not even Jorge could figure it out. Deciding to take a stab at it, Botan then asked him, "Koenma is there something wrong?"
He blinked his big brown eyes and asked her, "Why do you ask?"
Botan shrugged her slender shoulders and said, "Because, you have been acting rather odd lately. Everyone is beginning to suspect something has been bothering you. Is it the fact that I am still going to the Human World every once and a while to go see Yusuke and gang?"
Koenma set his wooden stamping tool down on his desk and stared at the stack of unprocessed paperwork in front of him. He bit down on his pacifier and then replied, "No."
Botan stared at him curiously. If it wasn't that, then it had to be something else and she was determined to know what it was, "Then what is it?"
Still staring at the stack of paperwork in front of him, the currently toddler looking prince then sighed and said, "It's nothing Botan. I…I need to get back to work. I have so much to get done."
He then picked up his wooden stamping tool and proceeded to get back to work to take his mind off of it. Seeing that he was trying to avoid his problem by overworking himself again, Botan then sighed with exasperation beginning to lose her patience with him.
The lovely grim reaper put her hands on her hips and walked over to Koenma's desk, leaned over and snatched his seal out of his small hand. Koenma looked up at her and gave her a death glare, "Hey! What the hell was that for?! Give it back!"
"No. I'm not giving it back until you tell me what's wrong. Koenma, there has been something on your mind for quite a while and I want to know what it is so I can help."
They both awkwardly stared at each other for a moment until Koenma broke the silence between them, "Botan, give me back my seal right now or I'll…"
"Or you'll do what?" Botan interrupted him and then added, "You'll punish me? Fine, go on ahead. If you don't want anyone to know what's been bothering you, fine. I can see that you don't want be helped."
She then set the wooden stamping tool on her boss's desk and turned to leave the office. Deciding to weigh his options and thinking fast, Koenma then spoke up, "Botan wait."
The lovely grim reaper stopped in front of the two pink and yellow double doors and turned around, "Yes?"
Koenma bit down on his pacifier and looked down at his desk and sighed, "Please don't go. I'll talk."
Botan walked back over to his desk and stood in front of him again, "Good, what has been bothering you?"
The young prince continued to stare at the stacks of unprocessed paperwork sitting on his desk and asked in a sort of a meek tone, "Why do you hang around with Kurama so much?"
Botan stared at him dumbstruck and blinked her beautiful pink eyes. She did understand what he was asking her and decided to respond, "What do you mean?"
Koenma let out a loud exhale and looked up at her. Botan could see the sad look on his face and he finally decided to say something, "If there is something going on between the two of you, fine, I can't stop it. I'll get over it. If Kurama makes you happy, I'm happy for you."
Her jaw dropped at what he just said. Botan stood there speechless for a minute not knowing what to say. She was going to say something to the distraught prince, until he finally blurted out, "I love you Botan and I have for a while. Your happiness is what matters the most to me and I just want you to be happy."
"Koenma…"
"I can see that you and Kurama have something special and who am I to break up a happy relationship? The last thing I want to be is a home wrecker and I bet you just think of me as your friend and your boss. That's fine, I'm okay with that. It's not like I don't know what it's like to be rejected by girls. Like I said, I'll get over it. I mean, come on, what girl would want to go out with me? Hell, look at me, I'm pathetic. I'm practically an adult and I choose to be in this degrading body all the time and suck on this stupid pacifier and it's not like any women are knocking on my door…"
"Koenma…"
He continued on his little rant and seeing that he looked like he was about to burst into tears, Botan decided she had enough of listening to Koenma feeling sorry for himself. The lovely grim reaper than raised her voice, "KOENMA SHUT UP!"
He sat there completely silent and stared at her. Botan then decided to break the awkward silence between them and asked, "Why do you think there's something going on between me and Kurama?"
Koenma just shrugged his small shoulders and responded, "You guys have been hanging around each other a lot and I see the way you look at him."
"There's nothing between us Koenma. Kurama and I are just friends, nothing more. Besides, he has a thing for Shizuru."
She and Koenma just stared at each other again and Koenma then asked her, "If that's the case, do you like someone else? It's Hiei or Yusuke, isn't it?"
"What?! No!"
Koenma then took a deep breath and then asked her, "Botan, how do you feel about me? Please tell me how much you really feel about me. Like I said, I can take the rejection. I'm too used to it, to the point of being numb to it."
Botan let out a loud sigh in slight annoyance and shook her head and answered truthfully, "What makes you think that I'm going to reject you? Koenma, I feel the exact same way for you. I have for quite a while. I just have been too afraid to say something but, after you confessed your feelings, I felt it was time to do so. I love you too Koenma."
He couldn't believe what had just come from Botan's mouth. Staring up at her lovely face, he saw that she was completely genuine and sincere with what she just said. Hearing those words come from her mouth was so surreal and he felt the happiest he felt in quite a while.
Koenma brightly smiled behind his pacifier and hopped out of his big plush red chair and switched to his tall and handsome adult form and walked up to her. He removed his pacifier and slipped it into his pocket. Koenma and Botan gazed into each other's eyes and without saying another word, Koenma gently cupped Botan's lovely face in his hands and gave her a soft, deep, and loving kiss.
Botan returned the same love and kissed him back. They parted a minute later and Botan gave him a warm smile, "So, when do you want to go out? I can see that you're quite busy right now."
Koenma turned around and looked at his desk and shifted his attention back to Botan and replied, "How about this weekend?"
Botan smiled and nodded, "It's a date." She looked over at the prince's desk and asked him, "Would you like some help?"
He stared at her blankly for a minute and shrugged his broad shoulders figuring that it wouldn't hurt, "Sure why not? Thank you, Botan. I love you."
She smiled, "I love you too Koenma."
They walked back over to his desk and soon got started on the remaining stacks of paperwork. Koenma was so happy to finally know that the woman he loved reciprocated his feelings and he couldn't be more grateful. The budding lovers couldn't wait until their first official date that coming weekend.
~The End. Until Next time ;)