My second ever Sarah/Cameron (drabble) fic. Very moment driven, rather than an actual plot.
Why doesn't she hug me instead?
Cameron feels her hand involuntarily clench around the shovel. She shouldn't be feeling jealousy towards John hugging his mother. She shouldn't be feeling jealousy. She shouldn't be feeling. Or so everyone else keeps telling her.
Cameron knows that it is perfectly appropriate for Sarah to cry from frustration and most probably exhaustion. Cameron doesn't think it is healthy for Sarah to bottle up her emotions all the time, but never said so because she knew Sarah would just scoff and bottle it up even more.
John has been horrible to Sarah lately and this furthers Cameron's angry and jealousy towards him. Cameron's anger. She is feeling angry as well as jealousy. The damage to her chip must have triggered some hidden subroutine. Or so Cameron hopes, because it is not at all possible for her to become human. It is not possible.
But why won't Sarah hug Cameron for comfort instead? In all the movies Cameron has consumed, when people cry they run to hug someone. Sarah, however, didn't do that. John went to her. Cameron would have liked to go to Sarah but knew it wouldn't be wise. If Sarah had run to her however, it would have been appropriate for Cameron to hug Sarah like she wanted to.
If only Sarah had to me.
I wish Sarah had run to me.
Why not me?
Cameron understands that her fleeting desire to throw John aside is illogical and completely against her programming, but so is loving Sarah Connor.
The End
I hope it was a nice enough read, even though it was so short.