A/N: This is how Lorelai's feels. Trust me, I want Luke and Lorelai to be perfect together. But this song just said, "Lorelai feels like this. Oh my god." because it's really sad.
Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Lorelai felt as if she didn't even know Luke anymore. He wasn't at all the protective, loving man she had fell in love with. He seemed…not odd, but he just didn't even seem to try to take care of her. It was always something else. Lorelai wanted him, but she felt so tired of waiting around. It's like…Luke didn't want her anymore. And that feeling overwhelmed Lorelai; if it was the truth, she couldn't bare it.
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end
Every conversation between the two was stiff and generic. It seemed all Lorelai ever did was focus on every word she said so she wouldn't mess things up or cause even more tension. Or reveal to Luke her fears. She wanted something to come up, something that was a sign that they really were meant to be. But nothing happened, every supposed sign failed.
I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
Inside, Lorelai was being torn apart. She felt like everything she had dreamed of having with Luke, the almighty "whole package", was slowing whithering away. And she was whithering along with it. And it made her burn up when Luke didn't even notice when her eyes were unusually red or she sniffed too many times in one setting. Nothing. He hardly even asked her how she was anymore. Lorelai felt so lost, like she had nothing in her life without him.
Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end
She felt like she was a lost cause with Luke. It's like…he didn't even acknowledge her being. They were supposed to be in love. They were supposed to be planning, be getting ready for the big day. And the big day didn't even have a date! It was just floating. Lorelai thought that all the signs pointed down the direction of utter disappointment of failing. Wasn't there anything that she could do to stop it?'
Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care
Lorelai was suffocating. She was going completely insane. Plus, she had no one to talk to about it. She felt it was a private thing that should only be discussed between her and Luke. But Luke didn't talk anymore. Everytime she reached out, she pulled back. Luke didn't care.
A/N: This was a little hard to write, with all of Lorelai's emotions, because pretty much the only time she let us know how she felt was in "Partings", but I just let all the stuff about them pour out. This is also my first song fic. Review please!