It hit them all hard when Cat died. Beck, Robbie, Andre, Tori and even Trina shed a tear, but they all felt they should deal with their grief privately, because right now, they needed to help their friend get through this, because whilst it hit them all hard, It was needless to say it hit Jade the hardest.

It was a Thursday morning, they all came to Hollywood Arts, completely unaware of the news that would shatter their world forever, they had Sikowitz first lesson, everyone did what they normally would, Robbie would be engaging in a blazing row with Rex, Beck and Andre would be idly chatting about anything and everything, Jade would sit on the chair awaiting her girlfriend's arrival, an arrival that would never come, whilst making a snappy, snide remark to happy and bubbly Tori if she tried to engage in a conversation.

Then Sikowitz walked into the room and the atmosphere changed completely, the usually whacky and weird Sikowitz was pale, with an ominous, grievous look on his face. "Everyone, s-sit." Sikowitz found it hard to get his words out, he wanted to cry and sob until he got the grief out of his system, but he had to be professional, for their sake, "I'm afraid theirs b-been some-an-there's been a-" Sikowitz could feel the grief battling its way up his throat, the students could hear the grief in his voice too, they didn't say anything, just listened….Jade didn't know why she'd only just now noticed this, but Cat wasn't in the room….Cat never misses school….Jade thought, "I'm afraid I have some very sad and painful news for you all." Sikowitz felt sick to his stomach, "Cat Valentine died last night." He watched in agony as he saw the grief take over their faces, a morbid silence filled the room, "You all knew Cat as a lovely, happy, and bubbly girl." His own voice was starting to crack, "This is a tragic loss for all of us, Cat touched the hearts of many people at Hollywood Arts, and she will forever be missed, but also, she will be forever remembered." Sikowitz couldn't say anymore after Jade ran out sobbing her eyes out, it was just too heart breaking.

Tori was heart-broken when she heard, Cat was the life and soul of their little group, she'd never hear Cat's quirky random comments, never see that big bright smile again, Jade hasn't come into school for two weeks, for Jade's sake, Tori would put her grief aside and visit the West household.

Tori took a deep breath before knocking on the door, "Is Jade in?"

It was Mrs. West who answered the door, "She is." Mrs. West looked very depressed, just as Tori was about to go upstairs to Jade's room, Mrs. West grabbed her arm gently, "She's heart-broken." She said, her voice wavering, "My poor baby…..knowing there's nothing I can do."

Tori was close to tears already, "Jade loved few things, but no one could question her love for Cat, Cat was everything to her, we can't bring her back, but what we can do, all of us, is be there for Jade, and support her." With that Jade's mom let Tori go up the stairs. Tori was expecting Jade to be in a bit of a state, but what she found when she opened the door to Jade's room was even more heart-breaking. Jade was sitting on her bed, necking down a bottle of whisky, she had her laptop on her bed, and she was watching videos of her and Cat on TheSlap. Her tear stained cheeks were glimmering against the light of the screen.

Jade hadn't even noticed Tori come in, she didn't even care, nothing mattered anymore, everything she loved was taken away from her, Cat, the love of her life, her soulmate, was gone, there was nothing left for her, nothing but death.

"Jade, you're torturing yourself." Tori said, but the way Jade kept chugging down her whisky and watching hers and Cat's videos, it was as if Tori wasn't even in the room, Tori was lost, she knew she had to help Jade, they all did, but Jade hit rock bottom, and Tori wasn't sure she could help, "Come back to Hollywood Arts, we miss you." Jade said nothing and continued to stare at her laptop, a single tear spilling onto her right cheek, "Please." Tori said meekly,

"I can't." Jade's voice was merely above a whisper, she sounded like she lost her voice, but she lost something so much more than that, she lost her reason to live. "Everything in that place reminds me of her."

"I'm not going to force you; if you want to come back then you'll do it in your own time." Tori pressed a motherly kiss on Jade's forehead and left the room, when she was sure Tori had left Jade pulled back out the razor she'd hidden in her bedside cabinet, she glanced back over to the smiling redhead on the screen and let the tears fall, as well as the blood that came flowing out of her arm when she sliced it with her razor.

AN: Jesus, it broke my heart writing this, should I leave it at that or should I continue? Please remember to review. X

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