I Love You to the Bones
Summary: And I fall upon my knees and give myself to you…Mark falls into a dark world of anorexia and bulimia. Don't read if you don't like angst. Eventual MarkRoger. Angel lives. My first RENT Story so be nice.
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Prologue
Mark Cohen POV
There is only one thing I know of that I can control. Food. What comes in and what comes out. Roger is getting sicker and Mimi died last year. I will have no one except my camera. Maureen moved with Joanne to California with her law firm. Angel and Collins adopted a baby and come by once a month. I feel selfish to be the one who has to be worried about when on some days Roger can't get out of bed. He knows I'm not eating but I have the best of excuses. We don't have enough money, which is true of course but I know he knows that that's not the real reason. He knows me better than anyone else and he doesn't ask me about it. Like I never ask him about how he feels about Mimi. I stopped asking four months ago.
It's hardest to seem "normal" on the once a month trips with Roger to The Life with Angel and Collins and baby Angelica. I ordered a salad and pick around while never stopping the conversation so as not to get lost in chewing and eat too much. Collins talks about his teaching at NYU and how the kids would rather watch TV. Something he's said numerous times. Angel brags on how Angelica can walk by herself now and is getting into everything. Roger looks at me throughout the whole thing as if he's counting how many bites I'm taking or something. It's annoying to say the least. He needs to worry about getting better not about me. Angel tries to get Angelica to say "Mama" but to no avail. Oddly enough Angelica looks like Angel in a way with the same brown eyes and complexion. I wonder what my children would look like. Hopefully not as screwed up as I am. Lunch is over and as we hug goodbye, Angelica says "bye bye" and Angel squeals in delight and carries her out the door, Collins holding Angel's hand. Some things never change.
A/N: Short yes I know. I want to know if any of you like the idea and where I'm going with this before I get too wrapped in it. So Reviews greatly appreciated.