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Chapter 1- Looking back

BPOV

Here I am, stuck in my small room staring out of a window that I have grown to hate. It was this exact window that he would always sneak through at night, the exact window that I would see him through every morning when he came to pick me up for school.

Now I look out at nothing. Nothing is waiting for me anymore. No more stolen nights between us. No more kisses, hugs or cuddles. Just absolutely nothing, and it's breaking my heart.

He was the love of my life, my soul mate, my everything. He was my Edward, Meant for only me. But now he was nothing more than a million broken promises all rolled into one. I felt that everything I had with him was a lie.

He broke me.....or rather he shattered me into a million pieces never to be put back together again.

I don't think I will ever love another as I had him. I gave him everything I had to give. All except the one thing I desperately wanted him to take. He already had my heart but not my virtue. He wanted to wait for the "right" moment as he put it but I never got that chance. All I have been thinking since that night is that I'm really not good enough for him after all.

I always felt that I could never measure up to him. That despite everything I wasn't perfect enough for him. By all means I'm not exactly beautiful in my eyes. To me, Edward was absolutely gorgeous. I'm just Bella, plain, ordinary and certainly nothing special.

Even though Edward always insisted I was the most beautiful women to him I still find that very hard to believe. Don't get me wrong. Edward definitely deserved my heart at the time. He was everything I wanted and so much more...he still is. I don't think I can truly live without him.

I met Edward through his pixie of a sister Alice when I moved to Forks my sophomore year. She and I were friends from day one and are still inseparable. She is so much more like a sister to me than just a best friend. Edward, Alice and Emmett are triplets, and the children of Carlisle and Esme, they are a really close family.

As I got to know Alice I met her family. There was Edward of course with his dazzling green eyes and just out of bed hair. I loved running my fingers through it, especially when we were kissing. He was the quite, more reserved one who was all about his music and making me happy, or so I thought.

Emmett is the opposite of Edward. Very much like a brother to me, always protecting me but also teasing me whenever he had the chance, and with my clumsiness he had a lot of chances. He was like my own personal teddy bear. He always gave me hugs whenever he saw me. He was just as handsome as Edward but had a full head of curly hair that I loved.

Alice was the fashionable one. She lived, breathed and dreamed fashion, oh and shopping, she loved to shop just try getting out of having her drag you on a shopping trip, finding a four leaf clover would be easier. She was short with short spiky hair, which earned her the nickname of the pixie. She's the greatest friend I could ever ask for. Over the short time we have all known each other she is the Cullen who knows me the best.

Alice's parents, Carlisle and Esme always made me feel welcome. From the first time they met me it was like they knew something I didn't. That somehow, someway I was always going to be a part of their family.

Carlisle was a great doctor and Esme was a very successful interior designer. So their kids never had to worry about anything money wise. They were spoiled of course.

I shook my head trying to just forget everything when my cell phone beeped. It's probably from Alice.

Bella, you need to come over. Mom and dad want to talk to all of us. Hurry...please!! ~ ali

I don't know if I can go over. He is there. I haven't been able to properly visit since he broke up with me. Just seems too hard but, I had to. Its not often Alice sends me a text like that. I felt bad for not visiting. Carlisle and Esme have always considered me one of their own, despite everything.

I opened my phone and sent Alice a text back

OK I will be over ~ b

I walked slowly down the stairs holding myself tightly. Almost as if I was breaking apart, piece by piece. I was biting my lip so hard trying my damnedest not to cry.

Can I do this? Yes I can do this, I have to....for them.

I found myself thinking back to that day. Unfortunately I can still remember it perfectly. It was the day before the junior prom. It was a Friday. I was excited as I could be about the dance. But all I really cared about was the fact that I was going with my love, Edward. Nothing else mattered. Not even the fact that I can't dance worth crap.

It was around 7 that night. I was getting things ready for the next day when I heard a knock on the front door. I looked out the peephole. It was Edward. I wasn't expecting him until later after Charlie went to sleep. He usually called if he had to come over before then. So I found this to be rather odd.

I invited him in and we walked up to my room painstakingly slow. I remember looking back at him. He avoided looking at me. This wasn't like him at all. We could gaze into each others eyes for hours. It was like we were searching one another's souls, memorizing it.

I sat on my bed while he stood in front of me. He had his hands in his jeans pockets. He looked sad, conflicted almost. I knew what was coming next was going to be bad. Before even a single word escaped his lips, I knew.

And so the first tear fell.

"Bella" he said. I always loved the way he said my name. Always made me melt but this time, this time was different. It made my heart stop. My eyes met his and he bit his lip. Whatever Edward was about to say was gonna hurt me more then he could possibly ever know.

"Bella" he said again. "We need to...."

"Edward...please...don't"

My tears were now raining down on my face like a flowing river, never to stop. I felt so incredibly numb. My heart was being shattered into a million pieces. I was completely falling apart.

"Bella, I think its time to walk away from us...from this. It just isn't working"

I sat there just blinking my eyes, letting tear after tear fall, wishing against everything that this was just a dream, a very bad dream.

"I…..love....you Edward"

Then he turned and walked away. Out of my house...taking my heart with him.

He was the one constant I could hang onto and now he was gone. I knew I would see him at school and with Alice but, that just wasn't the same. Totally different then what I wanted it to be, that I needed it to be.

I found myself now turning up the long drive to their house. I parked my truck but I just couldn't bring myself to get out just yet. The memories came rushing back again.

After Edward walked out that night I fell to my bedroom floor sobbing. I didn't move the whole weekend. I didn't go to prom or even school that Monday. I couldn't face him yet. My heart wasn't ready for that.

Tuesday morning came and I was still in bed with my head under the covers when I heard someone walk into my room. It wasn't Charlie he had left for work already. It was Alice. I bet she's here to drag my sorry ass to school. I really didn't want to go. I knew I had to go sometime but not now. Surely she could understand?

"Come on Bella, I know what he did." good, she didn't say his name. Thank god. " Bella, get dressed. You are going whether you like it or not. Plus, Emmett and jasper are right out side and they will drag you out kicking and screaming if they have to." And so I reluctantly got dressed. Sometimes the little pixie can be so damn adamant on getting her way.

Emmett gave me a hug and Jasper flashed me a smile. I was unusually quiet the whole way to school and then I saw him. I felt myself breaking apart again. I felt a tear fall and Alice squeeze my hand. It took all I had to walk past him and not say hi.

Even now I don't think I could ever fall out of love with him. I don't want anyone else. My heart was made up a year ago. The very first moment I laid eyes on him my heart had chosen him.

I heard a tap at my truck window startling me out of my memories. It was Alice and Emmett. Guess I'm back to reality for now. I opened my door and Emmett grabbed me into a bear crunching hug. I just smiled at him.

"Bella, Mom and Dad want to talk to all of us...especially you. I'm glad you came" Alice said excitedly as she grabbed my hand and led me into the house. "Alice is you know who here?" I asked, she looked at me and shook her head yes. I bit my lip and grabbed at my sides. I kept my gaze trained onto the floor, trying desperately to avoid his eyes. Although, I'm sure he probably wouldn't look at me anymore. He doest want me. Probably never did.

I walked into the front room and they were all there, Jasper, Alice's boyfriend and Rosalie, Emmett's girlfriend and of course Carlisle and Esme as well as Edward.

Carlisle and Esme came and gave me a hug

"We are so glad you decided to come over." Esme said

"Well its not like I had much of a choice, the pixie would have kidnapped me sooner or later." I said while I flashed them a smile trying not to laugh and then Carlisle spoke.

"Now that all of the family is here I think we can let you in on a little secret of ours. We have had this planned for quite some time now and even due to certain circumstances I don't think it's fair to exclude anyone from it." as he said that he glanced over at me. I smiled. "We are all family no matter what. Jasper, Rosalie and Bella we look at you as our own and we love you as much as our own. Now, I am sure you all want to know this little secret of ours? Carlisle looked at Esme and asked "Do you think we should tell them?" She smiled and shook her head yes.

"Alright then, here is the deal. This is your last summer before your senior year. You all are inseparable and like I said earlier certain circumstances need to change. So, Esme and I booked you all a beach house for the entire summer. We will visit once a week to see how things are going and we hope by summers end that you all will be close again. Also we hope a certain someone will admit his mistake and ask for forgiveness and make everything right with a certain someone else. Are all of you liking this idea of ours?"

We all shook our heads yes. Alice was practically jumping up and down. I wasn't so sure that this was a good idea. A whole summer, in a beach house, with Edward. Will I survive?

"Now Bella, I already talked to Charlie and he thinks it's a great idea. He said you can go as did Renee. Honey, don't worry about this summer or Edward. Everything will work out. I just know it will." Esme said as she gave me a hug and smiled.

"See told you it was good bells." Alice said as we were walking out to my truck. We leave tomorrow Bella at 6am. So get some sleep. I love ya.

As I was driving home I felt numb again. Not sure how to feel or what to feel about this summer.

I walked up to my room and I grabbed a suit case and began packing my bath stuff as well as some other things when my phone went off.

"Bells me and mom went shopping and got you loads of new clothes for the summer. All packed and ready to go~A

Of course leave it to Alice the shop-a-holic to buy me a new wardrobe, but I just couldn't be mad at her for it.

I got into bed and tried to fall asleep but couldn't help but wonder just what exactly was going to happen this summer

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