Shiba, did you hate me, I think you must have. How else could you have hurt me so bad, betrayed me so easily? I thought we were meant to be friends, were you lying to me the whole time? During all the time we spent together, all those memories we made together were you secretly boiling with hatred towards me. You always smiled so sincerely, could I have imagined it all?
Do you remember that summer a few years back? I could never forget. We spent the whole time together, going everywhere from the beach to the aquarium, staying up late into the night in our rented beach house near the sea, just talking about anything that came to mind. We talked about our futures as well. You always wanted to stray from the 'normal' path, the one your parents had set out for you, and I was always trying to help you. You spoke of walking the path that wasn't a path, so I told you to join a traveling circus and see the world. You laughed so hard at that. You wanted to do art, and I always supported you, even when you doubted yourself. How could we know that none of those choices would become a reality? How could anyone foresee what would really happen?
A cruel twist of fate tore me from a life that I was comfortable and happy in. I hated it. My heart had stopped against my will and I was scared. But when you were given the chance, you loved it, didn't you? You finally thought you'd achieved life from death and at the same time death from life. What happened to you? How could you suddenly turn from the person I knew so well, to someone who didn't care about another human life?
I'm so lonely without you now. Nobody understands how I feel about this, and I don't want them to. To them you're someone who deserved to be reaped in the end after your acts of murder and betrayal. I should feel the same way, it's only normal to. But I don't. My heart hurts so much when I think I'll never see your face again, smiling and laughing at me with those eyes piercing through me. What I wouldn't give to see you again, to tell you it's alright and that I don't hate you.
Shiba…I love you.