Guys, this is a SNOWBARRY book BTW, so warning for everyone! TY FOR READING, THANKS.

Barry's POV

Cisco busted the car door open, and started to slowly help me out of the car. Wells and Cisco rested my arms over their necks as they rushed me into S.T.A.R Labs. I was clenching my side since I was losing a lot of blood, which was making me dizzy.

I started to drowse off. "Barry"! Cisco yelled. "Stay with me"! He said. Those were the only words that kept me from passing out, from giving up.

They immediately rested my body onto one of the stretchers and began to tear off my suit and started to care for my wounds. I could hear Iris running in and seeing her face full of bruises, but also tears. I wish that I could wipe away her tears only because she was just wasting her tears crying for me since I always end up like this, hurt. The feeling of these wounds was numb, I've gotten used to being thrown to the ground, having my ribs cracked, and having a bloody face. This was the cost of promising to protect and save people you care about.

Wells kept trying to move Iris to another room, but she kept resisting, until she realized that she really needed to leave. Cisco put an anesthesia mask on my mouth, and gradually the anesthesia started to kick in as my eyes got heavy, and I blacked out.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.

My eyes slowly opened, and everyone was blurry for a second, until my eyes became focused. I noticed Cisco, a big smile was spread across Cisco's face.

Cisco sighed, "Thank goodness, you're alive man" He said. I was surprised that he said that, because I've been The Flash for so long and I've survived the worst of the worst, of course I'd be alive.

"Yea" I responded with a raspy voice. The room became silent.

He then showed me an x-ray of my body, "Well, you suffered from a gunshot to your side, three cracked ribs, and a fractured arm, but since you're metabolism is fast, it'd only take a few hours for your body to heal" He said. It's always a lot to take it, whenever I was told I fractured or broke something, even though I can heal fast, my body can take so much beating.

"Well, I'll be in the next room working on something. Call me if you need me" He said. He then smiled again and I put on the best smile I could. When he left, my smile disappeared, and the feeling of anxiety and stress came over me. In a matter of seconds, I could hear the sound of heels coming my way. My eyes then shifted to Iris, who was slowly approaching me.

As soon as our eyes met, she was overcome with emotion. "I thought I was going to lose you" She said, trying to talk through her tears. Without saying anything else, she wrapped her hands around me and rested her head onto my shoulder.

My memory started to become clear of what had happened hours ago. I was facing a meta that could duplicate itself and I simply could've put him in meta cuffs, but I kept getting distracted. Ever since, I heard that Iris could be killed in the future, all my focus has been on her, solely on her, nothing else.

The room was silent. She then busted into tears, sporadically. She sniffled, "It's all my fault" She said, as if it was a confession.

I then delicately grabbed her chin by my hands, "Stop" I said, in the sternest voice I could. I didn't want Iris to say this was her fault, when it was mine.

"It was" She said. She then took a deep breath, "I had to choose between you or Caitlin, and I had to choose to save you" Iris said. Another memory kicked in and I remembered how Caitlin and I were arguing about if she should use her powers or not, and I kept insisting that she should because we needed her help. I, now, realized how selfish I was.

"What are you talking about"? I asked.

She sniffled, "The reason why that meta started beating me was because I was protecting you, Barry, but I couldn't protect"-

"Where is she"? I asked. Iris gave me the longest stare, and I knew that stare. The I'm sorry, stare.

"I'm sorry, Barry" She said.

"Where is she"? I asked, more sternly. I was getting impatient, if Iris wasn't going to tell me, then I was going to find out for myself. I then started to shift off my bed, trying to stand up.

Iris then planted her hand onto my shoulder. "Barry, please don't. You haven't even healed, yet" She said.

"I have to" I said. I then zoomed out of S.T.A.R. Labs and into an area that looked like a parking lot. This was where it all went down. I was a bit tipsy at first, but I forced myself to walk better. "Caitlin"! I yelled. I looked around, and I didn't find any trace of her. I kept walking until I stepped on something painful. I turned my foot around and noticed ice shards, blood dripping down them.

"Not now" I said in an irritated voice. I couldn't stop and take time to remove the shards from my foot, rather I just managed to walk on one foot. I was walking past a gate and noticed a boot peeking from behind it. I immediately ran to it, and there was Caitlin on the concrete ground, looking lifeless with blood on her jacket and bruises on her face. I couldn't even look at her because it was as if she was beaten and left for dead.

I then dropped to the ground and kneelt by her side. I kept repeating her name, and she didn't flinch not even once. I then picked her up, and was about to zoom back to S.T.A.R. Labs until I noticed her eyes open halfway, revealing icy, blue eyes. Killer Frost's eyes.

"B-Baarrryyy" Caitlin said, as if she was drunk. "It hurts" She said, in a whiny voice.

A sigh of relief came over me, "I thought you were dead" I said, a small smile spread across my face. My smile then disappeared as I saw Caitlin's eyes close back again and her body weight became heavier,

"No..Noo! Caitlin stay with me"! I yelled. I then put her back down on the ground. Her white hair started to turn back to her actual brown color. Her eyes then opened, and they were brown now.

She lightly chuckled, "Tell Cisco...that I'll miss him" She said tearfully, as she was trying her hardest to speak against the pain.

I tried my hardest not to let those long-awaited tears run down my face. "Don't talk like that" I said.

She then softly touched my cheek with her hand and caressed my cheek with her thumb. She then started to sob, "I'll miss you too" She said. There was silence. "I never got to tell you, Barry...that I've always loved you" She said. I stared into Caitlin's eyes for a second, not believing that this was truly Caitlin talking.

"W-What"? I asked, in shock.

She grinned at my confusion. "I never told you because you always have so much on your plate" She said. She sniffled, "I just want to see you happy" She said, selflessly.

Caitlin then started to slowly raise her head up, and she gently touched her forehead against mine, and we both closed her eyes. There was silence, again. She then pressed her lips against mine. I didn't care how cold it was outside, her lips against mine made it warm, but I got the feeling that this wasn't right.

I stopped, "I-I can't do this, this is wrong" I said, clearing my throat. As we parted, I could see Caitlin's eyes, they were full of sadness. There was silence between us and the only thing you could hear was the wind and the night train passing by.

Caitlin then rested her back against the concrete She then gave me a smile, a beautiful smile. She then closed her eyes and her head slowly turned to the side.

"Caitlin"! I kept called after her name. "NO"! I kept yelling. I couldn't believe that this was real, this was impossible; my best friend couldn't have just died in my arms. I kept calling after her name, even though I knew it was useless.

Why now? She's always suppose to be there for me, and me there for her. I started to blame myself, and then started to blame Iris, how could Iris choose me over Caitlin? My job is to put my life on the line for people, not Caitlin, she wasn't ready to use her powers, but all I cared about was about the future, not worrying about what was going around me.

Dad wasn't the type of dad that would tell me that crying was for weak men, but I always believed the opposite, it did make you weak. Tears started to roll down my face.

"I'm tired" I heard a voice say. I then looked at Caitlin, as her eyes opened again.

"Caitlin"! I yelled. I then grabbed her from the ground and tightly embraced her like I wasn't going to let go. She the wrapped her hands around me and rested her face into my shoulder, I could hear her muffled sobs. She didn't even have to say anything for me to understand what she was feeling.

I then picked up Caitlin and zoomed back to S.T.A.R. Labs, since she was seriously losing a lot of blood, and I was starting to become dizzy. I didn't know what was going to become of us after I would wake up. She told me that she loved me, how can I just ignore that and live life like it's normal? I can't, and I won't