AN:// It's very short, but I had to get it is based on what's going on in my head right now. Maybe a one-shot, maybe I'll continue. Or maybe, you could give me some advice. That would be much appreciated. Review?
This is what happens, when I let my mind wander away from perfection. Only for a few seconds. I become doubtful, hopeless, and curious. For her.
I never know what to tell myself at these moments. I just ask myself way too many questions.
"Is it worth telling her?" No.
"Will she feel like he feels about me?" No.
"Is she really flirting or is she just being a best friend?" Unsure.
I make everything difficult for myself, can't you tell? I have the perfect boyfriend. Seriously, perfect is a bit of an understatement. And I'm in love with him.
But there's this part of me…this curious part. That wants more, more, more. That wants her.
So I don't know what to do. Ever. It drives me crazy.
I distract myself, with thoughts of him. Who I should be thinking about. But she pops back into my stupid head, and I let my thoughts wander to what it would be like…kissing her, holding her.
There are no pros though.
Just a fuck load of cons.
What's a girl supposed to do? Ditch the perfection she's had for 9 months for something that might last one night only? How am I supposed to know it's worth it? How am I supposed to know it's not all lust?
My head is throbbing, my brains exploding, I've gone into thought overload.
I'll stay with him. My safety.
Because all she is, is dangerous.
Right?