This is my 4th story, i wanted to write it because I am having major writers block on my other three, and hopefully this will bring me out of my slump, acually if i just sat down and wrote i might be able to get some chapters done, well anyways here it is, hope you like it.

disclaimer: i'm not stephenie meyer

takes place right before Jake realizes that there are vampires around, but Jake doesn't smell the vampires because they arn't there, Alice didn't see Bella jump and Edward doesn't go to the Volturi.

"Be Happy," he told me.

I froze.

Jacob felt me stiffen and released me automatically, reaching for the door.

wait I wanted to say just a minute.

Storm cooled air blew through the cab of the truck, and I shivered involuntarily. Jacob reached over and hugged me again, this time for warmth instead of comfort. My warm sun to the rescue. I knew I needed Jacob and I knew how much he wanted me, my decision was made: I couldn't keep hurting Jake by being just the empty friend, I could be more, not to my full loving potential, I could never be that again, but I could still love with the small part of my heart that wasn't broken.

I pressed my lips to his shoulder, taking my first step towards a new me.

Jakes muscled tightened as he realized what I'd done, he turned his head so that his quizzical yet hope-filled eyes stared directly into mine. The corners of my mouth turned up just a bit to show him that this was okay.

He leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. It was the strangest sensation kissing someone else. Someone who's lips were soft and warm. The way they molded to mine. It was nice. It didn't last too long, Jake didn't want to push me or go too fast. It was exactly the way a first kiss should be: short and very sweet.

We broke apart and Jake stared into my eyes again, the joy in them couldn't be missed, and the hole in my chest felt smalled than it ever had, but a place in the back of my mind was screaming in protest.

how could you do that? it shrieked. Involuntary tears welled in my eyes, but I willed them back. This was the choice I had made and this was the choice I was going to stick too, no matter how much it hurt.

Hope you liked the first chapter, read and review, constructive critisium is welcome, and don't tell me i spelled 'critisium' wrong i know i did...acually now that i look at it. it almost looks like i spelled it right...hmm