AN : Well okay so this is my first famfic. I donno if i will make it in a story but if i do it would take long to update, because its eummer and i have work and friends and all ;) ut if i do make it into a story i hope that the persons who will read it will lov eit ;)
Song:
Learn My Lesson -Daughtry (I LOVE that group)
Tonight the sunset means so much
The one thing that you know you never touch
Like the feeling, the real thing
I reach out for that sweet dream
He never thought that it would be this diffcult, to stop loving her. He promised her that he would stop. He knew that all she ever wanted was not to have this kind of realtionship. Where every emotion is mixed up, where each eye contecd is hard to look away, where you knew that everything, everything about that person you love is diffcult to connect to you. But that you still loved them anyways. Each night he dreams about these sweet moments they had, before it dissapered.
But somehow the darkness wakes me up
I've felt this emptiness before
But all the times that I've been broken
But it wasnt enough.
I still run right back for more
So for those how didnt know him, it sounded like he didnt hated her or love her, but in bettween, like they just knew eachother, that's all. But the others who where close to them, knew what was going on. They felt empty, broken without them, even thougth they didnt cry them asleep, the pain was always there, aching, and telling them that those sweet moments, will never come back.
You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
She always thought that he could do anything. She believed in him. After all he was cocky, so everyone thought that he thought he could everything. He did, since the day he was born, but, after she left, nothing seemed possible. Not without her.
That if you strike that match
You're bound to feel the flame
You think that I'd learn the cost of love
paid that price long enough
Maybe she still did. But when he thought maybe, it always ended with a no. It was unfair. But he didnt care anymore. He lost her, and it was all hes fault. Beofre leaving him broken, after that 'she told him that she knew everything, she told him ' Maybe all that weve been through, and all that we would go through now, maybe it would let you show how much love is, how much its so sensible when you hurt someone you love, how much you hurted me'
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Well it turns out
I haven't learned a thing
And like he thought before, a maybe always turns out to be a no, he havent learned a thing. Only that he lost everything he loved. Everyone disliked him now. Only these stupid sluts still loved him, but he didnt want those, he wants her, the only one that makes him feel this way.
Oh yeah
Sometimes I think I'm better off
To turn out the lights and close up shop
and give up the longing, believing
in belonging
Just hold down my head and take the loss
He learned another thing today, that he gived up. He never gived up. Obvisly, that was before she came. How can he be so stupid? Giving up because of her? Shes only a girl after all. Not anykind of girl, its the girl you love,, stupid. That was the little voice that kept remending him how much time flew by, almost one, no, two years, and he done nothing, nothing to bring her back. He really did give up everything. The only thing that was left in him was this pain, and the emotion of love.
You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
There was two things he learned, but not one thing that would help him get her back. He was a asshat after all. Asshat, a word that she kept telling to him. She never said what it meant. Thats what he liked about her. She was a secret, a mystry that everyone loved. She was popular now, with everyone else in the family. And that bitch who always said that him and her will end up together. She was dumb herself. Like he said, only sluts liked him now.
That if you strike that match
You're bound to feel the flame
But why not her? What have he done so wrong to keep her away this long? It was a stupid question, because he knew what it was. He didnt dare make him remember it. This realtionship was exactly what she didnt want.
You think that I'd learn the cost of love
paid that price long enough
She obviously didnt love him anymore. She was going out with that stupid guy that pretended to love her. He might not be in the gang anymore, but he sure did know one thing. That dumbass was only with her because he wanted to be popular. If he couldnt be popular without dating somebody, whats the point? It was a stupid guy, but she still loved the stupid more than him.
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Well it turns out
I haven't learned a thing
You'd think that I'd learn my lesson by now
You'd think that I'd somehow figure out
That if you strike that match
You're bound to feel the flame
You think that I'd learn the cost of love
paid that price long enough
But still I drive myself right through the pain
Yeah, well it turns out
I haven't learned a thing
'Clary, just come back to me, it isnt that diffcult, isnt it?' Jace mumbled to himself.
I haven't learned a thing
I haven't learned, haven't learned
I haven't learned a thing
AN :: So what did you think? Review Next Chap : Clary POV