Title: I'd die for you
Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight and "I died for you" belongs to the band "Iced Earth." (It's based off of the comic book series, Spawn)
Author: BlackRose Petals 17
Pairing: Edward/Bella unfortunately, but Alice's one sided feelings are shone too well
Summary: Alice would die for Bella, but Bella is in love with Edward
Note: This is unrelated completely to my other stories such as "Mine," and "What I want Is You." I just have a thing for Bella being with various women especially Jane and Alice.
Also, this holds open the possibility that Alice had been willing when she was turned into a vampire to be with Bella. I might have a prequel for that later.
Note: The song quotes are italicized
Another Note: This is a very sloppy fic.
I'd Die For You:
I can't believe this now
This isn't what I planned
I lived and died and now
I just can't understand
Alice stared across the lawn of the Cullen home, watching Bella giggle next to Edward as he nuzzled her. She gritted her teeth together, imagining herself being the one to smell at Bella's neck. She was seated upon the roof of their house. Her golden eyes usually so filled with life and excitement were now dim with sadness and disappointment. All of her family, save for Edward were out hunting, so they didn't see her like this. Jasper had offered to give her comfort while they hunted together, but given the feelings that he felt from her, he knew that it was no use, so he went hunting on his own.
Alice was blocking her thoughts from Edward so that he couldn't read her mind, besides, he was too wrapped up in Bella to concentrate on her. She just didn't understand. She had seen visions of her and Bella together as mates and now she was with Edward. How had her visions been so wrong?
With all the love I feel
I could never leave you
No matter what the cost
My soul's the price to see you
Alice knew as she watched the two together that even if Bella was with Edward, she could never abandon Bella. Never again. She had left Bella after the human's birthday because the thought of staying with the woman she loved who was in love with another was too painful.
Now, she no longer cared. She was going to stay alongside Bella no matter what. It would be too painful to leave her. She loved Bella too much to hurt her again. Anything for her beloved.
Oh how I love you
The Pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
Alice bent her head so that her forehead was against her knees that were drawn up to her chest. She didn't want to take Bella's choice from her, but it was too painful to see her and Edward together. She still didn't understand. The first visions she had seen when coming out of the asylum, now changed as a vampire had been of her and Bella together. Why was it different now?
Why when she needed Bella the most, Bella only saw Edward?
I cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything
Though Alice couldn't remember anything from her human life, a part of her wondered if she had willingly allowed the elder vampire, whomever he was that changed her to bite her and make her into a vampire so that she could be with Bella.
It was really something that she wondered sometimes. Had she actually allowed the elder vampire to change her into a vampire so that she could be with the woman that she had seen in her visions?
A lot good that had done, Alice concluded, looking back up at the seated couple on Edward's silver Volvo. Bella was happy with him.
The pain was just too much
When I finally saw her
She's happy and in love
In love with my best friend
What makes it hurt so bad
Is that I love them both
When Alice had finally seen Bella at the high school of Forks, she had really felt hope, despite her remaining mate, Jasper. But when Bella became Edward's girlfriend, she almost wished that she could remember how painful it was to become a vampire so that the hurt she felt upon seeing her loved one, her destined mate become someone else's could be rivaled by a possibly even worse fiery pain.
What could Alice do? How could she interfere when Bella was happy with Edward? How could she break Bella's happiness. When you love someone as deeply as Alice loved Bella, then you'd want them to be happy always, no matter what. But what made it even worse was that Edward was Alice's brother.
Edward was as close as Alice had to a best friend before Bella came into her….life. Edward and Alice had trusted each other with everything. They looked after each other when the rest of the family was busy with their own issues.
Edward was her dearest friend before Bella arrived. The worst part of this was that no matter how much Alice wished she could hate Edward for being with Bella, she loved them both.
And they will never know
For love I sold my soul
They could never know the pain that she was experiencing. She loved Bella. No matter how many nights and days she fantasized them being together while Edward wasn't around so that he couldn't read her mind, she couldn't let Bella know because she saw how happy Bella was.
And she couldn't let Edward know anything. She couldn't let one of her best friends know her worst pain and fears, lest she wanted him to be alone. She loved him too and wanted him to be with someone. No matter how painful, she was condemned to this torture.
Oh how I love you
The pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
I cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything
Alice knew there was a possibility that she had allowed her maker, whoever he was before James destroyed him to change her so as to be with Bella.
She could never let Bella know that she had given up her humanity for her human beloved. She could never let Bella know this and make her feel pressure or feel bad. She could never make Edward feel like a pariah for being with the girl she was in love with. They needed to be together because Bella was happy and Edward was happy. Alice now saw that she had to resign herself to this pain and let it happen.
Oh how I love you
The pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
I cried for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything
Realizing her place and that she had given up her humanity and possibly her soul all in vain, Alice stood up on the roof and flitted off from the roof into the forest to find prey, letting Bella and Edward be happy together.
Note: Okay, I know that that was very sloppy next to my other fics, but I heard this song by Iced Earth and hence this fic came from it.
It just made me think, since Alice and Edward seem to be the closest of the Cullen siblings, it would hurt Alice even more if she was in love with Bella and saw her and Edward together, hence being intertwined with this song.