chapter one
I was going to new york to visit my uncle odafin tutuolla even though he didnt know anything that had happened to me in the past three years and it would stay that way. Maybe i wouldnt go back to my step-dad... i just got off the plane and looked around for my uncle and the baggage claim. i found my bags then found him standing by the windows. "uncle fin?" i asked to make sure.
"hey baby doll how have you been?" he asked hugging me.
"great" i said faking cheerfulness but thinking i hate my life uncle its the worst thing ever.
"thats good, so i have to work today so i thought that maybe you could come with me and meet all my friends and co workers" he asked hopefully.
"sure uncle" i said and we got into his car and went through the city. We got into Manahattan and drove to a police precinct. "so where exactly do you work?"
"Manahattan Special Victims Unit... the 1-6 precinct" he told me.
"what do you guys do exactly?"
"we work with children and ederly, plus victims of abuse and rape" he said and i nearly screamed because he could probably figure out what was happening at home if i wasnt careful.
"that great uncle" i said looking back out the window next to me so i didnt have to look right at him.
"i dont mind it, but we just lost one of our squad members and his partner is kind of torn up about it, then weve got two new recruits, so its changed lately" he reported and i sighed in releif he didnt know yet. hopefully he never would... but that is wishful thinking since im pregnant with my step dads kid.
"thats aweful" i said my boston accent come through strong. then we pulled up to the precinct where he worked. "this it?"
"this is just the outside my squadroom is a few floors up" he said getting out and i followed him to the elevator where we waited for it to show up.
"hey fin you decide to finally show up to work today?" some older guy with a fancy hat called out walking over to us.
"i told the cragen that i would be late... besides has benson showed up yet?"
"yes fin i have if you hadnt noticed im going to kick your ass" a women said walking over to us with brown hair and an olive toned skin.
"well see we all just showed up... maybe rollins and amaro got work done" my uncle said stepping into the elevator pulling me with him.
"whos this pretty lady?" the old guy asked spotting me.
"this pretty lady happens to be his neice and doesnt like that nickname" i said.
"well what is your name?"
"brooklyn ashley tutuolla" i said.
"well any family of this lazy asses is a friend of ours" the women said "im olivia benson and thats john munch" she said.
"hi" i said as we reached the floor they worked on.
"come on brook lets go see the captain then you can meet the rest of the team" my uncle said and walked to an office with the words 'captain donald cragen, svu' on it. he knocked and we waited for a come in to be called out. when we walked in i saw a man with graying hair and a plump belly sitting behind the desk with a some what younger man sitting infront of him in a chair with black hair dotted with gray. "hey cap. george"
"hey fin whos the girl?" the guy who i assumed was the captain asked.
"my neice brooklyn"
"hi brooklyn im the captain donald cragen and this here is fbi psyciatrist george haunge" he said addressing me .
"hi" i said leaning against the door jam then trying not to cring because of the bruising on my back that decided to make itself known.
the girl was different... i could tell she had a great personality, but someone has been hurting her. when she leaned back against the door i could tell it had caused her pain, but that she was trying to hide it. she couldnt hide it from me though and i was going to keep an eye on her and see if i could maybe talk to her alone for a bit. "hey cap we have a problem down at stablers house" olivia said poking her head in.
"whats up?"
"Kathleen is freaking out. the only reason we were called is because we have delt with her before but she found elliots personal so we need to get down there"
"alright fin get munch. liv get rollins and amaro. george think you could hang back here with brooklyn for a bit?"
"of course don. we can get to know each other a bit. maybe get something to eat?" george replied looking at me.
"thanks george" my uncle said as him and the captain took off with the others behind them. when i turned around i found the guy just watching me.
"so what do you like to do?" he asked me.
"write on my mini laptop" i said pulling it out of my bag and setting it down on my lap when i sat down.
"you any good?" he asked.
"i guess i am i dont like people reading my stuff that i know. i mostly post on a site and they all say im really good"
"can i read some of you writting by any chance?"
"um..."
"i wont tell anyone you let me and you can pick the things i can read"
"ok" i said going through my files and pulled up a story that i had started just the week before"here this is a new one" i said handing him my laptop. i didnt know why i was doing so i guess because he seemed like he was an ok guy and safe to let read my stuff.
"are these based on truth at all?" he asked and i just glanced at him.
"no" i said grabbing my laptop back "this one is about a girl who doesnt fit in except with her one friend that pities her and her father had killed himself just a few months before and the step dad is a total drunken asshole" i said staring at him.
"you dont have to lie to me. i wont tell on you" he said looking at me with sad eyes and a trusting posture.
"nothing to tell" i said closing the story and going to my most recent one. i had started it the day before after marcus had come home drunk and had his fun.
she was shutting everyone else and wasnt going to tell anyone. maybe if i got her to trust me a little bit more and i got a little more information on her i could get her to open up. "want to go get something to eat?" i asked suddenly.
"sure" she mumbled saving her file and putting her laptop back in her bag.
"alright theres this little diner right down the road. i has subs, and a bunch of other stuff" i said as we walked out and went down to the diner on the corner. it was where the guys normally got there food when they pulled an all nighter or two. when we walked in she looked a little pale but i put it up to cultural overload. that was until she ordered just a ginger ale. "you alright?"
"yeah just a little nauesous" she said "i'll be right back" she said walking to the bathroom. when she got back she looked much better.
"better?" i asked.
"yeah it was just a feeling. its so different here compared to boston" she said effectivley changing the subject.
"it must be different, but not by too much right?" i said playing along having a feeling that she was quite like benson when it came to talking about how she was feeling.
at the stabler house...
we were at a stand still with kathleen and liv was trying to talk to her about what was really going on in her head. she seemed to be getting through to her and was helping. "kathleen what do you want us to do?"
"i want you to get my dad to go back to work and things to go back to the way they were" she whispered as olivia crept closer.
"katie we've gone over this you know why i cant" elliot said and she swung the gun around to be on him.
"elliot get out of the god damn room i've got her" olivia yelled and he did leaving her with me amaro and rollins while the captain and munch watched the rest of the family "now katie why dont you tell me what he has told you maybe i can help explain it to you" liv said and the gun was back on her.
"he said he shot a girl about my age and killed her" she said.
"yeah thats right. he was trying to protect everyone and the girl had leveled her gun on me and was getting ready to shoot i couldnt protect myself because i was trying to save sister pegs life. you remember her? yea, so your dad as my partner had to make a choice either lose me as well as many others or shoot the girl. he shot her. he didnt mean to kill her, but with the way the bullet hit her she died on impact. your dad cant go back because of the memories and because that girl reminded him of you and maur and lizzie and your mother. thats why he cant come back."
"but he has to"
"why?"
"because all they do is fight now livvy"
"about what?"
"everything and anything. whos turn to clean, cook, watch eli, and so much more. i cant stand it anymore" she whispered and i was in reach of the gun now but need to wait a few more seconds before i could get her to give it to me.
"we fight because we love each other katie" elliot said from behind me and she pulled the trigger.
"livvy?" kathleen yelled "oh my god im so sorry. i didnt mean to he wasnt supposed to be here i was going to give it to you. im so sorry" she cried leaning over liv. i walked over after smacking elliot and cuffing him to the gate screwed into the wall. "liv please be ok. im sorry" she whispered over her. i looked at her face contorted in pain then she coughed. "liv?"
"olivia?" i asked kneeling next to her "livia?" i said and her eyes fluttered "that it baby girl come on open your eyes" i said then looked at kathleen "was she against the gun or a little bit away from it?" i asked.
"against it she was going to get it from me i think and she knows i dont want to hurt her" kathleen said with tears building up in her eyes. "dont worry she knows that" i said hugging her when liv started to cough.
i was in so much pain but knew the bullet hadnt gone through the kelvar just hit it in direct contact and maybe cracked a rib or two. i started to cough and then i whimpered in pain. knowing that kathleen was still there waiting for me to open my eyes i did and looked at her. "livvy im so sorry i didnt mean it please forgive me?" she said.
then fin said "im going to pick you up. it might hurt baby girl. just relax and you can get yourself looked at" he said scooping me up.
i picked her up and then started to walk down the stairs kathleen still begging liv for forgiveness and when i got outside i sat liv up on the back of the ambulence and helped her out of her jacket and kelvar. "what happened up there?" cragen and munch both said running over.
"direct shot to the jacket" liv said hoarsly "kathleen i forgive you shhh..." she said whimpering in pain again when i let go of her and she was stuck holding herself up.
"shh... there i know it hurts but you just need to be bandaged up" one of the emts said helping her totally into the van "whos coming with?"
"me and her" i said pulling kathleen in with me.
back at 1-6...
we got back from lunch and waited another 20 or so minutes for the squad to get back. when they did they were missing liv and fin, but cragen dropped livs kelvar and jacket on her desk. "wheres fin and liv?"
"hospital" he said "she got into direct contact, but thank god for kelvar she only has a few cracked ribs and unless she decides to press charges kathleen just needs to get back on her meds" he said taking off his own kelvar. "rollins can you go find one of the squad jackets for liv please?" he asked looking at the hole in the front of hers.
"she shouldve stayed back" he said sitting at his desk.
"does she ever?" i asked back. through all this i noticed that brooklyn had vanished.
everyone seemed to be close knit, but i didnt fit in here why did i ever decide to come here. i never fit in anywhere im just a waste of space.