A/N: So I was sitting in Chemistry this morning and I began to zone out entirely, if not because of the presentations we were listening to, then because of the rain steadily coming down. Originally I was going off of my own characters otherwise I was just writing down how I was feeling, but then this starting coming out. This never, and I mean never, happens to me so I was kind of shocked. I love rants. It's all from Éomer's POV. Please review.
Disclaimer: If I owned Éomer, do you really think I would be sitting in study hall typing this right now? No, I would not. Sigh, life is so unfair.
As the Rain Falls
All morning long I've been stuck in council meetings. My energy in waning and I don't think I can go on much longer. How I long to be outside savoring the clean, fresh smell of the air and the feel of the cool breeze. In the distance I hear thunder rolling about. How I wish to be our there.
If only these disputes would end already. I can only hear about crop failures and other problems for so long. I think the council members are beginning to realize my mind is no longer here. I know, my duty as King lies here to settle these matters, but I just wish to be back with my eored, roaming the fields, even on those cold dreary nights of sleeping under the stars. The stars. I haven't seen the starts in so long with all these late nights.
I can faintly hear raindrops starting to fall. It's so tempting just to creep out of here. I wonder if anyone would notice. What am I talking about? Of course they would notice. I am the King. It really has been a long day. If only there was a way to get out of….
"My lord," Gamling stated urgently interrupting my thoughts, "what do you advice?"
I swear that when he asked me my face must have reddened the deepest shade of red as I finally stuttered out a reply. "I, um, believe that you, uh, would be correct in your assumptions." I said this not knowing what I had agreed to, but hoped that it wasn't anything too crazy.
"So I should assume that we should go to war with Gondor because Eldarion laughed at you falling off your horse?" Gamling said with such a look I thought he would burst into laughter at any moment.
At this I simply reddened and muttered some colorful rohirric under my breath. Not quite fitting for a King, but he was fighting on dangerous grounds. I hated when anyone mentioned when I fell off my horse. Eldarion, Aragorn's three-year old son, saw me and laughed endlessly at the King of the Horselords falling off his own horse. I really couldn't believe Gamling had said this though. It kind of made me wonder what the rest of the council had been saying when I wasn't listening.
"My lord, I do believe you need some air," Gamling suggested.
With these words, I'm surprised I didn't rise out of my seat instantly. I could definitely agree with what he was saying for the raindrops were still falling lightly outside and I knew I could get outside before it started to downpour.
"Great idea. I think I'll savor a short ride with Firefoot as it has been a while since he's been ridden." I said with great enthusiasm finally being part of the conversation again.
They all seemed to be fine with this and we agreed to continue settling these disputes once I returned, that is if I return before dusk.
I finally have gotten out of the Golden Hall and finished saddling Firefoot. I don't think he expected to go trotting through the rain today. But then again, neither did I.
It's still lightly raining but a little harder than I anticipated. It's certainly is refreshing. The raindrops can clear the air so why can't they clear my mind. It seems to have been quite some time since Theoden left us and the war has ended. I can still remember joy finally returning to Éowyn's face. Then she met Faramir. He took any doubt she had of troubles away from her mind and replaced them with thoughts of a future of love and a family of her own.
Maybe it's about time I start thinking about a family. I have thought about, and many people, including Éowyn herself have mentioned at least one suitable woman to me, but … what if, what if what? I don't know. The sky is starting to darken more as the rain falls harder and so is my mind as I think of all the complications of women and love and marriage.
The storm has finally started to pour letting its true strength and potential be known. My emotions as well are at full stream as I think of what to do. Will I be able to fall in love as Éowyn did with Faramir, or will I be doomed to end the lineage or our family because I am destined to be alone?
My mind is in turmoil. There are so many answers, yet with those answers come more questions and questions need answers and it's just one vicious cycle. If only there was an easy answer to all of life's questions. However, there is not. Life goes on and you must solve these problems yourself or ask for someone else's expertise.
The rain is now starting to calm and it seems I have been with my thoughts for too long. It is getting dark outside and with the clearing of the skies, the stars are becoming visible. I've missed these old friends of mine that used to comfort me on cold lonely nights. I would always take great care in the thought that my ancestors would look at these stars and have doubts as well.
As I sit here now in the wet fields, I begin to wonder if a woman who would truly love me is doing the same. Would she be able to adjust to Rohan if she weren't from here? Would she mind leaving her family? Will I be able to find such a woman? These thoughts have been plaguing my mind for quite some time. Maybe I should just have Éowyn start introducing me to a few ladies that she has been urging me about. Maybe I'll find her.
I should head back now. It's late and people may wonder as to my whereabouts. I still have time to find a wife, no hurry. Right now, I just have the fields and Firefoot. And the way back to the Golden Hall.
A/N: Wow, I wrote something. And I like it. I think the world may be ending. Do you think I should contuinue and make this an Éomer/Lothiriel fic. I love those fics so much. I really had no idea how this would turn out so ideas would be great. Thanks.