New Plot Bunny That appeared, when I wasreading order of the pheonix and feeling a bit down. Hope it will be enjoyed. I have not been forgeting my other stories, I have just hit walls in their story lines. I will not begiving up on them.

SIRIUS' POV

It started like any other Order meeting. Everyone would argue and fight. I would throw in my two cents in every now and then, and send a remark to Snivellus to rile him up and get a scathing retort in return. I thought we would end it like all the others, Dumbledore being the peacemaker, everyone being sent to do something important (but not really), and still being at square one at the next meeting.

This meeting though it didn't. It would have, though if Molly Weasely didn't open her mouth. I was actually laid back after the usual verbal spar I had during every meeting. I though I had her figured out, I guess I was wrong.

"You should be setting a better example Sirius. What would James and Lily say? Why they made you godfather I'll never know", she said in the motherly condescending tone she had scolding her own children.

I froze. I didn't quite believe what I had just heard, I honestly thought it would be Snape to use a statement like that. My mind started to work in over time. I tried to stop it, but my train of thought kept going into the spiral of doubt that held all my fears. I stood not really hearing or seeing anything. I left the room and headed towards my room.

I entered and sat on my bed and sent locking charm at the door. I lay down on the bed and stared at the ceiling not really seeing it my thoughts going in a downward spiral. I finally succumbed to the dreariness that my thoughts had given me, remembering to cast a silencing charm before my head hit the pillow.

*******************************************DREAM***********************************************

It started like all the other dreams I had nice, but then the nightmare reveals itself. It is me running in the woods as Padfoot. Prongs runs from behind a tree with Moony at his heels. It's the three of us, and I feel safe, and loved like I was back then.

I run into a clearing, but it quickly morphs into the alleyway I chased Pettigrew through all those years ago. I'm on my knees laughing hysterically because I have just lost the family I loved all because of someone who could barely pass classes during 1st year.

It morphs again into my cell in Azkaban. It continues until a dementor shows up, and I'm tormented with the memories of things I had hoped I had forgotten.

They start with my childhood, age 5 to be exact. I had just broken a vase in anger because I didn't want to learn how cast the unforgivables. I was staring at the piecesin shock. A shadow falls over me and I look up to see my mother's face in a vision of pure fury. I open and close my mouth in terror. It seems you deserve a timeout then she says like anyy other mother. The only difference is that timeouts mean spending time in the make shift dungeon we have in the basement. I'm crying at this point and start screaming I'm sorry. I'm dragged past my father and brother.

******************************************DREAM END*******************************************

I shoot up, gasping for breath and mentally praying to whichever deity that thinks I deserve a small comfort that the silencing charm held. I cast a tempus, and see that it's only 3am.

"Not going to getting anymore sleep any ways", I mutter to myself, getting out of bed, heading out of the room towards the kitchen.

Hope it is enjoyed.

Adios Little Blossoms,

Lady-SakuraBlossom