Hi! So I know Aiden died and some fans might be fine with that buy I'm not and this fan fiction is going to be all about Aimily and their love story. It's also going to have a bit of mysterious things now and then and it's during the six months through season 3 and 4. David will be popping out so don't worry. I know everyone says this but please review and tell me how you're liking it because it's motivation. With that said you can go ahead and read. I hope you like it, remember to comment!
"I loved him, more than I've ever loved anyone." I say. I just cant believe he's gone, I dont want to believe it."I know Ems but you're just not listening" Nolan says as he takes a step forward. He got here like ten minutes ago after calling me all night and getting no response as an answer. I just can't stop crying and I hate it. I hate being so weak, I hate being vulnerable. It's just so unfair, everything me and Aiden had worked for is falling into place but he's no longer here to and see that. He dedicated the last years of his life to me, and I betrayed him. He's dead and it's on me because of my stupid revenge. It's my fault, it's all my fault.
"I'm to blame" I whisper. Nolan growls and I continue "I'm to blame," I repeat higher this time and he steps closer trying to reach me "it's my fault he's dead!" I start hitting him trying to get him away from me. I don't want comfort, I just wanna be alone and cry the life out of me. But he keeps reaching out for me and tries to make me stop "I pulled him back Nolan! He was gone and he was hap-"
"He is happy!" Nolan shouts over me cutting me off "He is happy Ems and he'll keep being happy because he's not dead!"
That shuts me up. Is he trying to make me feel better? Because pretending he's alive will only make me go crazy and nuts and that does not help. "What do you mean with that?" I ask now softer.
"Emily, I've been calling you all night and day. Yesterday at midnight I got a call from the hospital, they took his body for the autopsy and they found a pulse...he, he's not dead!" He smiles at me "He's alive Ems. 007 never dies".
What? What's he talking about? He's definitely not lying because I know Nolan, and he wouldn't play around like this. Why didn't he tell me before? When did this happen? I can't believe it. I found him dead, he was cold as ice and there's no pulse, at least that's what I thought. Is this even possible? I have so many questions in my head but only one comes out "Can I see him?"
Nolan hesitates at first but he knows better than denying me something and so he answers "Ladies first" and motions me to take the lead.
"Tetrodotoxin, frequently abbreviated as TTX, is a potent neurotoxin. Its name derives from Tetraodontiformes, an order that includes several species that carry the toxin. Although tetrodotoxin was discovered in this fish and found in several other animals, it is actually produced by certain symbiotic bacteria, such as Pseudoalteromonas tetraodonis. Tetrodotoxin inhibits the firing of action potentials in nerves by binding to the voltage-gated sodium channels in nerve cell membranes and blocking the passage of sodium ions into the nerve cell." The doctors explains.
What the hell did he just say? I cached some ideas here and there but this medical talking is just not for me. I look up at Nolan and I you can clearly see the same confusion in his face.
"Let me explain it easier. Tetrodotoxin, also known as the poison in pufferfish, lowers your pulse and body temperature, while also creating a kind of artificial coma, so unless its screened for, this can be mistaken for death, we believe this is the reason everyone thought he was dead. But if taken in larger quantities it can cause the paralysis of the diaphragm causing suffocation, which was starting to happen by the time he got here." He looks both of us and continues "TTX is extremely toxic. The toxin can enter the body by ingestion, injection, inhalation and through abraded skin. The detectives will be asking you about that latter so don't worry I won't ask questions. The victim, although completely paralyzed, may be conscious and in some cases completely lucid until shortly before death. Death usually occurs within 4 to 6 hours, with a known range of about 20 minutes to 8 hours. After running some tests and analyzing we suspect that Aiden got here after the 6 hours but before 8 hours." He takes a breath and says "He was nearly dying when the doctors found him alive so we had to go in surgery immediately since the toxin had already spread around his body. I'm sorry to inform you that in order to continue with a successful recovery we had to induce him in a coma and we'll just have to wait and see how he does. I'm genuinely sorry Ms. Thorne"
I start feeling dizzy from all he just said. Victoria poisoned him with a toxin that takes 4 to 6 hours to kill the victim? Why? I mean there are other drugs that can kill you quicker. This whole thing sounds so...strange. And then again the man I love was nearly dying a few hours ago and he's in a coma now. He's in a coma, a fucking coma and it's my fault! I can't keep listening to doctors telling me where to go or what's going on. I need to see him, I need to touch him, I need to know he's okay.
I start backing away as I feel it all hit me. I try to steady myself with one hand on the wall as I speak "I, I, I have to, I need to-"
"It's okay, it's alright Ems" Nolan says taking my side. "Thank you doctor for the update, I'm going to take her to see him now" he smiles politely and starts helping me turn.
I let him help me only because I'm too weak right now and he leads us towards Aiden. We through a few hallways and I try to avoid everything around me but it's impossible. Every four rooms you can hear people crying, probably mourning over their sick family member or friend. It's not that I don't like hospitals, I hate them. Never once have I been happy inside one and I'll never be.
"Right here" I hear Nolan saying as I come out of my daydreaming or nightmaring (nice word).
We step inside and I freeze. "Aiden" I whisper. He looks just like last night...dead. The only thing that keeps my thoughts from believing his gone is the machine that shows his heartbeat. He's heart is beating, he's heart is beating, it is beating. My legs start moving by themselves and my mind is still gone. I sit beside him and sigh. I'm not sure what to do so I look at Nolan looking for support.
"It's okay Ems, he's gonna be okay" he smiles sweetly encouraging me to show any emotion "Imma be outside"
He starts leaving but my voice stops him "Nolan".
"I'll be right outside. I'm not going anywhere" he reassures me and leaves.
He knows what I need, he always does. I have to be with him, alone. I'm trying hard to look at Aiden again, but it's like my body won't let me. I take a deep breath just like Takeda taught me to during our breathing exercises. In and out...in and out. Okay I can do this. I slowly turn my head so I'm looking directly at him. I take my time getting use to seeing him like this, my Aiden. He didn't deserve this. Victoria should have poisoned me instead, but she was playing by the rules, I destroyed her loved ones so she kills mine. I take his hand slowly as if scared he'll pull away from me. I wish he could, I think, at least that would mean he's awake. His hand is rough and cold. This is too much, I tell myself as a few tears start to fall from my eyes.
"I'm sorry" my voice comes out weaker than I intended. I clear my throat and continue "I'm so sorry Aiden."
In a fairytale, this is the part when prince charming would wake up, look at his dear princess and kiss her. But this is not a fairytale, and he won't wake up. I won't be looked by those deep ocean eyes and I won't be kissed, at least not today. What am I gonna do? What am I gonna do without him? He's always there for me, I think he knows me better than I know myself, I need him. I, I-
"I love you" I say out loud "I love you Aiden and I'm sorry it took me so long to catch up." I squeeze his hand and bring it to my lips.
A sob scapes my mouth as I carefully place his hand down. And then I see it, I don't know how I didn't notice it before. His engagement ring is gone. What? Why? He never took it off, at least not when we were together.
"I'm back." Nolan says entering the room as he hands me a coffee "Here you go"
I quickly clean the tears away with my shirt, which I now realize I haven't changed since yesterday, and then I grab it. "Nolan? Has anyone given you Aiden's belongings yet?"
"Oh yes!" He answers turning around. He opens the little closet in the room and takes out a big plastic bag with clothes and other things in it. "This is everything he was carrying with him."
I open it and take out the clothes first. This brings me to many bad memories from last night, how I held him crying and shouting till I could no more. I now wonder if he was conscious then, maybe he listened to me and wanted to stop me but couldn't.
"Burn it" I say. Nolan starts shaking his head and is about to talk but I stop him "Nolan please burn it!"
"Fine" he takes all the clothes. "What are you looking for anyways?" he asks.
"His ring." I answer as I search the bag as if my life depended on it. "I-I can't find it! It's not here!" I growl.
"Emily calm down. When was the last time you saw it?" He starts searching through the bag as well.
"The last time I saw him! When we agreed he would take care of..." I trail off because the guilt in saying that is way too much.
"Ems," he makes me look at him "go home and rest. See if you can find it there then go to bed, okay? You can come later. Don't you worry, I'll be here the whole time. I won't let anything happen to him. Remember 007 is my friend too" he smiles sweetly.
"Okay," I answer and start gathering my stuff "thanks. Take care of him, see you soon." I take one last look at Aiden and leave the room. He surely wasn't expecting that but I need to do something and I'm not going to wait any more time. I'm not really gonna go rest, I'm going to do what I do best. What's that? Oh well, seek revenge.
Next day Emily/Amanda's POV
I enter the room to find it much brighter than yesterday. Apparently Nolan bought a 'get well soon' balloon and a teddy bear for Aiden.
"I know Bond's very masculine, but I'm not so why not waste my money on girly gifts, right?" Nolan says.
"Good morning to you too." I answer. "I'm sorry I was gone all night"
"Oh don't worry, you deserved sometime for yourself" He brushes it off. "Did you find the ring?"
I look at Aiden for the first time today and wince. I'm so sorry, I say in my mind. "I, I don't know."
"Well what do you mean?" He asks confused because he knows me too well and he knows I'd have looked for it.
"I'm sorry Nolan, I didn't go home yesterday." I sigh. I can't lie to him "I took care of Victoria."
"Oh my god Emily! You killed Victoria?" He stands up "I know she's done way too many things but kill-"
"I didn't kill her!" I cut him off "I locked that bitch in the same mental health facility she locked my mother. She won't be out of there in a long time so" tears threat to fall from my eyes "it's-it's over. She's gone, Nolan she's gone." I smile as a tear spills down my face.
"Bitchtoria lost the war" he laughs as he takes a step towards me and hugs me.
I hug back "If only my dad could be here".
He quizzes me and says "He's watching us. He can now rest in peace".
We break the embrace and I continue "I told Aiden that when this was all over we'd be together." I change my gaze towards his bed "I'm not even sure I'll be able to keep my promise"
"Listen to me Ems. He's going to fight through this, for us," he says with a weak voice "for you".
"Thanks, for everything" I turn to look at him in the eyes "Aiden's the love of my life but you're my person".
He grins widely and hugs me tight "You're my person too."
After a few seconds of enjoying this happy little moment in my life, I have to speak up "Nolan. I. Can't. Breath."
"Oh!" He says as he lets go "Sorry for that"
I laugh a little and take a deep breath.
A sound comes from the door and it opens. Dr. Hunt walks in the room with what I assume is Aiden's chart.
"So" he starts "I've got good and bad news. It's your pick"
I know he's trying to lighten up the mood, but whatever he does bad news are still gonna be there, so he better cut the crap.
"Bad" I answer sharply.
"Well uhm, he's body is still intoxicated with tetrodotoxin but let's say that one part of his body got it the worst. His left leg is extremely contaminated and he's best chance right now is, uhm, surgery. He's leg is way too infected."
"He's best chance at what doctor?" Nolan asks the same thing I was thinking.
"Well cases like this don't always have to happen because of an open wound" he explains.
"Cases like this?" Nolan asks again while I remain silent.
"Aiden's leg, we need to operate or he could lose it" he answers and then clears his throat. He waits for something but not even Nolan speaks this time. So he continues "Good news are that he's doing better than we expected him to."
That takes me out of my daze "Better?" I laugh ironically "You think that is better? You think that" I point at Aiden "is better?!"
"Ems-" Nolan tries to calm me down.
"No, don't." I move away from him "Wanna know what better is? Better is going to be when Aiden wakes up, looks at me with those angel eyes and calls my name with that beautiful British accent he's got. That, Dr. Hunt, is what better looks like"
I don't wait for an answer as I leave the room. I run down the hall till I reach a door that says 'Supplies Closet. Authorized Personnel Only'. Fuck them, I enter. I close the door behind me and two seconds later I'm on the floor crying my heart out.
Flashback
"Hey" he says with that delicious British accent "thought I'd come check on you, I know it's been a rough day." He looks at me "You alright?"
I sigh and take a few steps forward "You keep asking me that."
"And you never give me an answer" he says.
I just stare at him for a few seconds. Why? Why is he here? Why won't he stop chasing me? Why does he have to be so charming when I'm trying to be mad at him? I need to know why because my shield becomes weak when he's around me, it's like he can see right through me. Why does he have this power over me? It was so hard for me to forget him when he left and now he's back. He's here, right in front of me. I look at his deep blue eyes one more time till I can't take it no more.
I throw my arms around his neck and kiss him deeply. He kisses back and brings me closer to him by placing one arm around my waist while the other holds my necks. He definitely broke the walls.
"Ems?" A voice says bringing me back to reality "I miss him too" it's Nolan.
"I, I didn't hear you" I whip some tears away "How long have you been in here?" I ask.
"I just got here. You're a rebel, hiding in unauthorized closets." he puts a hand on my back. "I miss him too and if you need to cry, I understand, but don't shut me out Ems. I'm here for you, I'm here with you"
I look at him in the eyes and that is enough to make me break down again. I throw myself in his arms and I feel him start crying as well. This is us now, two reckless and hopeless friends crying over a loved one.
We stay like that, none of us speaking, none of us pretending to be okay, because we both know it's not necessary. We both know what we need, we need support. We're both being here for each other, we're just being. Isn't that the point of if all? To be?
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