Disclaimer: I own nothing related to Twilight although I wish I did but, it all belongs to the wonderfully talented Mrs. Stephenie Meyer. I also know I should be worried about my other stories that I have going but, this plot bunny popped into my head and won't leave. Also this story will be updated daily…..shocker I know……but these chapters are shorter and somewhat easier to write!

Summary: How each of the Cullen's felt when they had to leave Bella and how they're dealing with the aftermath

Chapters: 1/7

Title: Carlisle (He's the Dad and Husband thought I should do him first)

Rating: T…..who know what my mind will come up with

Carlisle Pov

We left packed up and walked out of someone's life who I considered very close to me. I considered Bella to be a daughter along with my wife who thought the same thing. My children even though some thought differently considered her to be like a friend and sister. My son found true love with her which seems so rare in this place that humans seem to call a world.

The look on her face when she was attacked was imbedded into my brain, like a bran onto a cow. Her face so young and innocent was one of fear and shock, which was expected but, there was no disgust or shame directed toward my family. As I cleaned her wounds she asked my questions which was normal but, the questions were asked with such a sense of maturity and from a human no less, it made me proud to see her un-afraid. She seemed to love us a family of vampires, who should be her worst nightmare and only exsist in books and cheesy horror movies, but we were real and very much involved in her life.

I sighed knowing my whole family was hurting especially the people who were so close to her. My dear wife was aching at losing another person that she called her daughter and Alice was no longer a happy, spunky person, she was in a way dead. (No Pun Intended) Jasper so full of guilt and Emmett with no longer having anyone to joke with was quite which made it real. Rosalie was well Rose never really showing what she felt but, being around her I knew it was hurting her seeing her family in pain maybe not so much physically as emotionally. Edward, I had no clue where Edward was. My first born () was no where to be seen or heard from since we arrived in Alaska two weeks ago. He reminded of many patients I had who were addicted to a certain kind of drug, let say heroin, who were trying desperately to recover and failing miserably. ()

My family was falling apart all around me and I was at a loss at how to help them. The father/husband side of brain was screaming, pleading me to just make our family go back then we could heal. Edward would have his love again and our family wouldn't act like there was no reason not to live. That was in a way the conscious part of my brain knowing I would have my family back and we could go on like we were but, in order to do that we needed Bella.

The other side the sub-conscious side of my brain was screaming and telling me that if we went back we would only cause Bella more pain. We left her life and we had no right to re-enter it only to most likely have to leave it again. It wasn't fair to my family and more importantly it wasn't fair to Bella. I am sure she was hurting without Edward or the rest of us. We sure as hell were hurting without her.

The door to my office opened softly where I was sitting lost in my thoughts and feelings toward myself and family. I looked up to see Alice her face a mask of pure despair and a hint of anger.

"He won't let me see her and I can't stand it. Why…..I miss her so much she was my best friend and she is gone. I've never had a "human" friend like her. I miss her and I damn Edward for making us leave." I quickly walked toward her wrapping my arms around her giving her comfort the only way I knew how too. I knew she was affected greatly by leaving Bella and I knew we need here. I knew one thing"

We need Bella to cement back our shattered family.

Author Note: There is chapter 1. Good or Bad? Tell me what you think! Like I said this will be updated tomorrow if I get a few reviews.

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() I simply wanted to sorta make people say Carlisle was indeed referring to when he changed Edward! In truth it was his was his first change

() I wanted to let people know in the book where Edward was talking about Bella being his brand of herion. Just thought I would at least mention it!