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Ellen's Point Of View.
"About two or free days,"
"I Brooded over it,"
Brood -To dwell upon moodily and at length.
"A FEELING PROBABLY BEST DESCRIBED AS "DESPAIR""
" I never again wanted to play with that doll."
" It was mocking me."
"That doll, sparked my hatred for mommy."
" I still questioned... How?" " If mommy would have never shown me what it is to be alive, then her love could have been enough, couldn't it?"
" The night, before I found that dead cat, the doll giggled."
"Did that plant the seed for my hatred?"
"I'm getting nowhere..."
"A piece of mommy has already been cut away from me when she left."
"Living alone with father... Never loved again... A deseased doll, never able to go outside."
"What if I hadn't helped that cat?"
"What if father would love me? Then I would have something to keep myself afloat."
"No mommy was going to abandon me sooner or later, I knew that."
"No one wants a deseased doll."
"Did mommy really leave? Is she going to return?"
"But Nobody wants a deseaded doll..." Giggle. Giggle. Giggle. Giggle.
"The last thought came from the doll's lips, it was scorning me..."
"I woke up the second day, leaned against the bed's structure."
"Mommy wasn't here..."
"No one whould ask me 'how do you feel?'"
"Last day I fell asleep from overthinking."
"Today the air was different from yesterday, now it was filled with strands of smoke from him, my father."
"It seems He locked himself up in his room, losing his mind... Now the debt is going on father's sole shoulders, isn't it?"
"As before, father never needed me."
"No one wants a deseased doll..."
Giggle. Giggle. Giggle. Giggle. Giggle.
"I kicked the toy until it silenced."
"The pain on my weak legs was more than I could bear."
"I hated this feeling."
"But I did nothing... Could I have done anything?"
"Without mommy there's nobody to take care of this house"
"Without her love I have nothing to keep."
"Mommy, where was she now? What was she doing?"
"And then I began to think... Hope"
"Maybe she was just tired of it all."
"Maybe life with me was just a little tiring, and she needed a short break?"
"Yes..." " I was sure mother would return."
"And I would be the least troublesome child there ever was, if only she would."
"Does she not get how much father loves her?" "And how much he does not love me?"
" Does... Does she really think father and I will get along?" "...Does it not matter to her?"
"...Is she giving up... On loving me?"
"Those were my last thoughts before I killed my mother and father."