To Never be Alone

by KatPhine

Ichigo at the age of 18,had left Kurakara after the the Winter War had been dealt with and losing his powers wasn't the only thing he lost. His friends no longer talked to him and his family didnt help but made it worse. feeling worn out and cracked beyond repair he left once he graduated and moved to the U.S where he has been ever since. Now 20, his past begins to unravel quickly.

1. Chapter 1

I Do Not Own Bleach Or Any Of Its' Characters Created By Tite Kubo

This is my first time creating a fanfic and this is just something I thought up.

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To Never be Alone

Chapter One

Lets just say that losing my powers was something that upset me at some level, but I knew that my friends and family were going to be there for me.

You don't know how wrong I was.

A month after the Winter War was not easy. I tried my best to at least lead a normal life. At first I was quiet because of the loss, but it got worse, my friends had started to treat me with pity and fragility like I was a piece of glass, whenever the "Other Worlds" was spoken it was taboo to say anything in front of me. A week into my loss I confess, I was giving them hints that it was okay to talk about it in front of me I really would have liked to know how it was going in soul society after I defeated Aizen and if everyone there was fine, what hurt though is when they left to go fight a hollow because not only did they come back after, but the looks of pity became worse and they ended up avoiding me at any cost.

At the end of the month I knew that I no longer considered them friends, with that group consisting of Chad, Tatsuki, Keigo, Mizuiro, Inoue, and even though he never admitted it Ishida, why do I say this, its because after I gave up on asking about anything soul society related they still would not talk to me they still held on to that pity even if they had not meant to show it I saw it in their eyes, voice, and body language. all of this led me to believe that they no longer cared and had ended our friendship. I didn't even need to consider meeting anyone from soul society because of the way they had treated me as. So friend-wise, I was alone.

One-Fourth of me was gone due to the loss of my powers.

One-Fourth of me was gone to the loss of my friends.

Half of me was gone, most likely to never resurface.

My family could have been said the same thing during the first month. I saw that they had tried to at least for my sake to treat me like everything was normal before all this war nonsense had happened, but with the way my "friends"at the time, my normal life with my family, things fell apart rapidly. I found out that my father and Karin would go to Urahara's shop after work and soccer practice I knew what they were doing, most likely hanging out with my friends maybe even Renji and Rukia was there, I also believe that Karin was training to become a soul reaper and maybe she wanted to protect me in return but it still hurt that they couldn't confide in me about any of this. The only person I really was able to talk to was Yuzu because she was like me but without the loss, she was there for me to talk to sure I never told her what was going on and how I felt but she at least talked to me treating me like how an older brother should be treated. now living around my family made me feel like such a nuisance. I began to stay clear from my family, I ate meals alone with the occasional Yuzu for company, Even if it was not for meals. All I did was stay in my room even maintained a job online doing whatever possible to raise money. Now by family, I was alone.

One-Fourth of me was gone due to the loss of my powers.

One-Fourth of me was gone to the loss of my friends.

One-Fourth of me was gone from the loss of my family.

Three-Fourths of me was gone, never to resurface.

For two years I lived an empty life. I graduated almost at the top of my class (Ishida being first) since I had all the time in the world I had focused more on my studies. My decision on my graduation night was to leave right after, so before the ceremony I had packed lightly a few pair of clothes, money, important documents, my plane ticket, and my passport. To leave without any word would in my opinion be soft, in my mind I think they had earned a right to know why I left and maybe I was a little sarcastic and rude in my letter but I think they deserved it.

" To Whom it May Actually Concern,

If you are reading this it means that by now I would be gone hopefully on my flight out of here. I expected at first that everyone would tread lightly about anything related to soul society but what I didn't expect was for that sensitivity on the subject to last so long. I felt abandoned by everyone, I knew what I was getting into when I lost my powers but I didn't know I was going to lose my friends and family. I feel worn out by everything, you treated me like glass but after awhile glass gets worn over time until it's too much for it to take and breaks. DO YOU SEE WHERE I AM GOING WITH THIS, I AM WORN OUT, I FEEL LIKE I AM CRACKING WITH NO WAY BACK, you only have whats left of me to think of. So yes I left, there's no point in staying around when no one acknowledges you. The only person to notice me was Yuzu ( Yuzu, please do not blame yourself none of this was your fault, please be strong for me). Don't bother looking for me, I don't want to be found, I'd prefer it that way. Maybe you will hear from me, maybe you won't. No promises

Truly Fucking Yours,

Ichigo Kurosaki"

I left that note on my bed before leaving for the ceremony, I do hope that they actually look in my room, most likely it was Yuzu who found the note. I hope that she finds the note I left for her explaining a little and given her my number so if she wanted to talk to me she could contact me and even though I left I still cared for everyone, so hopefully she would inform me about them from time to time.

As you have guessed my name is Ichigo Kurosaki, it has been two years since I left, I know 20 years old and I still haven't fixed myself.