My Dearest Christian…..
Oh my, this is going to be so much harder than I thought it would be. Gazing out the window, watching the water ebb and flow, I must pull myself together and get this done.
I was so sorry to hear of the loss of your wife.
Wife. A title I once held so dear to me and had to let go of it.
Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.
You have never been out of my thoughts. I have thought about you every day for the past 5 years. Not a day goes by that there isn't something that reminds me of you…of us…of what we were together. Every day I have prayed that time could be turned back and that "us" would still be.
Keep your memories of her alive and Linda will always be in your heart.
Oh my, memories. Do I have a few? You bet I do! The good ones fortify me. The bad ones, well they destroy me. I have forgiven you, but I have yet to forgive myself for allowing our marriage to fall apart. Why oh why did I not fight harder! You are always in my heart. Sometimes, it hurts so terribly that I feel as if I want to die. Five years has not changed that. Your remarrying didn't change that either, it just made it harder.
If there is anything you need please know that I am here for you.
Can I say that? Will he be angry? Will he understand that I just want to comfort him in this difficult time? Does he care that I still love him, even after all that has happened?
With deepest sympathy. Ana
Signed, sealed and sent. Chances are he won't even read it. I am sure that Gail is probably screening all the sympathy cards and flowers that are coming into Escala. I am almost positive that she will not give him the card. I have thought about attending the funeral on Friday, but I am not sure if I can deal with it. I would like to see how he is holding up. I am sure he is not taking care of himself. One thing for sure is that he will present himself as his typical CEO persona, just so no one approaches him. Oh, Christian, what I would give to just hold you and tell you that this sadness will pass with time. To tell you that you are loved….
"Luke, I'm ready to head into the office." Luke, where would I be without him? I was thrilled that Christian allowed him to transfer to me after the divorce. I needed Luke. He was my friend as well as my bodyguard. He knew that I didn't want a divorce. He knows of my continued love for Christian. He is the only man that has been in my life since those damn papers were signed. He has witnessed my torture and pain. He knows that I still belong to Christian, in mind body and soul.
All Characters belong to Ms. James. The story is mine.
Please review and let me know if I should continue. This is my first attempt at Fan-Fiction.