A/N:I was bored in Algebra class and I decided to write something regarding Cloud being raped by Zack or something. I hope to write the actual story of how it happened. This was so random….I also posted this on my tumblr which is
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Plus other stories I written, pictures, thoughts, etc.
Warning: OOC? Implied rape, male on male.
Self control
Babe....I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you.
I know I promised I'd never hurt you.
And I feel so fucking terrible and rotten inside.
But I....it felt so good.
I wanted it from you bad, all so very bad.
I couldn't take it anymore, so I snapped.
You keept on saying no, in your beautiful voice.
But I ignored your please and went on anyways.
Telling you "Shh...it'll be okay Cloudie, it'll feel good in a minute."
When clearly it wouldn't, not with you crying in helplessness.
God Cloud...I'm so sorry.
I hurt my best friend.
I ended up hurting the person I lived so much.
And I know, you'll go on but inside you'll never forgive me.
I can understand that.
"I couldn't help it." is no good goddamn excuse.
Nothing is, not for this.
Even if I couldn't take it anymore, I could still control it.
I wanted to be you, you were the only one who caught my heart like she did.
And I ruined my chance- forever probably.
Even if it felt good, to be inside you, to take your innocence away...
It wasn't worth it- not when you didn't want it.
Of course I don't want you to hate me.
And I won't blame you Cloud.
I never will.
What I did to you was completely unforgivable.
Things will never be the same between us.
If Angeal were alive, I'd never hear the end of it.
Cloud, I'm sorry but that won't take anything back.
I just want you to know,
I always loved you.