So I've had an devious little plot bunny hop into my mind recently, and it all started with this. It's a journal entry from Narcissa about the day Bellatrix comes home from Azkaban. I've got the other story with letters from Cissy to Bella, but I like this idea, a complete immersion into Narcissa's mind throughout the years. Let me know what you think, okay? Thanks!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters (they belong to JKR) though I really wish I could have both Narcissa and Bellatrix to myself. As it is, I'll just keep them in my dreams, ya know?
Journal,
Fourteen years of agony, of mental anguish and distress, of pain and suffering. It's been fourteen years since my life fell apart. My sister was taken fourteen years ago, snatched away from me in one cruel and horrible moment. I've spent the last fourteen years trying so desperately to piece together my shattered heart, trying to make sense of a world without my reason for living.
Today, my sister came home. Bellatrix came home to me, but . . . she's not the same. I don't know this woman, this ghost of the once formidable warrior I knew. This shell of a woman is nothing at all like my sister, nothing like the passionate love of my life. She's withdrawn and quiet, so unlike the voracious beauty that is my Bella. It's almost like this woman here is an imposter.
I made the mistake of walking behind her earlier. I was on the floor with her dagger in my shoulder faster than I could blink. I honestly thought she was going to kill me . . . her eyes were so hollow, so dead. For the first time in my life, I was scared of my sister. It took ten minutes of her straddling my hips, pressing the dagger in harder and harder, for my voice to cut through the fog she's in. I've got a very sore shoulder right now, she got me really good. I could heal it and remove the scar, but I'll keep it. It'll be a reminder of the darkness I'm trying to pull her from.
I can hear her playing the piano, a soft and hauntingly melancholy melody. My dear journal, when will she be okay? How long will it take for my sister to come back to me? I've cried so many tears, so many hours spent sobbing into my pillows. I want my Bella back, my sister. I want my reason for being, the one who's been my constant through this life. Please, if there is a god, let him answer just this one simple prayer. Please, I just want my Bella back.
Please, I'm losing faith fast.
- Cissy