Disclaimer, (for the entire epic love story that is He Loves You) I don't actually own any of theses characters, they belong to S. Meyer, or the songs I use in my chapter playlists.

P.S, please read the long AN at the bottom.

Chapter 1- Is Jared Okay?

"Never gonna give you up. No matter how you treat me." - Never Gonna Give You Up, The Black Keys

Beautiful. Why does he have to be so freaking perfect?

I'm currently having flashbacks of my previous class. The one I am fortunate enough to have with the crush of my life, Jared Cameron. I'm so grateful that my teacher assigned my desk next to his.

He looks amazing today, like always, but for some reason I feel like he looks different. That's not that big of shocker though, because nowadays he grows more and more each day. If you compare how he looked at the beginning of the school year to now, you would seriously see a difference.

Anyway, I really do feel like lately there was something off about him. He is still smirking the way he usually does, still laughing with his buddies, still, to my dismay, flirting with girls. In the past year I have stared long and hard enough at him to call my self a Jared expert, and this JE is declaring something wrong with him. Then again, he and I aren't best friends, we're hardly acquaintances, so I could very well be overreacting.

I tilt my head, praying I don't look too obvious, to get a better look at him from across the cafeteria. I have to look at him at least once during our lunch. I do it every day and never once does he look back at me.

The view is perfect from where I'm sitting. Jared is leaning against the far wall, with his muscular arm around one of the sleaziest girls I've ever had the displeasure of encountering. Her name is Lilly, such a sweet name for such a dirty girl, and she's been through at least twelve guys this year. The thought of her getting her grimy hands all over him makes me nauseous.

I often fantasize of what it would be like if I one day I got the courage to actually talk to him. Or if he one day talked to me. I always feel stupid afterwards though because I know very well that it's never going to happen.

We're too different. He and I are practically in different worlds.

For now, I guess I'm somewhat okay with the small amount of contact we've had in the past. He's asked me for a sheet of notebook paper a few times. And he asks me for a pencil every now and then. Once he asked if he could borrow my notes, only because the teacher made him, but I didn't have them.

I'm not sure if he knows my name or not. He probably does, but I'm probably wrong.

"Kimberly Anne!" Someone yells, freeing me from my depressing thoughts. "You know it's rude to space out on me like that?"

I take one last good look at Jared, and then turn my attention to my best friend, Jordy.

"Sorry." I apologize. I'm ashamed because once again I've been caught in the act. "What were you saying?"

He sighs. "You're thinking about him aren't you?" He doesn't even wait for my answer. "What am I going to do you my sweet, sweet Kimmy?"

I make a face at the nickname. Everyone knows I hate being called Kimmy, yet they insist on calling me that.

"Ooh, I have an idea. Why don't we get you a fake id and sneak off to Port Angeles for the weekend? You'll meet a hot, juicy guy and forget all about him."

"Jordy," Demi, another good friend, cuts in. "You suggest that at least once a month. Her answer will always be no!"

Jordy rolls his eyes. "Well it doesn't hurt to ask."

"Stop trying to peer-pressure her!"

"Excuse me, this is an A B convo, well at least it was before you rudely interrupted."

She sticks her tongue out at him and turns back to her boyfriend Robert. "Thanks for sticking up for me baby." She sarcastically tells him.

Before Rob can defend himself, Jordy speaks up. "Please, if he we're to stick up for you, chances are we'd end up in a nasty argument. Maybe even end our friendship." He looks at Demi in the eye with a straight face. "Do you want to be the Yoko that breaks up our beautiful friendship?"

She tried to keep a straight face, but failed miserably. "I can't even- I just can't with you sometimes."

"Babe," Rob called, "I'm going to get some more fries, want anything?"

"No thanks, baby." She gave a short peck on the lips.

"You guys are gross to watch." I mumbled. I had to admit, I was kind of jealous of Demi and Rob and their six-month relationship. It may not be a super long time, but everyone knows they've been in love with each other since eight grade. I still don't know why it took so long for them to make it "official".

She lifted an eyebrow. "Oh please, we're cute and you know it."

I made a face, but she knew I was only kidding.

"Back to your Jared convo though. I think Jordy has the right idea."

I look at her like she's grown a second head. "You think I should get a fake id and sneak off to Port Angeles?"

"No! I think you should forget about him…"

"Oh."

Demi pats my hand. "I know it sounds a bit insensitive, but honey, it's not good to be so head-over-heals for this boy. You've been stuck on him for a year and nothing's happened yet. You have to move on and not spend your time thinking about someone who won't give you the time of day." She gives me a small but comforting smile. "You're so beautiful and you deserve so much better!"

I let her words sink in for a bit.

I can vaguely hear Jordy slowly clapping. "Couldn't have said it better myself."

"Sorry if I rained on your parade but…"

I sigh. "I get where you're coming from and I appreciate that you're looking out for me. It's going to take me a while to get over my crush though. Lord knows I've been trying for ages."

Jordy laughs. "Oh honey, it's more than a just a crush."

A loud thud comes from the other side of the table. It's Noah, late for lunch as usual. "Talking about Jared I see."

I have the urge to bang my head on the table. Does the entire school know about my infatuation with Jared? I honestly thought I was being smooth about it.

"Who else. Never mind that though, what happened to your face?" Jordy asks in horror.

She humorlessly laughs and begins arranging her lunch on the table. "I ran through the sprinklers earlier today and my makeup got smudged."

"And you've been walking around like that?"

"Yup. If I had super nice lashes like Kim Possible here, I wouldn't need to put all this shit on my eyes."

I roll my eyes. It's true though. My eyelashes are nice. They are the only good thing I inherited from my mother.

I remember that when I was five, mother would tell me that every time I bat my lashes, somewhere, in a tiny island far a way, a hurricane touches down ashore.

Thinking about my mom puts me in a sour mood.

After lunch Jordy and I head off to 5th period. Demi stays behind with Rob. I'm ninety-nine percent sure she isn't going to be joining us for class.

I take my seat next to Jordy at our usual table. This is our teacher's first year teaching, so she was naïve enough to let us sit where we wanted.

Almost the entire class is seated when Jared and two of his friends make it through the door. The sight of him nearly makes my heart stop. Getting over him seems impossible.

Jared sits down, three tables down from me, and puts his head down. He is frowning deeply. I hate that I can't go over and ask if he's okay.

I stare at him for a while and eventually he looks up. I look like a deer caught in headlights when our eyes meet. I whip my head away as fast as I can, but the damage is already done. Yeah, our eyes only met for two seconds, but now he knows. He knows that I was looking at him.

I'm still blushing furiously when the bell rings.

Mrs. Wells goes up in front of the room. "Today we will begin a new chapter…" She goes on to explain our assignment and also mentions a future project that we'll be working on soon.

Of course the entire class groans when they hear project.

I take a chance and glance at Jared. He isn't looking at me and I guess I'm okay with that. It means he didn't notice me gawking at him. And don't get me wrong, I'm relieved, but he didn't notice. He didn't notice me.

And he never will.

With a small pang in my chest I open my book, and begin the assignment.

To be continued...

AN: If you've read this before you might, or possibly not, notice a few tweaks in the story. I started writing this in Feb. 2010 (it's 2013 now). I was younger then and had no idea what I was writing at times. I still don't… Anyway, I was reading this the other day and noticed that this story is a hot mess! So I'm definitely changing a few things, nothing too major though. I doubt anyone is still reading this b/c my updating has slacked for over a year.

If you are still reading this fic: enjoy this much "improved" version.

If you are new to this fic: HURRAY! Keep on reading my friend! Don't forget to comment :D

Chapter Playlist -

*Never Gonna Give You Up - The Black Keys

*Blue Jeans - Lana Del Rey

*Black Balloon - The Kills

*First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes

*Shooting the Moon - OK GO

*Popular Mechanics For Lovers - Beulah