I do not own FF10

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The thoughts of a dream

~~ I am. Aren't I?

I know things have to end, I mean really their not ending, because I was never really there. I'm a dream, I'm not real. I pinch myself, and I feel it, but it still doesn't make me real. I remember. memories that never really happened, is that how I explain this to myself? Yes.

Yuna. you helped me through a lot. You taught me to laugh when the world got me down. Rikku. you taught me that life is valuable, you saved me. Lulu. you made me understand that there is always something to be learned. Wakka. you taught me to be kind, to give people a chance. You all helped me, gave me what I needed to survive, well not survive, just to. be.

I look down at my hands, there fading. I try not to be in denial, but it's hard, I don't want to leave, I should live a full life, but inside, I know I can't.

I went on a journey, to help the people of Spira, to maybe get back to Zanarkand. And maybe, just maybe, fall in love. 2 out of 3 isn't bad I guess. Zanarkand is disappearing just like me. And I suppose Yuna will never get to see it.

Yuna.. I don't want to leave her, she is the first person I have ever loved. She taught me so much, how to be me, how to laugh and when to cry. That I owe all to her.

I go up to give her one last hug. I go right through her.. It's almost time.

I wave goodbye, tears running down my face. I am human I thought, I CAN cry. But the thought was stolen from me quickly.

I lift myself on to the rail or the airship. I hold my head high. I must jump.

And so I do. I feel free. My spirit is finely free. I inhale one last breath, and somehow I know that I will see them all again.

Authors note: My view. Sad really