Halcyon Days
By SMYGO4EVA
Sometimes there are those days when you wish that everything will be all right tomorrow. Those days when you forget about what happened and just wait for the next sunrise to unsheathe itself from dawn's embryo. Wishful thinking, I guess. I do hope that good can come of the lovely colors the sun creates; from what I've seen, nothing comes out as all right when Helios awakens.
Rei never forgave me for what I did, cheating on her with Yaten Kou. And she's right: I don't deserve to be forgiven. I was the villain in this fairytale, the bad guy, and the antagonist. I was unfaithful, all because I decided to have a meaningless fling with Yaten. She was kind and sweet, but the suppressed feelings kept us from seeing past the mistake. And yes, we did sleep together, something I could never undo, and it felt right. It replaced the loathing I had towards Rei with something more beautiful. Eternal bliss.
Still, Rei was the first person I fell in love with. I made a commitment to her, and I broke it. With that, I'm sorry. If you're hearing this Rei, I'm sorry. Yaten, I'm sorry too. We all have reasons to want to forget what happened and get on with our lives. I'm not sure if you will, Rei. I'm not sure if you'll move on, Yaten. Nor shall I. I did a terrible thing by deceiving you two and I don't need forgiveness. That will only have the mistake established. I just want to forget that it happened, to have halcyon days once again.