-Hirotaka's pov-
Beggining of flashbackHirotaka glanced in the mirror and run his fingers through the bristles on top of his head in frustration. "Why doesn't she want me?" he thought. He inched closer, the glass fogging due to the proximity and rested his left hand on the cold smooth surface. Nifuji H. exaled and pulled himself up, supporting his weight on the palm placed perpenducular on the wall.He then suddenly propelled his right fist back and into the mirror, shattering the glass into tiny embers.
End of flashback
Images of Narumi over the years swirled in his head like an incessant film. Too bad he always feared the encounter and avoided letting his presence know. Somewhere deep inside he knew that she would recognise him, he just hoped she didn't. His fear of dejection secluded him from the outside world. He knew that games would never betray him, but he also
was aware of the fact that, although being his refuge, they didn't make him happy like she did. Nothing had that kind of power. That day when she said his name so leisurely and somewhat excited, he knew that this time he wouldn't be able to let her go, even though he would try his hardest. She was even more beautiful than he remembered. Her pink hair hung loosely around her waist and the tight fitting shirt stretched around her lithe midsection hinting at more curves than one thought. Her eyes had shone with emotion, but he had known she was brewing some hatched plan of hers, especially when she had invited him out.
He loved to hear her talk, even though she ranted about her day and problems. It made him feel somewhat important. Wanted. But Hirotaka had no way of approaching her. She had laughed at the idea of them possibly being together. And was right. But somewhere in the core of his mind something gnawed at his brain ' Why was it so difficult to fanthom such a future? 'He definitely didn't love her , but that was only a matter of time. He knew that once he fell into that pit, he would be a goner. Remembering when they had searched his "stash" and had found nothing, Nifugi stifled and unpracticed laugh. He didn't need any more than Narumi for it. As much as he hated to admit, she was the only one that had any leverage on him from this point of view. After proposing their dating arrangement, he knew he had fucked up. So much for not letting her in. There would no way to delay the inevitable anymore. She was going to break his heart. But he had forgotten about the possibility as they settled in a comfortable routine. They were best friends with benefits. Emotional benefits, not sexual ones. Not that he minded. He liked being her pillar. It made his ego boost. Something that rarely happened. She made him rethink his choices. Made him, for the first time in his life, want to set aside a game and spend genuine time with her.
He was happy, until he realized that they were more further away from each other than he thought. There was no playfulness, but mostly embarassement in their relationship. He hadn't breached her defences. But he planned to. One kisse hadn't done the trick. But a date. A real date would do...It hadn' gone very well. His feet ached and his heart throbbed with pain. He hadn't mustered the courage to hold
her hand. Although he had wished for it so fucking hard. Hirotaka longed for proximity. Even though he fough it reverentely.
She was the answer. The key. The angel that would pull him out of his all-consuming darkness. But he feared that he might contaminate her. Blemish that pristine heart with the horrors of his mind, heart and soul. So he kept away. But why did she have to be so sweet. Narumi was a forbidden fruit. One he had trouble resisting. He simply couldn't stay away. She was his. She just didn't know it yet.
Soooo hello guys. I finished watching season one of' love is hard for an otaku'. At the end, I decided that I was utterly and completely in love with it. So as usual I searched fanfics to satisfy my guilty pleasure. And guess what? They were like 5 fanfics. I thought I would die. It almost gave me a heart attack. So I pursed my lips and started writing. To more important matters at hand. This chapter is kind of a short review about what happens in the first season. No shit, I know. But still. I hope you enjoy it even though it is super duper short. Read and review. bye for now! :)) And excuse the mistakes. Too excited to read it again. Gonna do it eventually though.