it wasn´t my idea to ruin my life watchig aruani fanfics, but it happened. I just saw too many AU´s in which Annie had a baby and...well why not?
"Please don´t be positive. Please don´t be. Please, please, please, please…" She opened her eyes again. Double lines. Again. "Shit…"
She throws the pathetic stick across her room and cradles closer to the corner. She looks with widened eyes at the ten things in front of her, lined up perfectly, and pushes them away from her. It can´t be true, she thinks to herself. No, no, no, no.
She´s a mess.
She´s only in her largest shirt. Her hair is all messy and her hair band barely holds it together. She can´t handle it. How could she? She´s only eighteen! She´s going to college! But that won´t happen anymore… No college, no studies.
She puts both her hands to her mouth, screaming into them. She can´t be pregnant. She can´t have a baby… She´s the most impatient person in the world and the least nice. How would she manage a baby? Well Armin could help her but-
"Armin…" how in the freaking hell could she tell him?! Pain shoots from her stomach and she hugs it tight. The tests can´t be wrong, the feeling of something inside her proves them right. She winces at the pain. She tries to push it away, she must figure her important problem right now. Armin…how would he react?
He´ll leave you. A voice inside her says. "He´ll never do that…" she murmurs to herself, would he? she couldn´t be sure. He´s a nervous guy, maybe he would.
"No" she says to herself "stop" she´s talking to no one in particular, but she must stop thinking this stuff. She crawls to her bed and lies on it, looking at the ceiling above her. She reaches for her phone in her bedside, holds it in her hands tightly and throws it across the room.
She´s fighting against herself, but she knows she must call him. He´s the father and the child will be born, she can´t change that. Her belly would eventually get big and he would notice. Maybe she could hide it till then. Then she could say something like: Look, don´t I look fat? It started after we had sex and now this! Or maybe: I feel something inside me and I have skipped my period. How strange is that?
"Stop!" she yells, tugging at her hair like a mad women. It´s not time for jokes.
She sits up straight and crawls across her bed with one hand, keeping the other hugging her stomach. She leans down and grabs her phone, screen now cracked, and turns it on. In the darkness of her room it feels like fire in her eyes, but she manages to get to the keyboard.
She drops the phone twice and marks the wrong number thrice but, with her fingers shaking, she manages to type his number. It rings, once, twice, then his voice sounds like poison to her, even if it´s in the kindest tone.
"Hey, Annie" he says normally, but they feel like the first and worst words of her life.
"A-Armin?" her voice trembles. "C-c…" she can´t even say one word.
"Annie?" he sounds worried "are you okay? Is something wrong?"
"I-I…" she feels the pain again and groans loudly, dropping the phone and clutching at her stomach. She keeps groaning loudly to herself while she hears the buzzing of her phone and the faint noises of Armin calling her name on the phone.
After a few minutes she hears the banging on her door.
"Annie!" Armin "Annie are you okay? Annie…"
She vaguely comes to her feet and stumbles across her room to open the door. She leans against the door for support as she opens it to see Armin standing there. A worried look on his face. He surges forward and pulls her into a hug. She falls into her arms and cries into his shoulder. Armin doesn´t know what´s happening. He just passes his fingers through her hair, trying to calm her down.
Armin gently pushes her back, holding her by the arms "Annie, what´s wrong?"
She blinks at him. What do I say?
"Armin…" she starts "I-I have something t-to tell you"
"What is it?" he looked so innocent.
What do I say?
"P-Promise me you won´t be mad" she looks down, something very unlike her. Armin puts his hands on her face and raises her face to look at him.
"Okay" he nods.
"P-promise me" she can´t bear the thought of him being angry at her.
"I promise, Annie" he shakes his head "what´s wrong?"
"I-I…" Say it! "I´m…"
"Annie, what´s-"
"I´m pregnant" she finally says, looking straight into his eyes, feeling the weight from her body disappearing.
"Pregnant?" he repeats "you mean…"
"Yeah…" Annie doesn´t see anger in his face, only surprise "you´re gonna be a d-dad"
"You´re sure?" he whispers to her, she nods weakly "Annie" he kisses her and carries her in his arms "that´s amazing"
"You´re not mad?" she whispers "really?"
"Why would I be mad at you?" he almost laughs, but she knows it´s not genuine. He sits her in the edge of the bed and kneels in front of her. Annie can´t stand to meet his eyes. He did want to go to college and go away with her. He wanted to see the world and now this little mistake would stop that.
She was shaking when he held her hands. He kisses her knuckles, then raises his hands to her face. With his thumbs he wipes away the tears she didn´t know were falling. "Hey…" he whispers to her "Don´t cry" it was so odd. He had never really seen her cry. She never cried, and if she did, she would hide it.
"What about college?" she says plainly "what about going around the world, seeing the sea… all you wanted?"
He smiles up to her "that can wait" he whispers, then stands up and kisses her forehead, her cheek, her nose and then her lips "everything can wait" He raises her again and sits her in her bed, then crawls up to lie with her, cradling her in his arms, passing his hand through her hair. Annie buries her head into his chest and clutches at her stomach. She can feel it inside her, even if it´s diminutive, she knows it´s there.
"Does it hurt?" he whispers pulling her closer.
"Kind of" she chuckles and smiles a little "you think it will be worth it?"
"Of course" he says matter-of-factly. He puts a hand in her stomach "I´ve always wanted to be a dad…always wanted to have something with you"