The Truth isn't Always as it Seems
The first time I laid eyes on Harry
I couldn't help thinking
how very much like James he is.
Of course everyone tells him that,
and that he has Lilly's eyes,
but now I know that he is not James,
he is too much his own unique person to be James.
But I also found it odd
that Harry's Patronus would be a stag,
if he is so much his own person.
Even Sirius agreed that is was odd,
But then again it was Sirius himself who said,
at the end of Harry's third year,
that the ones we love never really leave us,
that they're always with us in our hearts.
Maybe that stag is actually James in Harry.
Whatever the case of Harry's stag,
it doesn't matter anymore.
He called me a coward.The Patronus doesn't mean anything to him anymore.
I don't mean anything to him anymore.James's son; he called me a coward.
All because of the baby,
the baby I have cursed,
the baby that shouldn't be mine.
I wanted the baby, yes
but I wasn't thinking,
at least, not of my condition.
Now I wish I would have said no to the wolf;
I've lost my chances of becoming a father,
lost my wife's trust,
lost one of my closest friends.
I never meant to hurt anyone,
but I hurt a lot tonight.
Now, I don't know what to do;
Tonks is bound never to talk to me again,
and Harry doesn't want me joining them.
But that's all understandable,
they all have reasons to be mad.
Tonks, well, I walked out on her and the baby,
and Harry, he's right, James would have wanted me to stay.
So what do I do?
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Silently I am crying,
just outside Tonks's parents' house,
my back to the door,
so it shocks me when I feel a soft, warm, hand on my back.
"Dora?"
"Yes Remmy?"
I close my eyes briefly, tears still falling.
"Can you f-forgive me?"
She comes around to stand in front of me.
"Through thick and thin, sickness and health, I've agreed to marry you. I can't say I'm not ashamed, but yes, I forgive you. Just promise not to leave again."
"I promise."
I drew her in to a hug,
planted a kiss on her sweet lips.
"I was just scared Dora."
"I know."
Silently we stood there,
and then Tonks asked,
"What made you come back?"
I knew the answer and it made the anger I still felt instantly melt away, like I had always known the answer, like the reason he got mad at me in the first place was exactly for this reason.
"Harry."