Spoilers for Mr. Yin Presents. A post-Yin Gus character study.
Disclaimer: I don't own Psych.
Sometimes there are moments when he wonders how he got to this point in his life. These moments don't come that often, considering that he and Shawn chase after a new killer every week, but once in awhile the question pops into his mind.
Sometimes Gus thinks back four years ago. He used to be a pharmaceutical salesman. He still is a pharmaceutical salesman, but honestly, no sales rep Gus knew was solving crime and endangering their lives. He's no cop. Yet more often than not, he's the one with the gun pointed to his head.
Sometimes Gus wonders if he still would have agreed to help Shawn investigate the McCallum kidnapping way back when, knowing what would happen with Yin because of it. But the answer to that one comes easily: of course he would. With Psych the risks always outweigh the rewards, but that doesn't mean it isn't worth doing in the end. But nights like this, when everything goes wrong, make him wonder.
Sometimes Gus finds Shawn sitting on the beach. Shawn looks out at the pier, and Gus can see sadness in his eyes. It's not like Shawn to hang onto things like that, and it worries Gus. It makes him question everything: how he got there, if he would do it all over again. If it was worth it in the end.
Sometimes Gus doesn't know what to do. After something like this, usually he would give Shawn space to work things out. But somehow Gus knows that this isn't one of those times, which is why he's sitting on the beach with his best friend now, even if sand will now be stuck in his pockets for months. They don't say anything, and they don't need to.
Sometimes Gus has his doubts, but when it comes to Shawn, it's not even a question to be asked. A best friend is a best friend, and that's why they sit together in silence, and why Shawn puts his head on Gus' shoulder, because they know it's okay, and because everything's going to be okay.
That's just how it is.