You found me
Chapter one: lose something, gain another
Shane's POV
I went to the door and knocked softly and then the door opened slowly and a guy appeared.
"Shane is that you"? Asked Ryan.
"Yes it is," I said.
"Wow, I haven't seen you since your parents and you moved to LA. Seven years ago" Ryan said.
"Yeah" I said in a sad tone.
"Oh, I'm sorry for lose Shane" Ryan said.
"Yeah, it's been real hard, but I'm all right know" I said.
"That's great to here and have you finally given your life to Christ"? Ryan asked.
"Yes and I wanted to ask some questions and tell my story because I need to tell it to someone" I said.
"Ok Shane tell it away," Ryan said.
"Well it all started when my parents died," I said painfully.
Flashback
"Shane, I'm sorry but your parents didn't make it" the doctor said.
"But there's got to be mistake" I said sobbing. I then ran out of the waiting room and ran to my parent's room. What I saw made my heart break. They where covered with white sheets, I ran over to them and screamed.
"Please, don't be dead" I sobbed. You just can't be dead; you just can't be I screamed. My body was shaking with sobs and I bowed to my knees sobbing even more.
Then Nate came in and said that he was really sorry for my lost, but he told me to get hold of myself.
"How can I get a hold of myself when I lost my parents?" I cried out.
Shane…I
"Just take my home Nate; please" I sobbed.
When I got home I ran upstairs and started throwing thing and ripping every song I have written in a million pieces. Then I broke down with sobs, which shake through my whole body. I cried in till I felt exhausted and fell asleep on the floor.
The next few days where a blur to me and passed by quickly, but I barely noticed. I was trapped in my own world and couldn't be left out. My parents where, gone and so was my reason for living.
"Shane you really felt like you couldn't live without your parents?" Ryan asked.
"Um…Yeah" I said.
"Do you still feel that way"? Ryan asked.
"No I have come to except that my parents are in a better place know, but it is still hard sometimes," I said.
"Ok, back to the story Shane" Ryan said. I'm Sorry for interrupting.
It's ok and as I said the days went like a blur to me.
Back to flashback
Today was the funeral, but I barely could get up from my bed. But I forced my self out of bed dreading this day even more. Today was the day I had to say goodbye to my parents. One of the things I never wanted to do.
At the funeral there were a lot of people and a lot of them were coming up to me and telling me how sorry they are for my and telling me that they would do anything for me, all I need to do was ask. I barely paid attention though. I was lost in a trance nobody could take me out of it.
After the funeral I completely became lost in a trance and nobody could help me out of it even if they tried. And yes they did try. I tried to deal with the pain, but I dwelt with it the wrong way. I turned to anti depressants, pain medications, and of coarse food. I changed inside and out to. I gain weight, became lifeless person of myself, and I quite music period. Everybody tried to help mw, but it didn't work and eventually they sent me to Camp Rock, where my gracious uncle sent the best physiatrist and doctors in the nation, but it still didn't help.
"Then what did because you here now and seem well" Ryan said.
"I was about to get there" I pointed out.
"Sorry Shane" Ryan said. "Sorry for interrupting again; you can go on now" Ryan said.
"As I was saying," I said.
It was six months since I had been sent to Camp Rock and well I wasn't any better. But this was the day that I changed.
It started when Mitchie came to visit me and well we had a huge argument.
Hey Shane, listen me need to talk" Mitchie said.
I just shrugged my shoulders and went back to starring into space.
"Shane I know you miss your parents and all, but you need to get over it; Shane" Mitchie said. I hate seeing you destroy yourself and not caring about the people who love you and you fans.
"Shut the fuck up" I said. Then I went back to not speaking.
Shane why can't you see what your doing to yourself. You need help Shane.
"No I don't and stop telling what I need to do" I said angrily.
"But…Shane you need to get help otherwise you might die" Mitchie said.
"I want to die Mitchie, can't you see that" I said. I'm tired of living in this cruel world without my parents. You don't know what it's liked not to have parents.
"But Shane I do know what it's like" Mitchie said.
"Your lying Mitchie, you have Steve and Connie" I said through tears.
She started crying right then, but I didn't notice.
"Shane, you at least have your uncle and your cousins" Mitchie said.
"I don't want them, I want my parents" I screamed.
"Well you have me to" Mitchie said.
"I don't want you, I just want my parents and nobody else" I screamed in his tears. Mitchie please just leave me alone. I don't want help from you, or any body. Just leave me alone.
"Fine, if that's how you want it to be, die for I care" I said angrily. Then I ran downstairs and out the cabin to the lake, but what I didn't know is that I dropped one of my diary entries on the ground close to me.
Without thinking I picked up that diary entry and began to read it.
A/N I hope you guys like it and pretty please leave reviews. I like story Alerts, but I would love to here what you think. If you think I made some mistakes you could be my beta, just PM me.
Find out what the diary entry said and the rest of Shane's story read chapter two coming soon.