Disclaimer: It's not mine...
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Do you know I was thinking about
leaving? Do you know I'd cry myself into sleep, if I could? Do you
know? Do you know I want to run away from you and never want to come
back?
You don't love, you need. You need
me. That's why I stay. I'm not as strong as I once was, not
anymore. You've broken me and now you're taking every piece.
Tell me, why do you beat the one you
need? You tell me you're sorry and it won't be happening again,
time after time. But it happens and I hate it. Did you once love me?
Because our family now is built of needs.
I could have married another man.
Someone I did love. But I married you, because of the baby. And
because everyone expected us to. To marry, I mean. They thought we
were meant for each other. We just weren't.
I shouldn't have said 'I do' in
the first place. Should have told you I couldn't and run away. I
should have screamed, yelled. Told everyone what kind of jerk you
were. But I didn't and regret that ever since.
And now I'm here, trying to hide my
bruises, trying to hide my sadness. Trying to smile. I know I could
just walk away, take the kids with me, divorce and start over again.
But it's not that easy.
So I cry about the man I did love,
your best friend, who married your sister. They're happy, I know.
And I cry.