Solitude

Taken from Evanescence, and changed a tiny bit.

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN Yu-Gi-Oh! nor Solitude by Evanescence, so no suing!!

How many times have you told me you love him?
As many times as I've wanted to tell you the truth.
How long have I stood here beside you?
I live through you
You looked through me...
Solitude,
Still with me is only you
I can't stay away from you
How many times have I done this to myself?
How long will it take before I see?
When will this hole in my heart be mended?
Who now is left alone but me?
Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Only you, only true
Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I'll cry myself to sleep another night...
Your secret admirer;
Who could it be?
Can't you see
All along it was me?
How can you be so blind
As to see right through me?
Solitude,
Still with me is only you
I can't stay away from you
Forever me and forever you
Only you, only true...

That's what the song said. Atemu stared at the book, and then back at the picture of Yugi and his friends on his bed-side table. The joyful expression didn't match the tone of the song... 'What is going on with you, aibou?'

CHAPTER 1

Atemu's POV

Atemu sighed, bored. School absolutely sucked. And he had just broken up with Seto, too. Gods weren't looking upon him too kindly now-a-days... Life was crashing down on the Game King. He missed Yugi badly, but the little hikari was out with his friends again... or at least, that's what he said. He said that every time he left, but Jounouchi had pulled Atemu aside one day, actually just yesterday, and told him that Yugi hadn't been talking to them recently. He'd wanted to know if Yugi was mad at them. Atemu responded as best as he could, saying that as far as he knew, Yugi wasn't mad at anyone.

Atemu looked longingly at the picture on his bedside table. Yugi wasn't with his friends, he was out somewhere, he was alone, and Atemu couldn't do anything. He felt so helpless right then... And he didn't know what to do... And being without his aibou was killing him slowly... 'Yugi...'

Yugi's POV (MAIN POV)

I was sitting carefully on the edge of Domino Pier 183 when I felt the loneliness of Atemu wash through the link. True, it really shouldn't be there, since we no longer shared a body, and normally it was closed off anyway, since Atemu started going out with Seto (which I had encouraged him to do since it was obvious Atemu really wanted him, even though it broke my heart to do so) but it was really unexpected when the loneliness came crashing through, which led me immediately to read the link.

'/I worry about you, Yugi.../

/What happened to you?/

/Why are you lying to me, and not talking to your friends?/

/We're all worried about you.../

/My aibou... And why do you write such sad songs?/'

That last one caught my interest. He had read my journal!? My privacy had been invaded... I felt a flash of anger. Why did people always have to pry? Why the hell were they always so god-damned worried about me? Couldn't they see that I simply wanted to be alone? But that wasn't true. I was lying. To myself. I didn't want to be alone. I'm actually afraid of being alone. Because if no one's there, there's no one to stop me from hurting myself.

I looked down at my wrists. They were covered up in bandages and the bandages were covered in armwarmers, and those had spiked wrist-bands on them. But they hid the damage I'd done to myself once I recognized how much I loved Atemu. How I would give him anything to make him happy, even if I couldn't be the one who made him smile.

The pain was strange, because it wasn't just in my heart, or in my head, it was in my wrist too. But then I remember Atemu once telling me that the wrist was the closest thing to your heart you can physically touch, because the veins were so close to the skin, and they were main veins(arteries), and to touch that represented a deep love if there were any reaction. My only response to that would be, so what does pain there mean?

I sighed, and stood up to go back home. I'd have to have a talk with Atemu. He had invaded my privacy, and now he was worrying like the Yami he hadn't been in a long time, when I really didn't want it the most. I hate my life... I really do... It's just too... complicated... and hard...

Lithium- smiles brightly despite the torture she has just put both of her favourite characters in anime (besides a few exceptions) in Well... that was fun! There will be more soon!

Li- bashes her Hikari on the head for her stupidity Duh there'll be more soon, but right now we've got about a million fan-girls giving us DEATH GLARES!!! smacks her Hikari again

Lithium- pouts and rubs her abused head Well then they shouldn't read it, unless they want to see how it ends, AND I might be willing to give a sneak preview of some certain chapters in Reality!

Li- sighs You're hopeless... I hope you get shot...

Lithium- smiles sweetly at her Yami But then you wouldn't be here, now would you?

Li- twitches ...

Lithium- hums absently, then waves, bows and walks off, leaving a very pissed off Li to glare at the world of fan-girls