In the brightest hour

Of my darkest day I realized

What is wrong with me

Derek Sheppard sat at Joe's Bar Scotch neat in hand, debating whether or not to just go to her house and get it over with. They where going to be starting their intern year together in a few days and it would probably be better if he didn't spring the fact that after two years he was back for her. Back to win her heart once more. He went through a long period of time where he almost flunked out of med school because he was staying up late almost every night doing what ever it took to forget her.

Can't get over you

Can't get through to you

It's been a helter-skelter,

romance from the start

He hadn't noticed the music before but now he was very much aware of the acoustic guitar playing in the background. It was such a beautiful noise… so familiar. Once again his thoughts went back to Meredith, it had been two years she was probably over him by now. Probably had some hot shot boyfriend who would-. He couldn't even think it what he did to her was horrible he hated himself for it. He still remembered the look on her face when he told her. Never had he ever seen someone look so… broken.

Take these memories

That are haunting me

Of a paper women cut into shreds

By her own pair of scissors

She'll never forgive him...

She'll never forgive him...

The voice was soft and beautiful, just like he remembered her playing for him so many nights in their seven year relationship. It was weird whoever it was that was singing sounded so much like Meredith that it was scary. It couldn't be her, though. She was terrified of playing in front of strangers. Suddenly the song kicked up

Because days!

Come and go!

But my feelings for you are forever

Because days come and go

But my feelings for you are forever

Derek looked up from his drink for the first time at the women who was singing on stage. He was wrong it was Meredith. Her once long dark hair was shorter a couple inches past her shoulder, it was lighter then he remembered. She wore the same jeans she had on the night she packed up and left him coupled with a black halter top. She looked slightly older, more mature but still just as beautiful as she was when he first fell in love with her so long ago.

Her stage fright from when they where together was gone she belted out the song like there was no one but herself in the room. She had a smile plastered on her face a smile that he knew was fake. It was to toothy, Meredith's real smile was a subtle grin.

Sitting by a fire on a lonely night

Hanging over from another good time

With another boy... little dirty boy

You should listen to this story of a life

Memories of her singing just to him flooded back to him and he wondered if maybe she had given up surgery it didn't seem likely she loved the idea of being a doctor but two years was a long time.

He stared at her mesmerized buy her beauty. He could still fell her gentle loving touch all over his body. Her lips at his ear whispering that she loved him.

You're my heroine-in this moment

I'm lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams

All these drugs all these women

I'm never forgiven...

this broken heart of mine

Worst of all he could still see the look on her face when he told her. It had haunted him every moment of everyday since he last saw her. And then having to watch her walk away was possibly the hardest thing he very had to do even harder then actually telling her.

He looked up again this time there eyes locked. She looked surprised and for the first time since he had walked in her smile turned into a frown she tripped over the word and dropped the mike all the while never taking her eyes from his, he could have sworn that he saw those blue-green eyes that had haunted his dreams and waking life for the past two years, fill with tears a few fell but she whipped them away as soon as they fell,

One last chance

Before I go,

Dry your tears

It is time to let you go

One last chance before I got

Dry your tears it is time to let you go,

She finished the last verse with less enthusiasm then she had before her heart it seemed was no longer in it. It felt like daggers were being stabbed in his heart he was here hurting her again just by his mere presences. Tears stung his own eyes but he made no movement to stop them from falling. As he watched her hurriedly leave the bar with an unlit cigarette in her mouth and tears streaking her face. Great had he really driven her back to that nasty habit? With a sigh Derek rose from the bar and headed back to his apartment for yet another night that would be spent trying to forget.