A/N: I finished CoG yesterday; it was amazing, but I was a little disappointed they didn't show everyone's letters. So, I decided to attempt to replicate what I think Jace would have said!. I tried to keep the angst to a minimum, but failed miserably.
Anyhoo, I'm planning on writing up Isabelle and Alec's letters soonish. Hopefully they won't be so… mushy. I've got a ton of homework that I'm neglecting, so I'm posting this right away, completely unbetaed. You've been warned! Mwah.
Disclaimer: Sorry, I'm just not cool enough to own the Mortal Instruments.
Despite everything, I can't bear the thought of this ring being lost forever, any more than I can bear the thought of leaving you forever. And though I have no choice about the one, at least I can choose about the other.
With this ring, I've relinquished all those ties that bound me to my father. He taught me to be a warrior. He taught me to be a man. He taught me to be cold as ice. A few friends had started to chisel away my icy exterior, but with little success. Then you stumbled into my life: graceless, feisty, warm, perfect, my savior.
Clary. You are a fire; since the moment I saw you, you've consumed me.
I've told you before that you make me feel like I belong. That's not entirely true. You make me think that the world is a beautiful place, that life is worth living. So thank you. Thank you for teaching me the meaning of life, giving me a reason to live it, and, I suppose in light of my destination, to lose it.
If I succeed, I want you to know that it will be because of you. Knowing you love me, even if it's wrong, even though I'm cursed, gives me a strength I didn't know I lacked. And if I'm unsuccessful… if I'm unsuccessful, I will die with your name on my lips. Clary. No sound is sweeter, no name is more cherished than your own. I would die a thousand deaths before I let anyone extinguish you fire.
You can be angry with me if you want; I don't mind. So long as you understand why I left, you can be as irate as you want.
Even though it's wrong, even though it causes me the most exquisite agony I've ever know, I love you. I will love you so long as I live. If there is a god, and an afterlife, and we still have the capacity for emotion, I will love you then too.
Jace