"Just Came to Me"
Inspired. Chacateristic. Sarcastic. All of these words you can use to describe me. But... some people see me as Dumb. Uncaring. Selfish. And a jealous, spoiled snob. Those are the people who think they know me, but then again I don't think I know myself either. Back in high school, when I look back...I really was all of those things the people said about me.I hurt a lot of people. People I cared about. People I didn't care about. People I trusted so much that it hurt to see them cry because of I did. Back then I don't think I cared all that much as I think I do now. I wish I was more...aware of what I was doing. I was becoming the person, the one thing I hated in people. I was blind. Sure I can say it was because I was young, but that would be making excuses for my actions, and I don't think I have any. I acted because I was dumb. Uncaring. Selfish. And a jealous, spoiled snob. I never really understood what it felt like to be hurt the way it did, the way I made other people feel before it happened to me, myself. In high school 4 years ago, I thought I was above everybody else. I thought everybody looked up to me. Loved me. Now I see I was a fool. I hurt the person I loved because of my poor, pathetic actions of "affection".
Now I'm sitting on my sofa while my bestfriend comforts me in his own way.
"It's going to be ok."He said softly in my ear as I cry. I've never cried this much before in my life. I think I do now, because I feel what she felt. What he felt. And it brakes my heart into a thousand pieces, endlessly. Even though I don't think of what happened 3 years ago, when I do I still hurt looking back at it. I haven't told him the complete story, but I've told him enough to understand my position.
" Now-sniff-I know-sniff-how they felt," I said sadly," I can't believe-" I got cut off by my bestfriend.
" Shh...Do not talk like that. You are not the person at fault here." He said softly to me.
I know he's right, but I have a sinking feeling right now. I need to get out. Move. Anything. Anywhere, but here right now. Before I could move to do anything that my mind was telling me to do, I drifted off to sleep. My dreams in my head. I replayed memories of us together. One in particular. We were at the park and it was snowing. I wrapped my arms around his and his brothers torso with my slender arms and grining while he grined too, and his brother had a uncomferable face on. I think that was the happiest I've ever been in my life. It almost makes me want to smile. Before I knew it, I heard a snapping sound. Somebody was taking a picture. I open my eyes and see a little girl. Maybe 5 at the most. She had brown hair and baby blue eyes that made her look so peaceful. She was wearing a brown ruffled skirt with black pok-a-dotted sockings; a forest green coat with a red scarf wrapped around her.
" Sorry" She said shyly," It's just that...you guys look really happy." She spoke with a blush on her cheeks.
I started to giggle. The little girl looked at me and grined. She then pulled out the picture, that developed from her camera, and gave it to me.
I looked at it with a truely happy smile plastered on my face. " May I keep this?" I asked her.
She grinned and nodded." Yes,I 'm just practicing taking pictures. I'm going to be a Photographer!" She said excitingly. I looked at her with the smile still on my lips. I kneeled down to her level, and said," Well. I know you will be the best! Just don't give up your dream, and don't listen to all of thoose other people who say you can't do it, because I know you can." Then I felt a little frame against hugged me. I wrapped my arms around her, and gave her a little squeeze. She backed away from me with a smile that was still adored on her small face.
" Thank you." She her smile was replaced with a questioning look.
" What's wrong?" I said worringly.
" What's your name?" She asked.
I smiled at her, and said," Sakura."
" Mine's Kiyomi!"
I woke up and felt warmth; I knew who it was. What time is it? I tried to look at the stove clock without waking him. It didn't work. I looked at his face. I was greeted with soothing and caring eyes. My favorite eyes. They were dark gray with a hint of brown. Thoose eyes... the only ones I can always count on for anything. I loved thoose eyes.
" How are you feeling?" He asked softly.
" Better, I think." I moved proping my elbow up to make my hand support my head." Thank you... you know you didn't have to stay here." He raised one eyebrow in responce. I sighed." You're a good friend..." I gave him a suspitous look," Too good of a friend-" I was cut off by my friend who flipped me over on the couch, and started tickling me.
" HAHAHAHA-s-stop! HAHAHA o-oka-ay! I-i'm Kidding! HAHAHA knock it off!" He stoped, and I opened my eyes from my laughing fit, only to see him smirking at me. I made myself pout." That was not fair." That comment only made him smirk wider." What? Why do you keep doing that? Yano they created smiling too?" I said annoyed.
I glared at him for a long time until I looked into his eyes. Those eyes make it impossible for me to stay mad at him for a long time. Stupid eyes... (T.T). My glare turned soft and I pulled him down into a hug. I was done giving him my hug, but now I just casually had my arms around him. I heard his slow breathing. He's probably sleeping. In a matter of time I found my eyes slowly lower. I was almost asleep when I heard a phone go off. He woke up, pushed himself off of me, and got into a sitting position. I did the same.
" Hello" He answered was on the phone for about another 2 minutes before he hung-up. " Okay...No.." He said." No." He said substantaily. I saw his face change from emotionless to annoyed to soft. He quickly glanced at me. Then he said," Love you." Then hung-up just as quick. I inwardly snickered.
" Awwwww!" I cooed at glared at me childishly." If you weren't in a relationship with Deidara I would steal you away from him." I said giggling." But then again... I think every girl in the female populatioin would! Hehe." I turned to him and grinned. I got up and went to the kitchen to get some water." So, what did he want?" I asked.
" He just wanted to know how everything was. He wants to know if you want to come over for dinner and a movie." He said. I turned to him to decline, but I think he saw my anwser written on my face, so he commented before I could reply back to his offer." He's making snickerdoodles and has vanillabeam churned ice-cream." He said.
" What! WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY SO BEOFRE?" I screamed excitedly and to him." I accept!" I punched him on the shoulder. He smirked and ruffled my hair.
" Let's go Sakura." He said and started towards the door. He stopped and turned when he noticed I wasn't following." Do you want you cookies to be cold?" He smirked and opened the door. Then closed it. I stood still WHAT!? NOT MY COOKIES!
" HEY! SASORI!" I yelled, and ran out the door grabbing my shoes and keyes on the way out.