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Summary: Zack POV just as he heads up to the Nibelheim mako reactor to face Sephiroth, S/Z
I don't understand when this happened, let alone how. If I had known what would happen, I would have stopped you coming here; it was only supposed to be a routine mako reactor check. Why did it have to go so wrong?
There wasn't a way of knowing, was there? Some sign beforehand that I missed? No… there was nothing; no one could have known…did you? Could you feel something foreboding about this mission? Were you told anything extra to what I knew? Something that would indicate that this would happen? Would you have told me?
I don't think you knew either…of course I will never know now will I? I cannot ask you anymore. You would kill me as soon as look at me. You are not even really there anymore are you?
Its like a classic horror, everything seems normal at first, nothing wrong, then when there is a false sense of security, the evil attacks and scares the crap out of everyone.
You really scared me, you know? That look in your eyes, it wasn't you. It couldn't have been. Such a cruel and insane look is so foreign in your eyes.
You can't begin to understand how much you hurt me…would you even care anymore? Do you even remember kindness? Love? My love? Do you even truly remember me?
You were everything to me. You wee the first one I felt such strong love for…I know…I knew that you loved me as well…I was the only one that you ever fully dropped your guard around. You trusted me. You loved me.
When did that change? Why didn't you trust me enough to tell me what was going on in your mind? Why wouldn't you let me help you?
Was it my fault? What did I do to cause you to push me away and turn so cold again? I won't get the answers I want now…it's too late for that…maybe it wasn't me…maybe the man that I loved just…died…
Yes…he is dead…all that is left is a shell possessed by that…creature that made you like this…it killed the real you. That has to be it. My lover would never have done this; he may have had a cruel streak, but he would have never of killed innocents…massacred a whole village for no reason.
No…despite his cold countenance and stern stare, he was kind, loving and fiercely loyal to those that he allowed to be close to him. I was one of those very few that actually had the privilege of seeing him smile…hearing him laugh…and even the only one to see him cry…it was so easy to forget that he was just human because of all that had been done to him to make him seem otherworldly…but underneath it all he was just a mortal…like everyone else…
Whatever you are now, you are not him. I will never get him back now, I realise that…even so I will not allow you to continue wearing his face…using his body…I will kill you for taking him from me…then I will die too…I do not want to live knowing that I killed his body…I do not want to live without him…
I will be joining you soon my love…
I love you Sephiroth…