I don't own Criminal Minds, and I'm in no way making any profit off of this story.

Summary: Penelope has a secret and Derek thinks he knows what it is…maybe he does maybe he doesn't .

Way not beta read! I am human, I make mistakes

Secrets of the Heart and Other Parts

Chapter Name: But He Did

Kevin Lynch

Fucking Kevin Lynch

Fucking Kevin fucking Lynch

Sitting at his desk, the words circled in his mind over and over again. Derek Morgan knew what he wanted and that man…. no boy , freaken paper thin shell of an asshole, boy was in his way. And that was something Derek could not stand for.

Kevin Lynch

He didn't know how to treat a goddess like Penelope. He didn't know her at all, but Morgan did. Morgan knew how she would bit her lip just a little bit if she was upset. How she would close her eyes for a few seconds after looking at crime scene photos, so she could try to ease them from her memory . Or how after a hard case, she would go home and dance around in her Hello Kitty pjs just so that she could feel happy again.

Kevin Lynch didn't know Penelope Garcia secret. But Derek Morgan did.

After his baby girl had be shot, Morgan had taken to spending the night, every night with his goddess. The first eight nights, possibly the best eight nights of his life, Morgan slept in bed with her, holding her keeping her safe. The pain meds the doctors gave her made her a little loopy and in her loopy-ness she had told him that he chased the bad darkness away. That he was her knight of light.

So why the hell was she spending all her time the that ass clown Kevin Lynch?

Oh Morgan understood why Penelope wouldn't spend time with him. Because she was afraid of her feeling for him. Of that I'm 100 percent sure of he thought grimly

He had felt bad for doing it, but how could he resist? There it was, just sitting there, calling to him. Read me, read me please read me. Over and over again. Her diary.

His baby girl had been asleep in her bed, alone, for hours now and something had kept Morgan awake. Some cold dreadful feeling that pulled at his chest, like his body knew that he should be in bed beside her. He couldn't shake it. That's when he saw it. Sticking out from under one of the many pillows of her bay window bench. He stared at it for what felt like hours but really was only a few minutes. It was bright purple with red flowers all over it and his palms itched. Badly. Getting up from the couch, he walked right to it and grab it. He held it, walked around her place with it, but didn't look inside. He growled to himself, I need to. Sitting down, he flipped through the pages once to fast to read. He took a deep breath and opened it right in the middle and started reading.

**I just see him and I smile. Its like he is my light, my safe place. I know feeling like this is so very wrong but I cant help how my heart feels. I know that he would never feel this way about me, I'm not dumb. I have seen the girls that he was been with. They are not like me. They are super thin, super sexy and well super everything. And I'm well super nothing. I mean I like myself I like my body I do. I have come to terms that I am just always going to be a BIG girl. Oh well, who ever I end up with will have to like me how I am. And I do mean end up with. No one could make me one tenth of what he makes me feel. If he only knew. Hell if anyone knew the truth, that I, Penelope Garcia, dream of the same man every night and almost every minute of every day and I would do anything for him to be my first, they would be flooded. I would hug that moment to myself forever. But he is just my dream, my best friend, my knight of light. My Derek Morgan.**

Slamming the book shut, Morgan's jaw drop. Penelope, his gorgeous, drop dead sexy Penelope, was a virgin. And she wanted him to be her first.

Then came Kevin Lynch. That geek would not be touching HIS baby girl, no fucking way. Morgan had made up his mind right then, sitting at his desk. He was going to let Kevin Lynch and the rest of the males of plant earth know that Penelope Garcia was his, his woman, his and his alone.

Now he just need to let her know that.