Ok. No more long words, no more drama, no more not saying what I mean. I'm just going to come out with it.
If you're all reading this, I'm dead. It's such a hard word to write, for something that is so easy, so simple, so peaceful.
I'm not going to say that I'm sorry, because I'm not. I'm not doing this for attention. I'm not doing this to upset you. I'm not trying to be strong, or special or different. I'm doing it because I have to.
I've always known that I'd die by my own hand. I couldn't end it any other way. It just wouldn't be…right. So I've done it. I've finally gone ahead with plans I've had for years.
I've killed myself.
I'm gone. At peace. Free. It's not a rash decision. I've been planning this for as long as I can remember. So now I've done it.
You'll get over it. You'll forget, with time. I know you don't believe that, but it's true. Look after each other. I'm much better off this way. And always, always remember: none of this is your fault. Any of you. Don't blame yourselves.
Goodbye.