Hello! –waves- This is just a quick one-shot I wrote in half an hour out of boredom. So –shrugs- Please review anyway, it makes me feel better. Like my efforts weren't in vain, however little my efforts happen to be.
Disclamer: I don't own Bleach.
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I sometimes wonder if I made the right decision that night. Did I make the right decision or should I have chosen another route? Should I have acted differently when Renji came to my door? If I had another chance, would I have done the same thing? I don't know. I wish I could find out. Maybe, one day, I'll get that same chance again. Maybe, one day, I'll get the chance to rethink my actions. Maybe, one day, Renji will come to my door asking for help again.
As I lie here in my bed, staring up at the ceiling above me, I can hear the servants preparing breakfast. They have probably had a good night's sleep. I have not. I have lain here all night, staring up above me. Sleep has not lured me into it's clutches since I slid under the covers. I know I will regret this later, but right now I don't care. Right now, I need all the time I can get to think.
I didn't make the right choice. Of course I didn't. I had lied. I had said something that couldn't be further from the truth. Even now, with a whole night of thinking, I don't know why I did it. Was it because I thought it would improve my Lieutenant's attitude and resolve? Was it because I thought it would make him stronger? I don't know, but all I know is that I did it. All I know is that I made a huge mistake.
"Hey Bya …"
I felt strong, muscled arms wind around my waist and a naked body pressed against my own.
I invited Abarai Renji into my bed.
I had lain beside him all night.
I had told him I loved him.
And every single action and word I had done and said had been a lie.
I wish I hadn't have done any of those things.
Then this part wouldn't be so hard.
"Get out, Renji."