WHAT THEY DON'T KNOW...

Author's Note- This is about Faith and Buffy's mixed up relationship, if you can call it that.

It's told from Faith's POV and her thoughts on the secrets Buffy keeps, namely, her.

Enjoy.

I own nothing. All rights go to their respective owners.

ONE

I didn't mean for this to happen and I'm pretty sure blondie wasn't expecting it either.

It's my thing, I tease, I flirt and I see how much they can take. I never expected B to fall for it so hard but she did and here we are.

Maybe I should take you back to when it all started, God knows I do it everyday, trying to figure out how we got here...

B was telling me about Scott Hope. He was the sweet, kind guy who Buffy had her eye on but just didn't have the guts to do anything about it. He was cute but not my type. Buffy's? Definitely!

"So, you and Scott. How's that goin'?" I asked as we patrolled together.

B and I had gotten pretty close over the past few months and I felt comfortable talking to her like this. It was nice. I was used to being the loner and to have someone to talk to, who could understand me, it was refreshing.

"It's not." The blonde replied with a grimace.

"But you want it to." I noted with a smirk.

The blonde blushed and gave me a small smile.

"I don't know..."

I pushed the issue, I always did.

"Oh come on, B! Tell me that when he smiles at you, you don't feel that electric tingle down there." I challenged, glancing down.

It made her blush harder and she tucked a strand of blonde hair behind her ear.

God we were so different! She was innocent, cute and blonde and I was risky, sensual and dark but it worked, we worked.

"Faith, this is-"

I stopped walking and turned to look at her.

"What? Making you uncomfortable?"

Buffy nodded slightly and I licked my lips, feeling a little foolish.

The girl couldn't do girl talk, ok, fair enough. I backed off, even though it wasn't my style at all but with B, I felt I should be a bit more respectful; maybe it was because she was a Slayer like me or maybe it was something else.

I frowned a little at the thought, trying to ignore it.

Buffy caught it though.

"You ok?" She asked.

I forced a smile.

"Five by five."

"Where are all the vamps tonight, huh?" Buffy said but her tone was shaky, she was trying to change the subject.

Ok, I'll play.

"Um yeah, it's dead. Listen, why don't you go home, study or whatever, I can finish up here."

To be honest, I needed to be away from her. She keeps shutting me out and I can't handle it, not when I'm so used to being on my own and I've actually decided to make friends with the Sunnydale Princess. It hurts.

"Are you sure? I mean, I can stay if-"

"No, I got it. Go home." I know my tone was hard but she was showing concern and I'm not buying it.

She gave me a quick look and then nodded.

"Ok...I'll see you tomorrow, I guess."

I nodded.

"Sure. Later."

I walked off first, in case she changed her mind and decided to stay or maybe she'd get me to open up and I sure as hell wasn't gonna do that!

I walked the rest of the cemetery, finding nothing, which was annoying as fuck 'cause I really needed to blow off some steam.

Maybe I could go to the Bronze, hook up with someone hot, bring them back to the motel, have my way and then make sure they left before morning.

None of them stayed, I didn't want them to.

It was strictly, get some, get gone. I lived by that and I hadn't got my heart broken yet.

The next night, Buffy was still a little stiff but I was ready to cut loose. I wouldn't wait anymore.

I gestured with my head to the cemetery gates.

"It's dead again tonight, how about we hit the Bronze?"

Buffy's eyes darted from me to the gates, then back again.

"Like, go dancing?"

I raised an eyebrow at the other Slayer.

"Nah, B. I was thinking we could take our knitting needles there and knit scraves for the band."

She rolled her eyes at me.

"Ok Miss Sarcasm, I get it."

I shrugged.

"So? You wanna let loose or what?" I know I was being a bit quick but I had to do something to get rid of this pent up energy.

A small smile crossed Buffy's lips.

"Yeah. I'm in."

The Bronze was crowded and we were surrounded by boys, all of them trying to cop a feel and sometimes I let them but when they started going in too close to touch B, I stepped up when I saw how uncomfortable she was.

"Hey, buddy! I don't think she wants you drooling all over her!" I called over the music.

He grinned as he started to grind into Buffy's ass, his hands planted firmly on her hips.

"Oh yeah? I think she likes it."

I knew B wouldn't do anything, she was shocked and he was human. She had a thing about hurting humans. I didn't.

I acted like I didn't care, dancing closer and closer until Buffy was sandwiched between us.

The loser grinned when I draped my arms around Buffy's neck.

B blushed again.

I beckoned the guy to come closer, to meet me over B's shoulder, he did and that was when I thrust the heel of my hand up and into his nose.

He stumbled backwards, blood gushing from his nose.

His eyes were watering or he could've been crying. I didn't care much either way.

Buffy's eyes widened and so did mine when I saw her turn and nearly drop to her knees beside him.

I grabbed her arm before she had a chance and dragged her out of the club.

"Faith! You can't just do that to people!" She shouted, anger brimming in those hazel eyes.

"What? Save you from some loser?"

"He's human!"

"So I can't protect you from him?!"

"I don't need protecting!"

"Well, clearly you do because that guy nearly had his dick in your ass and you wasn't doing a damn thing to stop him!"

"I-I was shocked!"

"Hence why I hit him!" I shouted, my eyes widening even more.

We both went into stony silence and then suddenly for some insane reason, we both started laughing.

When we'd calmed down, B looked at me and then up at the sky.

"It's still early, wanna patrol some more?"

I nodded and followed her lead as we headed for Restfield cemetery.

Don't get me wrong, I was fine with B but I still felt as though I had some unreleased tension and once again, the vamps weren't playing ball tonight.

B sighed, looking up at the moon.

"Do you wonder if we'll ever get to live a normal life? Like, y'know, family, kids, a proper job, maybe even a pet?"

I gave her a small frown. I didn't really like to think about the future, except when she was around. I mentally kicked myself to stop those stupid thoughts and focused on my answer.

"Nah, not really. Just like to live one day to the next."

Buffy shrugged, then it was like she had remembered something.

"I never said thank you."

I raised an eyebrow at her.

"For what?"

"For defending me against that loser. I know we argued that he was human but still...you were looking out for me. Thank you." Buffy said with a small smile.

I couldn't help but return that same smile and I nodded.

"You're welcome."

God what was wrong with me?! Normally, I would've shrugged it off or said something like, 'don't sweat it', but here I was actually acknowledging the fact that she'd said thank you.

We walked for a little while until eventually she turned to me.

"I think maybe we should call it a night. The vamps have obviously heard about you and have gone into hiding." She said with a grin.

I looked down at my boots, hiding the stupid smile that I knew was coming.

"Yeah, maybe."

"Faith, I was only joking." She said, a small frown of confusion coming to her face.

I said nothing.

"Are you ok?" She asked instead.

I shrugged.

"Sure. It's just if I don't get in a good staking, I start to feel all...I dunno, antsy? Is that the word?"

Buffy nodded as I rolled my shoulders and scratched at my back as though the idea of not slaying at all was making me physically itchy.

"Yeah I get what you mean. I guess I'll go home and try to get some sleep."

I sighed. I wished it was that easy for me but I knew it wouldn't be.

I also knew what I had to do and the longer I left it, I knew there wouldn't be many more options to choose from.

I nodded and pocketed my stake.

"Sure. I'm gonna head back now too. See you tomorrow?"

Buffy nodded with a small smile.

"Sure. Maybe we can hit the other cemetery tomorrow, change the game a bit?"

I nodded.

"Sounds like a plan. Catch ya later."

Buffy gave me a small wave and then we parted ways.

She went home and me? I went back to the Bronze...

I watched the people for a while until I spotted a guy dancing really close to a girl that clearly wasn't his girlfriend. He was pushing his luck as she was pushing him away.

I stared at him until he looked my way, then I gave him a small, flirtatious smile then walked slowly into the alley, knowing full well that he would follow me.

Within minutes, he was standing behind me as I faced the wall.

"Hey." He said.

I turned around and sauntered up to him, taking charge and claiming his lips with my own.

He kissed me back and it didn't take long before I felt him get hard.

He grinned against my mouth and I helped him with his zipper as he helped me with mine.

The next thing I knew, he was lifting me up and slamming into me.

I hissed and clenched my teeth as my back hit the wall and he fucked me harder than I thought he would. I needed it though, so I went with it, holding onto him and giving as good as I got.

He came very quickly and I was almost disappointed with how quickly it was over.

I needed someone that could go for hours and he seemed to last maybe minutes?

Dammit, I used to be good at picking out the ones with stamina, maybe I was losing my touch.

Yeah, or maybe a certain blonde is occupying your mind.

I rolled my eyes as he stepped back and grinned at me.

"That was amazing." He told me.

I raised an eyebrow and zipped myself up.

"Was it?"

"Didn't you feel it?"

"Oh I felt it and then I didn't. Sorry honey, but I've had better."

I then walked away from him.

Guess I would have to finish myself off back home.

The next night, B and I were patrolling. It was driving me crazy being around her and I didn't know how much longer I could take this. So one night, I decided to take the bull by the horns, so to speak.

"Buffy...I need to tell you something." I started.

She turned and smiled at me.

"Sure. You ok?"

I nodded but then a vamp behind her made me forget what I'd been about to say.

"Yeah. There's a vampire behind you."

She spun and as one, we fought the vampire back but he wasn't alone and three more appeared. We fought them and they were strong, it felt like a bit of a challenge but then we had had two nights with no vamp activity so maybe we'd grown lazy and this was karma. Not that I believed in that... most times.

We managed to dust one and then B was shoved to the ground by another.

"Buffy!"

I ran but his friend barged into me and knocked me to the ground too.

I dusted him quickly then the remaining one looked, didn't like his odds, and ran off.

I ran over and jumped onto the back of the vampire as I brought my stake down, turning him to dust.

He crumbled beneath me and when I opened my eyes, I was in his place, straddling B.

She looked up at me, eyes all wide and innocent.

I stayed where I was, not quite sure what to do because she didn't seem to move either.

We were both breathing hard from the fight and I frowned deeply as I made a decision that would either get me what I wanted or a black eye.

Hey, if you didn't try, you wouldn't know, right?

I leant down and kissed her. It was a little hard and I waited to see if she returned it.

Nothing.

I started to pull away when I felt her hand in my hair and she was holding me to her.

I kissed her again and this time, she returned it.

When I pulled back, brushing her hair out of her eyes, she looked up at me, a slightly panicked expression on her face.

"Faith...what are we doing?" She whispered.

I grinned down at her.

"Well, what do you want to do?"

She frowned a little and I felt her move beneath me, trying to sit up, so I let her.

She was resting back on her elbows as I still straddled her.

"Faith, this is wrong. We shouldn't-"

I wasn't about to let her chicken out of this. She wanted it, I knew she did.

"Shouldn't what? Come on, B. Tell me you don't want this. I dare you."

She licked her lips, looking up at me.

"I don't-I mean, I'm not-"

"Gay?"

She nodded.

I grinned.

"Who says I am?"

This caused her frown to deepen.

"Uh, this. The kiss." She said, gesturing to where we were.

I licked my lips and raised an eyebrow at her.

"Let's just say...I'm fluid. Last night, I was fucking a guy, tonight, I'm kissing you."

She shook her head, just to clear the confusion, I guess.

"So what do you want?" B asked me hesitantly.

"I want you, baby." I told her honestly.

I knew what she was thinking, so I made it easy for her.

"Hey, B. It doesn't have to mean anything if this is something you want to try. Tonight, it's just us. Tomorrow, you can go back to being Saint Slayer with her merry band of followers and we'll still be friends. It's that simple."

She bit her lip and I waited patiently for her answer.

Finally, she looked up at me and said one name.

"Angel."

I knew he would be the reason she didn't go through with this.

I knew a little about their history and I also knew exactly what to say to finish this.

"He can't give you a good screw like I can. Why pass up on the pleasure that he can't give you. You know what happens if he ever did. Everything would go to shit."

She looked up at me. I knew she was torn. She wondered if this would change our friendship or not. For me, it wouldn't. If she liked it, great, if not, we went back to how things were and neither of us would ever have to go there again if we didn't want to.

Hazel eyes locked with mine.

"Ok."

I grinned and leant down to give her a gentle kiss.

"I'm gonna make this so good for you, B."

She gave me a small smile.

"Just... one thing."

Buffy nodded.

"Sure."

I licked my lips, hoping she would do as she was told.

"You're very vanilla babe, just for tonight, let yourself go. If it feels good, do it. You get me?"

She nodded and I went back to kissing her gently.

"Alright then."

Author's Note- Ok, first chapter up. I haven't wrote anything as graphic as this before so let me know what you guys think.