Okay so this one is kinda written for me. After watching Bones live last night (which is rare and very hard for me to do, due to me living in the UK) I just thought to myself - 'Hey, how would Kensi act at her first day back at work after having a baby - especially seeing as she wouldn't have a daycare on ''campus''.

So sorry to the person who I said I would write for today, but the muse of that story got kicked out of my head and this muse stole it's place in line - I'm sure the muse will be back again tomorrow :)

Okay, so here we go ...

- LJ x

I Miss Him
Rating: K+
Words: 1,790

Kensi held the little bundle that her life now centred around in her arms, he was sleeping peacefully as she rocked back and forth, standing frozen in spot.

Deeks walked through into the sitting room with a green bag over one shoulder and holding the straps of his gym bag in the other hand. "Kens'?"

Kensi looked up to him and smiled before shooting her gaze back to the baby in her arms. "Have you got everything?" she said in a low voice, not looking up from the baby.

"Yes, everything is here, emergency bottles and formula in case you can't make it for lunch, special brand diapers, pacifiers, toys, blanket and about 20 extra romper suits"

Kensi looked up and saw that Deeks was now much closer to her. She bit her lip before preparing to hand the baby over. She shifted him into Deeks arm before pulling back the blanket a bit around his face and pressing a light kiss on his chubby cheek.

"Daddy get a kiss too?" Deeks laughed as Kensi placed a quick kiss on his lips.

"Do you think that we could convince Hetty for the OSP to open up an employee day care? Most agencies have them" Kensi said as she went to get her bag.

"It would be a pretty dull place seeing as only three people in the whole OSP have children" He smiled.

Kensi looked back at Deeks who was holding their 8 week old son. She originally only was supposed to have 1 ½ months off of work, but at 6 week she couldn't bear to leave him – so she took the two whole months for maternity.

Their son started to stir in Deeks' arms as Kensi walked back over.

"Ohh somebody's awake" Deeks smiled and changed the position he was holding his son. "I think Jacob wants mommy"

Kensi smiled and took Jacob back from Deeks.

"Hey, you okay?" he asked her, taking her bag from her – so now he was carrying all three bags.

"Thanks... I'm fine, really. It's going to be hard, that's all" Kensi smiled. "Let's get going."

Deeks nodded and they both walked out of their apartment, locking the door on the way out and over to Kensi's car.

"Deeks, can you drive? I think I'm going to sit in the back with Jacob" Kensi held her keys out to him.

Deeks gave her a sympathetic smile – he went back to work when Jacob was 2 weeks old as men had less 'maternity' than woman, plus he didn't want it to be equally hard to leave his son when they both went back. Although it was very hard, he had full comfort knowing Kensi was there with Jacob all the time, now he was prepared to leave him with somebody he only knew from files he shouldn't have even been looking at.

Deeks took the keys and walked around the car, throwing all of their bags into the front passenger side, knowing it would be easier to take them out from there than if they were in the trunk.

He got into the driver's side and watched in the rear-view mirror as Kensi checked and double checked each belt and socket that secured Jacob in – this wasn't his first time in the car, but today Kensi was extra angsty about it.

"Everybody safe?" He asked.

"Yeah" she said, checking Jacob was definitely secure.

Deeks started the engine and began to drive towards the day care they had signed Jacob up for – it was really high-class for a day care, it wasn't run out of anybody's home or in a small homely shack, it was one of the best in LA, the type celebrities would take their babies to.

"Why did we have to put him in a snobby day care?" Deeks asked.

"I didn't choose the snobbiest, I chose the safest, Deeks." Kensi snapped. "Sure it's a little bit more costly than the rest and we probably wouldn't be able to afford it if we didn't have my mom and Hetty, but I just want to take every precaution, it's not unnatural for people to use our families as leverage in our line of work ... I don't want anybody to have the opportunity, Deeks. Ever"

Deeks sighed, he knew exactly what Kensi meant, anybody could go after Jacob to get to them, heck all they had to do was say his name and they would do anything the people wanted. He was their son, and with their jobs, everybody was a threat.

They parked up at the day care and Kensi wasn't lying when she said it was one of the best in LA, just parking up he saw a few faces he recognised from TV. "At least Jacobs' friends will have famous mommy's and daddy's" Deeks sighed.

"Pack it in Marty" Kensi warned.

Deeks smiled and got out of the car, grabbing the bright green bag on his way out. He walked around the car and opened the Door for Kensi, who got out holding the car seat with Jacob in. "Thanks"

Kensi walked into the big white building, being guided by Deeks' hand on her back.

They walked up to the front desk and Deeks finally made a comment "Why does a day care need a front desk" he whispered to Kensi.

"At these prices I would be surprised if they didn't" Kensi whispered back before 'Next' was called.

"Hello, welcome to Primrose Day Care, how can I help you?" The receptionist asked.

"Uh, Kensi Blye and Martin Deeks, We're here to drop of Jacob Deeks for his first day" Kensi smiled lifting the car seat slightly. "8 weeks old."

"Ah, yes you're on the registry, it says you have paid full tuition for the year, is this correct?"

"Yes" Kensi nodded.

"Okay, both of you have been issued these passes." She passes two passes two them with 'PARENT' printed across them and 'JACOB D. DEEKS' in block capitols under it. "Just scan these through the door to your right and follow the signs to the Infants area" She smiled.

Kensi and Deeks both took their passes and smiled, before walking to the door on their right and scanning the passes. "I take back what I said, I understand why it needs a front desk" Deeks whispered. "I'm positive Jake will be fine here"

"And yet I'm still worried" she said back to him, walking down the corridors with bright murals on each of the walls.

"Because you're his mommy" Deeks smiled. "It would be wrong if you weren't worried"

They finally reached the infant room of the day care, they were greeted by a lovely woman who took Jacob from them, and assuring them he was in good hands.

Deeks had to lead Kensi out, she was getting sympathetic looks from other mothers, and one even said 'It's so hard the first few weeks, don't worry though, It gets easier'

Deeks finally managed to get Kensi into the car and noticed she had a few stray tears.

"Is everything okay?"

"I miss him already" she sniffed.

Deeks sighed and leant over, pulling her into his arms. "It's okay, you'll see him in a few hours for lunch"

"You're right, I'm being stupid" She breathed in and out deeply, letting go of Deeks so he could drive them to work.

Kensi put a big smile on her face – she was happy to be back at work but couldn't portray that emotion on her face for some mysterious reason.

"Hey!" Callen stood up and hugged Kensi "Welcome back"

"Hey" she smiled back, "Good to be back"

Sam also pulled her into a hug. "No it's not" He told her. "It never is"

Her smile went slightly weaker as she sat down, noticing Deeks had put a framed photo of her and Jacob that he took minutes after Jacob was born on her desk.

She teared up slightly and took the photo.

"Are you okay Kens'?" Callen asked.

She nodded. "Yeah, I still have the hormonal in balance due to breast feeding, couple with missing Jake, it's just hard"

"You'll make it through" Deeks smiled.

She smiled back, rubbing her thumb over the photo. "Yeah"

A/N: OKAY THIS IS SOOOO LATE. (it's 10pm here) but in my defence this day went uber fast and blame Mari and Beth for getting me caught up with collab video making as well.

I really wanted this to be longer but I really needed to upload it and it's 10pm and my dad's asleep in the next room and I have the loudest keyboard ever, that wakes him up – so instead of writing a new fic tomorrow – I'm making this a two-shot and there will be another chapter to this :)

I also might write a separate fic as well.. If I have time!

So please review if you think it's a good idea to continue this for another chapter or if I should leave it x

Love always, LJ x