Rhythm of my heart
By Lefty 31
Disclaimer- I don't own Glee or the characters though I wish I did
Blaine sat in bed and looked up at the wall. So many things had been going wrong lately and Blaine didn't feel like telling anyone about his problems. His family knew but it was only because they were to blame. Blaine often went home and went straight to his room crying into his pillow after his family went to bed. Blaine was pretty good at hiding his hurt though. He was pretty good at putting on a happy front and convincing everyone and sometimes even himself that he was happy. Blaine heard a knock on the door and quickly wiped the tears from his eyes. When he sat up he saw his boyfriend standing in the doorway. Blaine looked at Kurt and smiled. He had come over to work on a new song that he and Blaine were planning on singing for Glee club. Kurt was very surprised by his boyfriends emotional state.
"baby" Kurt said before he walked over to Blaine's bed and hugging his boyfriend. Blaine looked at Kurt and felt more tears fall down his face. He didn't say anything but Kurt knew exactly what Blaine needed. Kurt laid Blaine down on the bed and laid next to Blaine rapping his arms firmly around Blaine's body. Blaine turned so he was facing Kurt and felt more tears fall down his face. Kurt kissed the top of his head.
"Sleep baby you need to sleep. I'm here" Kurt said holding Blaine close to him. Blaine nodded his head and closed his eyes resting his head on Kurt's shoulder. When Blaine woke up he was still in Kurt's arms. Kurt was still asleep so Blaine didn't move. He closed his eyes holding back the tears that threatened to fall. He had to act like he wasn't broken even though it was a lie. Soon Blaine saw Kurt's eyes flutter open. Blaine smiled softly at him.
"Morning Kurt" Blaine said
"Morning Blaine" Kurt responded. Kurt noticed his boyfriends red puffy eyes from crying the night before. Sure Kurt had seen Blaine cry before. This was different it was more intense. Blaine sat up and grabbed some clothing from his closet. School- the worst part of every day. Blaine looked at Kurt and noticed he was still wearing the clothing he wore to school the day before. School didn't start until 8 and it was only 6:30.
"baby if you want to shower you can i still have some of your clothes from when you spend the weekend with me." Blaine stated. Kurt nodded his head then looked back at Blaine.
"Will you shower with me. Nothing sexual i promise" Kurt asked. Blaine agreed and they both headed to the bathroom. Blaine watched as Kurt stripped then quickly undressed himself getting in the shower with his boyfriend. 10 minutes later Kurt and Blaine finished their shower and dried off before heading back to Blaine's bedroom. Blaine kissed Kurt before the couple got dressed and headed downstairs for breakfast. Blaine took Kurt's hand as they walked down the stairs. He knew his parents were both home but that didn't stop him from showing affection for his boyfriend. Soon the couple got into separate cars and drove to school. Blaine cheered himself up from the thoughts that ran through his head all day ever since that day. Blaine pulled into school and parked his car next to Kurt's and the couple walked into school together. Blaine was careful not to cause more attention to himself over his sexual orientation then is already there.
Blaine went through his normal day to day phases. Happy during classes loving around Kurt and pissed around idiots. All acting and even though he truly loved Kurt and felt happy when he was around his friends in New Directions but he had to shut off all emotions so he wouldn't spill his secret that could destroy his life forever. In between classes Blaine saw Kurt and quickly ran up to him.
"hi baby, so i was-"
"Blaine what was going on last night?' Kurt asked out of the blue
"What do you mean?" Blaine asked acting as if he had no idea what Kurt was talking about.
"baby you know what i am talking about. I walked into your room and you were crying. What happened." Kurt asked
"Its nothing" Blaine stated
"Baby you know you can tell me anything right?" Kurt asked
'Oh that, I found out my Uncles dog died. Man i always loved poor old Ralph. Mom said they are going to bury him soon." Blaine lied. They heard the bell ring and Kurt looked at Blaine and Blaine spoke before Kurt had a chance.
"well better get to class, see you later Kurt." Blaine said before quickly walking away leaving Kurt standing in the hall confused. Soon it was last period and Kurt and Blaine sat in the choir room. Blaine sat next to Rachel and Mercedes so he could avoid answering questions from Kurt. Soon everyone was singing or looking up songs they want to preform for this weeks assignment. Of course Blaine had promised his boyfriend that they would sing together so Blaine moved closer to Kurt and for the first time he could tell that Kurt was upset with him. Blaine looked at Kurt and gave his boyfriend the stare down and soon Kurt sighed and turned to Blaine.
"I don't like that you lied to me today. your suppose to be able to tell me anything Blaine and you didn't." Kurt explained. Blaine looked at Kurt and sighed
"This isn't something i can tell you about. Its to personal and something you probably would break up with me if you found out" Blaine stated. Kurt shook his head and grabbed a hold of Blaine's hands.
"Baby please just tell me i want to help you." Kurt begged.
"I-I can't" Blaine said. He felt warm tears fall from his eyes and soon he stood up running out of the Choir room leaving everyone in the room confused. Blaine ran home not bothering to explain himself to anyone on his way out. Blaine opened his house door knowing nobody would be home and slammed it behind him. He ran up stairs and slammed his door behind him falling onto his bed and pulling the blankets over his head softly crying himself to sleep.